When I wake up tomorrow
I hope that I will not be the man I am today.
But I will.
And that's what scares me.

Was it all really worth it?
To have some sunshine.
Yet live in the dark.
Was it all really worth it?
To enhance some times.
Yet make them less abundant.
Was it all really worth it?
It breaks my heart you lost control.
If only I could get in your mind and take over.
Show you it wasn't it worth it.
It wasn't worth it, at all.
Not the least bit, at all.

I have always wanted to be the creator of something beautiful.
Haven't we all?
I guess I just want to leave this world remembered.
Remembered with a sort of elegant beauty.
The man whom created something worthwhile.
Created something of beauty.
Yet not that simple, the beauty that is carried on for generations.
I pray to be this man.

Growing up was understanding that my dreams were further out of reach than I had ever perceived.
For the rest of my life I'd spend chasing something in which I had onced believed to be fairly simple.

*Time sure sharpens thoughts

I kissed that girl.
But did she mean anything?
Not exactly, you can say I was hurt.
Hurt by whom?
Hurt by the one I truly loved.
Yet, I let it out with pain.
Deceitful pain.
The pain that stays bickering.
The type that swells and never let's you think.
I feel like a monster.
Chasing away our last hopes.
And in the end I was sorry.
But I guess it was too late.
Our lips met for the first.
While my true love's whispered goodbye.

At least you have Love;
You were never left in despair.
No least in my Love;
We had nothing left to repair.

I tear up because there's nothing left.
Besides dirt on my jeans and memories fading.
Thoughtful mornings and aching nights.
Why did I do this?
I could have saved you.
You'd still be here with me.
Why didn't I do anything?
Why did I not care and just leave you be?
We could have enjoyed a couple more days in a nice park. Instead I forgot about you and now you're gone.
I hope ur thinking of me or looking out for me.
You were everything; I can't express.
Just help me one more time. Answer these questions.