She had a tendency
To douse me in kerosene
And light me on fire
With a flicker of her eyes
And a match strike smile

I awoke to the sky still in blackened splits
To find a heavenly creature lying there
Shining bright, oh so bright.

Tomorrow will come
And we’ll be alright
For she is mine
And I am hers.

Don't tell me our youth is running out
It's a simple foot race and it's only just begun
People are such in a rush
To get from point A to point C
Sometimes it's just more beautiful
To get lost at B

Look at how much can change in a year
You gain love and you lose love
I think never being relevant
Is my number one fear

People change and that's just a small part of life
Love with everything you have and never anticipate the pain
Because today is the day that your whole world could just change

Stricken with black and white
For these brittle bones
Refuse to bend with all the ways
I live my life
With Death’s advance gambling away with my addictive tendencies
And these golden eyes shine bright
With silver hopes
Laced with tidbits of salt
Grounded in constellation smiles
Treading ever so playfully on my heart
Liplocked straight razors
Slicing through my every dream
Locked away in some far off
Hillsong forest
Benevolent to yours truly
With a guitar, bottle of whiskey
And a bullet.

I began writing here at the age of twenty
Eight years later, some days and nights
I found those clouds I saw off in the distance
She had bright blue eyes
Pink lemonade lips
Those aren't what made me love her though
The way she looks at my son did
Her laugh and the hum of her breath helped
His giggle and hands showed me truth
Taught me things I didn't know I needed to learn
Lest I not forget the wonderful dead
Who showed me what I had
What I've earned
And what I still have to strive for
Yeah, I guess it's been eight years
I suppose I will continue to write
Continuing at the age of twenty-eight.

I got to cussin’
And I got to a screamin’
And I got to losin’ my cool

And I got to smokin’
And I got to drinkin’
And I got to takin’ my **** out on you.

Girl we still got somethin here, I stay believin’
I’m not goin’ no where till I’m done breathin’

I was driving home
And saw a sole tree
Alone in a field
Apathetic learnings
So, deserving of all of this love
Ever disconnected to all of your lives
Is there even a single kindness
That we can plunge into the soil
Or shall we just fall on our axes
Lost behind fading lights
When hands begin to tremble
With heavy eyelids
And oncoming traffic

Let my knees sink into ocean blues
Where the sea’s grasp at my heavens
When the skies overcast tells blackened truths
With my swimless sinless desires pooling
Call her pretty in this dying city
Oh, heart break city, how I’m packing my bags
And, I just feel so alive
That’s the only time we ever feel anything but, sad wanting to die
So, turn down the Sinatra
Hear the scratch of the record player
As we dance at 3 in the morning
Oh, heart break city, we’re packing our bags, cause we’re stressed out
And we’re taking the first flight out
Just to find ourselves driving back
Oh, heart break city, heart throbs and heart stops
Full of fragile hearts, but we’re just not that broken

What more can I say or do?
I'm only see half of what's there
Trying to free my head above all this chaos
What's complicated should only be so simple
When midnight comes and I've run out of time
To make some kind of difference
I constantly overlook the impact I've made
My minds wide open, like starry skies

Except the colors are starting to fade
I guess this gray just got me feelin' shamed
This is something we all know
In the end, most just seem to let it go
Can feel it breakin' down
Gettin' lost and losin' hold

If this is what you need
Then let the flames die
Let the glow and embers go cold
I'll do what you want
Fighting what I've been told
Left you lost in moments
And nothing feels quite the same

Western coast overcast
With the waves lapping at my toes
Truth is I think of writing all the time
Yet, I’m unable to fill blank pages
With salt filled air and words alike
For this over-freeze is affecting me
And I am just not feeling the wind
In the sway and flow of the trees
And my brain is diseased
And I’m feeling low
Oh, I’m feeling low

It’s hard to explain what it’s like
The smell of the air
The heat waves over the crowd
The fresh cut grass
A flat beer and a hotdog
Maybe a pretty girl or two
All of it ever so trivial
When it comes down to just us
Toe to toe in a 12 round boxing match
Except our punches come at 90 MPH
Who will win?
Regardless...
I suppose it’s always a beautiful day
For some baseball

I
  Get
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                                      Some
                     ­                            People's
                                                        ­         Reactions
                                                       ­                   I
                                            ­                   Don't
                                                         See
                                                 My
                                         Own
                               Faults
                       ­  For
               What
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There's a bunch of things in this crazy life I don't like
When you come around though you seem to make it all alright
You always seem surprised
Just a quick glance from my eyes
You're always making me change my mind
And lately I seem to think that's just fine
Tell me something only I will know
I'll give you reason not to go
Can I have your heart?
And maybe I can give mine up
It's up to you just let me go
I'll share with you something only you will know
Because we both have feelings we don't show
So, how are we suppose to grow
If we love each other just let one another know

I’ve made my mistakes
There’s so much love that I’m blind too
And I laid them to rest right beside you
Never thought I’d lose my way
Looking for the right way
Where heavy hearts can’t decide
If they’ve had enough
I suppose we just got carried away
It’s almost prophetic like you said
“We’ll just learn from our mistakes.”
And I’ve seen miracle love
She’s a dark haired blue eyed angel
Performing love work with gentle hands

Can I burn my lips on your skin babe?
Can I char my tongue on your back babe?
Can I cauterize my wounds on your heart babe?
Can I blind my eyes on your blaze babe?
Or is it all too much to ask for...
We'll just leave it to the orignal
Can I put my lips on your skin babe?

When I was a child
I use to hide away at the library
Surrounded by a plethora of words
I stumbled upon a little black book
With a red leather spine
It told me that monsters didn’t exist
And what will keep me awake at night
Are the things inside my head
Tempered words designed to melt hearts
I know it’s difficult, but crucial
Too be grateful not to miss
The anxiety and emptiness
That we all feel
And someday far away
On an ocean breeze
I’ll accept the love that I’ve always had

The offset pattering off my heart
Makes for some of the greatest music
Her ears have ever heard
Or so she tells me

Fun fact
The girl I’m dating uses this site as a poet
And we don’t follow each other
Yet, I know sneakingly
We read one another's work
It’s quite interesting
Being able to view her words
For topics that are relevant to our lives
As I’m sure she would agree
Having the roles reversed
It gives a depth and understanding
To the colorful words of black and white
Where we’re saving one another
Last breaths and truths out loud
Grasping one another closer
Than any fantasy
And sometimes it’s hard
To breath in and breath out
And we’re giving all we have left
To you

I know this might just sound a little crazy, but I been thinking about you a hell of a lot lately.

Well you know what they say
It’s a stitch in your DNA
Must run in the family
It’s just hereditary
The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree
I wish to break the mold
A bend, a snap, a break in the fold
Raise my children to be better than me
Let them know there’s no limit to what they can be
Show them that there’s more than one doorway
That these things aren’t just hereditary
The seeds from the apple can float away

Waking up in my own bed
It’s still been a while
Since I’ve felt like I’ve been home
Am I getting closer to knowing
Where we belong
For now
All I see is lonely people
In crowded rooms

It's about that time
Let's gather round the fire and tell some ghost stories
There goes some spooky noise
Engulf the night in some horror smoke
To keep your mind at ease
Don't forget to breathe
Looking around to all our friends
Blacked out eyes calling to all dead ends
And when you get home
Don't forget you can't hold a ghost at night
It's alright, cause the dark is here just for your fright
When the strobe light starts to stutter
Causing your heart to flutter
And all your dead memories come out to play
Cause every day we're living in some ghost stories

And she said some pain feels good
I suppose that’s why I wake up
For some days the pain is inviting

Take your time to come my way
So, I can see what I've been missing
I swear I can hear the doves and ravens say
Except I've always been really bad at listening
As the trees try to explain what I've been doing wrong

That I'm simply not human enough
I'll call the stars, and drive through the mountains, just to show
That I love your volcanic ash breeze
Just don't leave me dying

You're simply too human for me
Don't call the stars, and drive through the mountains, just to show
That you hate my ocean salt breeze
Just don't leave me living