We’ve been dying at a fast pace
And I’m addicted to the way you taste
Dim the lights
I don’t want to stay inside alone
Tonight’s the night
Let me see what will make you moan
You can hide inside all the places
I decide to never look
Always keeping your face in mind
Cursed with bad luck
Looks like we’re decaying from the drugs

A favorite memory
I keep locked away
Buried far in the depths
Afraid it might get lost
Eyes closed and slow breathing
Listening to the static rotate off the vinyl
As your fingers ran through my hair
Able to hear the gorgeous tunes of your breaths
Melodies dancing on the folds of my desires
I still hear those breaths every night
As I sleep next to you
I began to love you then
As I love you now
I hope you cherish the memory too
For I have not forgotten with my sins
And they are plenty
But, I promise my love resides
Cast upon notes of vinyl records

I seem to have always been drawn
To such simple things
How funny...
That she is ever so complicated
As her words dance
Like lullaby strings

I hope that you’re the inspiration
To these words that caress my thoughts
Lost to an endless sea
Of what I wish I could say

There’s this voice inside my head
It sounds just like me
It’s saying let go of some things
For my own
Even the screaming sun can’t block it out
And so, maybe I need a break
From all that I am
All that I was
Take a breath
Breathe again
Find what to write
Instead of dreaming that these words
Might just make it around some big town
I have fears that I’m a letdown
So, I’m reaching out with these words now
Telling my head that you may never be who you want to be
So, just take a breath and breathe

Some will hate these words
They’ll draw their axes
To cut down one another
In the garden of life

Still

I hope these words
Nurture something inside
For all of you
To grow into what and who
You desire to be

What are the words
That might just convince you
Not to get dressed
And just to let me catch my breath?

My self esteem been in the dirt
I don’t know my worth
I’ve been at my worst
Can’t explain my hurt
So, I write another verse
Seems I can’t shed this curse

Tonight is the first time
I’ve written in weeks
It’s all sort of fragmented
Disjointed and dislocated segments
Bound and squeezed together in moments
Of sheer chance diluted by pedigrees
Of ever elevating time spans
Spent sleeping or wishing for sleep
Like seeing a pretty face for the first time
Attaching the backstory myself
Sort of like a shock culture moment
Like when you realize not all stars
Are quite like each other
With ocean waves crashing about
Forcefully until nothing, but peace
Resides in the moments we find ourselves

Cracking.

So, there we were
Lost somewhere in where we wanted to be
And, where we seemed to be
Drowning in everything inbetween
Looking somewhere deep in my dreams
And societies lies are getting to me
For all we’ve ever craved is to be free
Daydreamers searching for destinies
While my sins are catching up to me
Thinking of memories
We’ll get to bring to life
Throwing away all the locks and keys

Truth be told
I am terrified to write
To show you all
For these words aren’t just words
More so they’re speckled stars
And the glow of firefly hearts
Resembling the scattered remnants
Of a beautiful mind
Familiar to that of my own
Lost searching for Eden
With diminishing returns as a result
But, I feel compelled to tell a story
So, maybe these mere words
Will reach your cascading eyes
All set upon an Endless Summer
Endowed with kindergarten crushes and
Lost Lover’s souls

You burst forth from the core of my fears
Raw and powerful enough to drown out
Screaming louder than the Sun

I have a lot to learn
Of your love
Still no matter where I go
At the end of every road
I just hope I'm led back to you
Where the warmth of the sun
Settles on my face
And when I open my eyes
You are what I see

I heard the crack in her voice
As she claimed that it ***** that I love you
Yet, you’re so honored
3 A.M. take me home from these catacombs
Caress these brittle bones
Tuck me in, kiss my forehead
Cause my niche is tearing me down
And I hope you’ll be around
To hold me up
When I can’t stand
You’re the one that I call
When all the ones that I trust
Have left me in the dust
For I am like snow in October
Not cold enough to stick
Yet, you’ll always dance in the flurries

She’s pulled to the black silver ocean
Where the currents
Clash and collide with the heavens
I seem to be caught in a swell
She is the lighthouse the sea mark
And I’m led by the currents away
I’m the navigator who never could lead
Aboard the mighty ship
One who could never sink
And you’re my only thought
If I go down the fear of the water’s amnesia
So, my memory is gripping
As the waves seem to be ripping
And your voice is an echo
Of things I don’t know
Some of stories I’ve been told
A light house, a voyage
Would someone please take notice

Imaginations and creation are a trait of mine it seems
I wonder of all the moments I could create
When in reality I would choose to recreate
I'd choose the moment
Where the sun was set real low
Orange and red with scattered pinks
And emerald gems stared right through me
Speckled hazel from a sunset coast
***** blonde hair and sun kissed skin
Calf deep in the deep blue
You tasted of apples
Sour and sweet
Couldn't resist and the second time around
Was a little hint of caramel

Blank pages upon blank pages
White and black
Yet, electrified with everlasting colors
Of the things I don't love about myself
Such as the seeking of validation from the woman I love
In the way of toxic questions that I know will hurt me
I suppose I dislike the way I isolate and shut down
For when I've run out of words
The stark air can be felt encompassing the room
For I am truthfully the elephant in the room in my mind
Not entirely belonging to one thing
Enticingly scattered like torn pages floating down the river
The judge, jury, and executioner with the sentence passed down
Too soon before the hearing
I suppose I write myself off
For it's repeated behaviors that I can't seem to shake
Like when the summer time ends and closing in
Ever so approachingly like the tide in winter time
To be addicted to the complicated things in life
That bring sadness and wave away joyfulness
Where our worries won't be far behind
Next to the classic novels, finding our lonesome-selves
Welcoming oblivion

Please excuse my language
There’s just no other way to say
When you’ve had yourself a day
Knee deep in the salt stricken waters
Staring at the sunset
Out of breath from the weight of the world

****.

Knowing you’re sort of lucky
To get to do all of it all over again
Tomorrow when the salt is a little lesser
Dancing together in the fire covered ocean
Staring at the sunrise
Full of breath from the weight of the world

****.

I want to be alone
Find myself lost out at sea
Knee deep in the black mass
Watch the siren's sing the maddening waves into men's hearts
Where time and the black silver ocean collide
To swim in the kisses of the incarnate
For the sea loves, hates, and weeps
Fervently shackled an...and bound to that which isn't
I feel my lungs collapsing under the pressures of the deep
Where your heart and your desires slumber

I use to find myself drifting
Feeling like I was lost at sea
Drowning and helpless
Till you threw me a buoy
And pulled me out of the water
Soaking wet and freezing to death
Yet, you sparked the life out of me
Saved my soul, from internal damnation
I was burning and didn't know it
And you burned your hands
To keep me breathing
When the sky rose red
They say a sailor died at sea
Yet, your beautiful light guides me home
Avoiding the depths of the sea
And the dangers of the land

I’ve done something’s for which I can’t atone
Feeling like I am the stone
Skipping across the lake
I want to be alone, but I hate the distance
Honestly, I don’t what to think now
I know I’m not the best to be around
I thought I belonged in a coffin
I popped 20 pills and no could stop it
I thought for a second it’d be shocking
Believed these words weren’t enough
And I was done talking
Yet, I awoke and here I sit
Writing love poems to love
Where it seems fit
And my head is still a room
And it’s a mess
Finding Cupid’s arrows stomped in half
With scribbled words on ripped up papers
It’s the way I cope, and I hadn’t felt like myself in months
And I want to go far away from you
But, I don’t want to know how it feels
To be alone
But, I’m craving Everest

Who knew
That liquid courage
Can fill even the most secluded
With involuntary truths
Not remembered for days after
When the world blurs
And the rooms were spinning
When you and I were cruising
To mixed drinks and laughs
Too bad today we’ll pay
For the good times
Grinning through headaches
Knowing next weekend isn’t far away

This is a calling
Let it resonate
For my muses
I need your medicine
2 to 3 doses, daily
****, she knows how to play
My heart strings literally
So, ****** lovely
Feels like flying...
She plays with so much emotion
She can just feel the music

I have tattoos without ink
White and filled with scar tissue
Just as beautiful as can be

I see the way that you take off your disguise
Drinks and pills what’s your fix to get high?
You just want to feel something to feel fine
You gonna let him swallow up your pride?
Just run away in the night
No ones worth the tears that you cry
It’d be a shame to see you do this till your ******’ numb and gone
Just come with me and take a ride

She said “Don’t forget you owe me one.”
Ninety-nine cent dreams
Maybe you can show me some
I’m up in the clouds again
If you need someone, call your friends
Clouded by all of this smoke
Seems the fires all we can understand
Your body looks like heaven
Caught up in a breeze
Riding the clouds feeling so free

He can still recall that moment so clearly
She sat in the bay window
Oversized sweatshirt
The coffee mug
Held to lips by her heavenly sculpted hands
She didn’t need to turn to know he was there
Watching from the door
She looked tired, not physically
It was reinforced by her words

“There’s something really ******* gorgeous out there, I just wish I knew what it was.”

He glanced out just to acknowledge her
Not truly caring what was outside
For why should he?
His sunrise and nightfall’s lie in her eyes
The mountains and lays of the lands in the curves of her body
The oceans tempest in the sweetness of her saliva and the rains of her tears
She is the seasons of love
And there in an oversized sweater
With a plaster coffee mug
Was his world and there’s something really ******* gorgeous about it all

I’m really glad you took that bite
Got us kicked out of Eden
It’s given me the chance
To commit all the sins that come to mind
When I see the curves of your body
And the way your eyes rip into mine
As you lick the bottoms of your teeth
And ignore me with a devilish smile

His desires were that of white waters
Young and naive you
You use to try and cross
For Love was on the other side
Just to get lost in the chaos
Of a raging river
A little older and a little wiser
You said “No thanks, I’m not a fan of drowning.”
And took the bridge

And lately I've felt like I'm on fire
You just sit back and smile
My brains screaming that you're running the show
I'm feeling fine almost everyday
Except for all the time
Don't have enough energy to even go outside
I've dropped my insecurities
I've left my dignity on the floor
But, you'll pick it up again for me
Allow my humility's to catch up to me once more

Being in love
  With you
Seems like
  A really bad
Idea

Being in love
  With me
Seems like
  A really good
Idea

It was many moons ago
A long long time from now
You were with me
And
I was with you
Lost somewhere not many people get to
Off just a little by heart
With constellation eyes
In fragile moments
Cracking at the core
Begging for something to say

Twenty-five and I finally just got my mind right.

Learned that girls like you...just aren’t my type.

Moving on to new heights, got heaven in my sights.

And I still feel the burns from the hell you put me through, but it’s alright.

Like I said, twenty-five and I got my mind right.

The coast always called
On Friday nights side by side you and I
Riding on my bike ready to disappear
There’s bout a million places we could go
Except I’d rather be here
And so, let’s chase these highway lines
Turn off the light and let the city lights
Guide us to where we think we’ll find home
Where, I’m feeling powerless
And, you have all the power over me
I just hope we’re bad enough
That the Devil rejects us