you wrecked my room again

you called me names again


you’ve abused u s again.

we’ve woken up late,

so what? we’re just kids.

you’re blaming everything on us

“you’re stressing me out”

“you’re not listening to me”

“you guys are so ******* dumb”

“******* kids”

if you didn’t want us, why didn’t you tell mom to abort us?

much easier to make me ******* suicidal

but jealousy has nothing to do with this now

I have lost my fight and I hope you lose yours

shes leaving and suddenly shes the center of attention

the world revolves around her like it did when we connected

I thought id never get replaced by someone you've barely know,

I mean hey, I've known you for 8 whole years, almost 9.

you've  known her for 2.

I'm seeing these problems arise and I cant do anything because every negative thing I say about her makes you hate me even more and I'm not ready to lose someone as close as you


but I hope you lose your fight because

a ***** once said

"Middle school relationships arent supposed to go anywhere"

but thats alright

these feelings are meaningless

they're just lies

but everytime I see you with her disgusting face where you always coo and cuddle

I want to throw up and I want to cry,

what ever happened to my bestest friend?

you chose her over me but that's alright I just wish you had more time for me and him

because she is not the highlight of your life and you are not seeing what she has done to you

I am your friend and I cannot lie when I say

I don't like her.

but you my friend are the highlight of my life,,

that spark of joy that makes me keep going

so until you stop berating yourself with these awful words

I don't know what to do other than just die

the voices get stronger and stronger
as I stumble away I need your help
I cry but no one is awake

I keep going through this routine as I wonder

am I even worth it?



THE VOICES IN MY HEAD GET STRONGER EVERY DAY THEY WRAP THEMSELVES AROUND MY THOUGHTS AND

now they're all I can hear, even when the pin drops.

blood on these walls have nowhere to run as if i were the blood and i could have gone.

dont you see? that im forcing myself to like her. that you're my source of happiness, one of them anyway, but it doesn't matter because everything is about her.


one cut, two cut, three cut, four. when will these lines go poor?

sleeping and slicing whats the difference? one of them only really cause pain

sometimes i want to die and sometimes i want to live .

i live for oone girl, though she'd never like me back, it's alright though.

i'd expect you to not know them as well as i do, since you still use the incorrect pronouns and name :)

**** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me **** me

anyway, now that depressive episodes over, why not have another one?

i believe every lie you tell me

i force myself to believe every lie that you tell me

so that i dont have to believe in what's true

i believe in every lie so it doesn't hurt me


but now i cant tell if youre taking advantage of that.


are you?