i never wished
for happiness
not even a little bit
because i'm tired

worn out
of expectations
tired
of expecting happiness

i drown myself into sadness
while the feeling of emptiness
enters my life easily
with no difficulty

the distance
between us
is killing me
i can't survive
without you
by my side

wrap me around your arms
i wanna feel your warmth
as i pull you close to me
i have this sudden feeling
that i don't wanna let you go

i feel safe and secured
around your embrace
i feel the warmth
spreading all over my body

i wanna lock you up around me
and keep you forever
because if i let you go,
i'll never feel
the euphoria i feel
whenever i'm with you

can't you see
i'm trying to be nice here
can't you see
being nice is a hard thing

it really is, a hard thing
especially when the person
you're being nice to
treats you like *****

i need to stop
this silly infatuation
but as much as i try hard
on refraining myself
from liking you
it wouldn't seem to go away