i think it will be okay if i die soon

you scream and threaten to kick me out, throw me out of your home, over a ***** bowl and spoon in the sink i won’t clean.

i will keel over and die  and it will still be all my fault

i wish you knew the physical pain i feel in my heart every time you do this

i wish you knew i pray for him to let me go in my sleep peacefully

i wish you knew that i have no reason to keep going

i wish you knew just how much i love you

i hope you know it’s not your fault

okay haha okay so okay um okay sooo haha okay lol

not really