And just for one time
I want to feel like the dangerous one
While you’re chasing me
Weakened staring at my jawline
As I’m watching the city lights
With you not in mind.

It’s hard to explain what it’s like
The smell of the air
The heat waves over the crowd
The fresh cut grass
A flat beer and a hotdog
Maybe a pretty girl or two
All of it ever so trivial
When it comes down to just us
Toe to toe in a 12 round boxing match
Except our punches come at 90 MPH
Who will win?
Regardless...
I suppose it’s always a beautiful day
For some baseball

I’m really glad you took that bite
Got us kicked out of Eden
It’s given me the chance
To commit all the sins that come to mind
When I see the curves of your body
And the way your eyes rip into mine
As you lick the bottoms of your teeth
And ignore me with a devilish smile

It's about that time
Let's gather round the fire and tell some ghost stories
There goes some spooky noise
Engulf the night in some horror smoke
To keep your mind at ease
Don't forget to breathe
Looking around to all our friends
Blacked out eyes calling to all dead ends
And when you get home
Don't forget you can't hold a ghost at night
It's alright, cause the dark is here just for your fright
When the strobe light starts to stutter
Causing your heart to flutter
And all your dead memories come out to play
Cause every day we're living in some ghost stories

I suppose I just didn’t hear you
The waves were too loud
But, I definitely could read your lips

“Don’t get attached to me.”

But, the sun was setting low.

What are the words
That might just convince you
Not to get dressed
And just to let me catch my breath?

There she was
Her eyes the silver lining’s
In all these bad lines
That I keep writing

It was many moons ago
A long long time from now
You were with me
And
I was with you
Lost somewhere not many people get to
Off just a little by heart
With constellation eyes
In fragile moments
Cracking at the core
Begging for something to say

I’ve done something’s for which I can’t atone
Feeling like I am the stone
Skipping across the lake
I want to be alone, but I hate the distance
Honestly, I don’t what to think now
I know I’m not the best to be around
I thought I belonged in a coffin
I popped 20 pills and no could stop it
I thought for a second it’d be shocking
Believed these words weren’t enough
And I was done talking
Yet, I awoke and here I sit
Writing love poems to love
Where it seems fit
And my head is still a room
And it’s a mess
Finding Cupid’s arrows stomped in half
With scribbled words on ripped up papers
It’s the way I cope, and I hadn’t felt like myself in months
And I want to go far away from you
But, I don’t want to know how it feels
To be alone
But, I’m craving Everest

Diving under waters
Still trying to be honest
Sometimes that **** really hurts
And my sins are catching up to me
Just hear me out
Ive been looking for a brand new start
I just happen to see you
In my dreams at night
Surrounded on the beach with pretty light
Dancing away, asking me to stay
So, I guess I’ll swim back to the surface
Take a step back
Watch as what I want sways in the night
Blonde and smiling
A little drunk on the moment
And we just may never be who we want to be
But let’s just see

Imaginations and creation are a trait of mine it seems
I wonder of all the moments I could create
When in reality I would choose to recreate
I'd choose the moment
Where the sun was set real low
Orange and red with scattered pinks
And emerald gems stared right through me
Speckled hazel from a sunset coast
***** blonde hair and sun kissed skin
Calf deep in the deep blue
You tasted of apples
Sour and sweet
Couldn't resist and the second time around
Was a little hint of caramel

She asked what it would be like to grow old?
I guess I hadn't really thought about it
A little bittersweet
Like the green apples that matched your eyes
How exciting that the moments we shared
Would be all our own
Just you and I's
And we eat our apples different ways
You like yours peeled with a little bit of caramel
I like mine with a little crunch and straight to the core
I guess life's a little like that
It's whatever we chose for it to be right?
How terrifying that were stuck with what we have
I guess that's the most exciting part
Never knowing what we'll get to choose
I just hope it taste a lot like apples
Maybe a hint of you too

I hope that you’re the inspiration
To these words that caress my thoughts
Lost to an endless sea
Of what I wish I could say

Maybe we just weren’t enough
Sitting at our favorite diner
Melted shakes
Thunder clouds chasing our sins
We looked so different now
Than what we use to be
And at the time there was no one else
Figuring I’d be a mess by myself
I feared the rain falling down
I asked “Wanna talk about it?”
You replied “The rain looks really pretty.”
And, I knew when the sun came out
Our time would be up
And, you still believe everything is meant to be
So, we learn to let go just to be free

So, there we were
Lost somewhere in where we wanted to be
And, where we seemed to be
Drowning in everything inbetween
Looking somewhere deep in my dreams
And societies lies are getting to me
For all we’ve ever craved is to be free
Daydreamers searching for destinies
While my sins are catching up to me
Thinking of memories
We’ll get to bring to life
Throwing away all the locks and keys

There’s this voice inside my head
It sounds just like me
It’s saying let go of some things
For my own
Even the screaming sun can’t block it out
And so, maybe I need a break
From all that I am
All that I was
Take a breath
Breathe again
Find what to write
Instead of dreaming that these words
Might just make it around some big town
I have fears that I’m a letdown
So, I’m reaching out with these words now
Telling my head that you may never be who you want to be
So, just take a breath and breathe

I seem to have always been drawn
To such simple things
How funny...
That she is ever so complicated
As her words dance
Like lullaby strings

I do this for my father
Who I’ve only ever seen from time to time
In my dreams

I do this for my mother
Who’s finally clean
No longer a fiend

I do this for my sister and my brothers
The few that I unknowingly need

I do this for you
To understand
That these things are me

And it wasn’t my intention
That these words would make you feel
Some type of way
But, if that is the result
Then hopefully I’ll be remembered
If even, but only in this moment

It seemed even as God’s
We found ourselves in a phase
Of making love, where love was absent.

I have found that happiness is like the wind
As someday's it feels as though you're in a vacuum
And some feel as though you can't stand against it
You just can't see it, but it's always there
Caressing the folds of your desires
Ever prevalent in the storms to come

You burst forth from the core of my fears
Raw and powerful enough to drown out
Screaming louder than the Sun

The breath stealing peaks
Three friends and an existential crisis
Snow covered caps and march air
I thought the farther I ran
My problems just might not catch me
Till a voice whispered so, delicately
To the rest of my body
“What the **** are we?”

“Untitled”
It’s the only thing I could think of
For you said we have a story
How can I name something
That’s only just begun

Looking for providence
In the areas of hellfire and ash
Strung along four walls
For my humanity is up for grabs
Where my insanity seems to land
For I am hellishly filled with self doubts
And these words aren’t necessarily poetry
Just mere poetic venom
Seeping to the core desires of my whims
Amongst the rolling hills of sin
With sea salt licked sympathies on the rise

We dread that feeling of, oh, so low
So empty, broken, and never home
Let’s never venture to that horrid place
Where love has no trace
And I would cry and you would too
Neither one of us would know what to do
On the horizon comes a storm
We can win this fight, just hold on for one second more
So, hold my hand and love me true
These endless cataclysms will make us ever so confused
But, just stay right here side by side
And we shall be safe and sound
At the end when everything finally makes sense

A couple dabs of honey
Pinch of salt
A little bit of vinegar
Just a touch of blood
Maybe a smidge of sugar
Teaspoon of red wine
Don’t forget a moan or two
A hint of selfishness
Make sure the sear is just right
Yeah, sounds a lot like what love would be
At least to me
Anyways

Take your time to come my way
So, I can see what I've been missing
I swear I can hear the doves and ravens say
Except I've always been really bad at listening
As the trees try to explain what I've been doing wrong

That I'm simply not human enough
I'll call the stars, and drive through the mountains, just to show
That I love your volcanic ash breeze
Just don't leave me dying

You're simply too human for me
Don't call the stars, and drive through the mountains, just to show
That you hate my ocean salt breeze
Just don't leave me living

And lately I've felt like I'm on fire
You just sit back and smile
My brains screaming that you're running the show
I'm feeling fine almost everyday
Except for all the time
Don't have enough energy to even go outside
I've dropped my insecurities
I've left my dignity on the floor
But, you'll pick it up again for me
Allow my humility's to catch up to me once more

She had invisible horns
Blackened splits and hellfire eyes
Devilish and drawing
Calling to my every sin
Dancing in slow motion doused in hope
Fangs as pretty as can be
The words inked across both wrists “Everybody” and “Prays”
Subtle whisperings, asking of sins
The heat of her breath searing my face
“What? Lost your voice? Or just don’t know what to say?”
No, I suppose I don’t, I guess I’ll just have to pray

Twenty-five and I finally just got my mind right.

Learned that girls like you...just aren’t my type.

Moving on to new heights, got heaven in my sights.

And I still feel the burns from the hell you put me through, but it’s alright.

Like I said, twenty-five and I got my mind right.

Unable to drift away
Caught by the currents astray
Till you started to murmur in your sleep
With the swish and swoosh of the waves
I could feel the warmth of the air
As the ocean lullabies tucked me in tight

Maybe we’re our own pantheon
Just you and I
Destruction and Creation
Filling the midnight skies
With ****** light
Scorching bed sheets and burning seas
Intertwined in all these things
What comes to mind?
When we lay side by side

She tried to sing me to sleep
As the tides rolled further in
Kissing the beach
Just to leave in the middle of the night
When the night sky has had its fill
Of moonlit madness chased with whiskey
And our dreams are high on different colored pills and drunk off sleepless words

There's an invisible line
Where the waves conspire
To come rushing back again
And perhaps we shall meet again someday
A long long time from now
A little older
And a little less selfish

The world’s not so subjective
It’s just so critical
And we’re falling a part at the seams
When yesterday’s sins
Are tomorrow’s dreams
Running in never-ending circles
Pushed along with unbalanced chemicals
Skin stained with glorified imperfections
When the secrets tiptoe around your name
While the rain clouds are catching up
On our run for sunshine
Oh, what it means to be human

Who knew
That liquid courage
Can fill even the most secluded
With involuntary truths
Not remembered for days after
When the world blurs
And the rooms were spinning
When you and I were cruising
To mixed drinks and laughs
Too bad today we’ll pay
For the good times
Grinning through headaches
Knowing next weekend isn’t far away