You were the only boy that ever thought my poems were beautiful
You were the only one with a key to the lock
You were the only one who cared enough to read them all
You were the first one to keep tabs on them at all
And wow you were the first one to have twenty or so written about just you
even if you don’t appreciate them
I will
Because words always
Mean more to me


(v.m)

I was hoping and praying for you
And I’ll continue to do that no matter what you say
I can’t ever leave anyone I love
Because I love people with all I have
Hoping and praying someday someway somehow
Someone will be back
Because promises are promises
Words mean something
So I’ll always still care
I always still love
I’m always still — there
Just ask the first person I ever loved
7 years of my life. I really gave my all
I always love more
Always
And I always will
Even if you won’t
I will


(v.m)

You probably think I don’t know what your gonna say
But I think your gonna leave
Just like everyone else
And boy will you try to make it sound sweet
But I’ve heard it all before
I know exactly what will be said
I know my tears won’t mean ****
And even then I’ll still cry rivers regardless
I know you probably won’t grab my hand and pull me close when I stop you and yell at you
I know because no ones ever done it
No matter how much they knew I loved them
I dare you to find a love twice as big as mine
But you won’t
You’ll want to walk away because you’re too scared to let anyone love you
But even then I’ll still believe in you
Sad right?

(v.m)

Loneliness doesn’t make sense to someone like me
Just like love and marriage don’t make sense to someone like you
I’ve always fought tooth and nail for everything
Even though I’ve lost every battle
I still keep fighting
Isn’t that amazing
Willingness
Hope


(v.m)

You always said I was different from other girls
I still don’t know what you meant by that
I like to think it’s because of the way I love people
Or maybe I’m too overbearing
Sometimes I think I talk too much
No ones ever fallen in love with my voice that way
Sure I’ve been called pretty and I’ve been told my eyes were somewhere to get lost
I’ve even been told I’ve taken someone’s breath away
I guess that’s what makes me different
Maybe
Who knows

(v.m)

I think that thing that scares me the most is the fact that I’m always the girl no one wants anymore
I’m never the girl someone would die for
I’m girl people always like to like
But never like enough to stay
But that’s just me I guess
I’m always that girl
And I think that terrifies me most of all
That I’m the girl that always gets left behind

(v.m)

Today is the first time you’ve talked to me in weeks
Although I still have no idea what you said
Because I haven’t even opened the message
A part of me is too terrified to read it
And I think it’s too early to start crying again
So I’ll just sit here and let my mind race until 2 am comes and my tears start to fall and I’ll see what it is you have to say
Maybe I’m getting my hopes up for nothing
Maybe you have nothing to say just yet
but I’ll still be waiting.
(v.m)