"Give your heart a break from knowing his favorite color
Give your heart a break from dreaming about his lips and his eyes, remember the ones you spent countless nights getting lost in?
Give your heart a break from conversating with his shadow and start getting to know your own skin
Give your heart a break from drowning his phone in one sided apologies and hopeless "i love you's" you've done your best i guess and my darling I can't tell you why he is so cold hearted but I can tell you that there is a fire burning inside of you and your lungs are evacuated your burning building and it'll come out the right way in the end i promise and yes he's a **** but you hopelessly fall at his feet and can't help how the love you have found is killing you faster than a gunshot and quicker than an overdose, my dear I'm so ******* sorry he doesn't understand how much you love him and I'm sorry your veins have become untwined with his but you wanted to fall in love the contract clearly stated the consequences of loving this dangerous boy things are bad now but I know he'll come around i know it, after all once you fall in love the first time, you never really fall out of it but for now just do yourself a favor and give your heart break." (v.m)

The boy you love now has ****** hair in the form of cinnamon crumbs sprouted across his jawline even though he protested he'd never do anything of the sort
The boy you love now loves a girl whose heart is made of stone, her love is nothing like yours, it is cold and calculated, like a killing  
The boy you love now won't even look you in the eye, he seems to think the silent treatment will do him some justice even though he was always the more talkative of the two of you
The boy you love now does any drug he can to keep his body numb and stop his mind from drifting to you
The boy you love now questions his existence without you by his side he now sees you in every corner of his mind and cannot go anywhere without hearing your name, you seem to have stolen the hearts of many. Nobody could understand why he left a girl like you, you were every boy's cup of tea even though you were a fan of coffee.
The boy you love now screams at the moon and has withdrawals from your bedside an it's now been a year & nine months since you saw each other last, however you're now the one who sleeps soundly
The boy you love now closes his eyes and details every inch of your body down on paper as he tries to remember the way your eyes glistened to water filled puddles when he told you he didn't love you anymore, He's never regretted anything more in his whole life I can tell you that for sure
The boy you love now vomits on his pride and his spine is withering away the day you burned away all his sweet nothing's he said he felt like he was being branded with cigarettes even though he hadn't seen you in months
The boy you love now thinks he's got it made however in just a few months time he'll be knocking on your doorstep with blood streaming from his face, he'll be broken in two but the question is will you?
The boy you loved now can't stand the taste of coffee because it reminds him of you, no matter how bitter he can't seem to swallow the thought of enjoying anything that makes him remember just how many sugars you liked
The boy you loved now shakes during winter time and is less of a man though he tries not to act like he misses you too much
The boy you loved now can't stand the thought of you with another and by now it's been about 8 years since you saw each other last, but he doesn't utter a word in your direction
The boy you loved is now falling apart at the roots and at 22 he looks like a mental patient, it's only been a few years and he can't seem to leave his room
The boy you loved now hates the smell of coconuts and raspberries & creme because that's what you smelled like most often
The boy you loved is now not the same--without you

*(v.m)

When I was crying and begging you to save me you simply said "You worry too much" and then you simply said you didn't feel good and wanted to rest. But that wasn't the biggest disappoint it was finally realizing that the tears would never stop falling down the drain the scars will never stop bleeding because you're the reason all those wounds are branded there on my soft sugar creme skin though you said i always smelled of raspberries and creme as my hair smelled of coconut trees i thought you'd examined me the way i always examined you, then there's this one day years from now in a mall in about 5 years or so when we meet again and we lock eyes but when we both look over our shoulders we both have a lover but in that moment or two we have as we swim through this rush of cold nostalgia all we seem to see is each other and then we come close enough to where all our feelings have hidden for all those years we burned away, I guess they never really died after all, I guess they're still there, I can't wait to find out because to me that's better than anyone love we will ever have, it's the kind of love worth fighting for, we are the kind of love worth fighting for, and it's quite sad that, we both know it

As I walked home disappointed in you
I can't help but feel so stupid for even wanting to surprise you but then I guess maybe I'm too much of a good person and maybe you're too much of a bad person for me to even care about--but I can't help loving you. Someone once told me, I shouldn't care about someone who doesn't care about me but they've never met you. Someone once told me I needed to love myself before I could ever love another but what happens when you've given a heart transplant to the person you'd die for? Someone once told me that I was the bigger person in our violent love affair, that I tried as hard as I possibly could, that I put all my love inside of your ribcage and then you locked me out of your skin, that I fought for this love no matter how tough it got--and it still didn't seem to be enough
You can't just make me not want to die and then leave me high and dry
Someone once told me, you'll never truly be happy and that your karma will rest neatly on your shoulders and when it attacks and you realize the error of your ways, and when you feel numb beneath your nose you'll begin to scream and feel so lost within yourself.
Someone once told me, that someday you'll come crawling back-- I sure hope so

You're just a boy I happen to loose sleep over
you're just a boy who happens to make my fingertips go numb enough for me to not feel at all
You're just a stupid boy who happens to live in the sea and every time you swim in and out of my heart, I swear it's like a tsunami has been set off in my ribcage, my lungs are filling with water and because of you I can't seem to breath. my legs begin to shake as you look me in the eye, and my heart begins to race even though you haven't touched me yet, you've only just begun to tell me how pretty I look with my hair behind my ear or a book propt up neatly in front of my face, you happen to enjoy novels though you're no expert on words, you happen to love astrology and yet you haven't spotted us within the stars, or maybe it's just me beating you at your own game, as we share cross words I don't know what I'm beginning to fall in love with first, you or the way you are so intriguing as you speak, although you happen to have a lisp, I don't mind because the sound of your voice could sing me to sleep, as we keep conversing over the simplest of beauties. I begin to ask you the basics but little do you know I'm asking so I know what to write about as I begin to fall in love with the way you say hello, I'm asking so I know what to write about when you decide you've had enough of being just a story as I fall in love with the way you kiss goodbye. I'll run over every little detail about you until my fingertips fall off and I have you memorized down to the drop of a pen, I'll begin to find everything about you absolutely beautiful and I will not be able to control myself and it really is quite terrible that I'll do all of this in a matter of minutes.

*vm

I may idolize the boy who always saved me, he belongs in books but amazingly this is non-fiction
I might pay close attention to the way he runs his fingers through his hair, but I could watch him run through forests for hours on end
I may always want to have the last word in an argument even though the boy himself is what I'm focused on the entire debate, I don't care who wins I just want you to stay
I may be insanely jealous maybe even ****** but at least I love you more than she ever could and you know it's true.
I may get upset over small things you do, but you'll always be my favorite correction to mark with red pen, don't worry I promise I'll forgive you in the morning
I may be a pain every now and again but at least you know I'm alive today, because without you I hope you know I would have given up a long time ago.
I may love too passionately and too fierce but at least I will never desert you in the dark or want you to be reduced to cold red slashes on the most beautiful parts of your body
I may be complicated and more in love with you than I am with my own reflection
But at least I am self-less, at least I care whether or not the boy I love more than life itself is breathing in the morning. At least I know the difference between love and pity, at least I fight the will every morning with my shadow to make sure I have a chance to let you know how much I love you, you really should cherish it, because who knows if you'll hear it tomorrow. I'm a lost cause who loves your little pieces of stardust more than the sparkles on my skin but at least I love you enough-- to let you know.

*vm

A part of me hates not trying harder for you when I had the chance I mean it's now so awkward between us, we give each other blank stares for that might be all we were ever worth to each other I hate knowing I didn't try harder for you and wanting you as wildly as you wanted me, sometimes I wonder what would've happened if you'd gotten the chance to be mine, would we finally be at harmony in one another's eyes because as of right now it feels like we have unfinished business, when you look at me and smile I can't help but wonder what your thinking or if maybe your not thinking anything at all maybe you just happen to gaze in my direction or the fact that we haven't hugged once since I was fifteen and today as I said goodbye to you and your new love as we parted down the path, you looked at me with your arm held out for a hug and I walked toward you, books in hand unable to return the warm embrace and in that moment I wondered what made you want to say more than goodbye, what made you want to embrace me for a second or two or was it just a friendly hug, whenever I'm around you I'm just not sure anymore, granted your feelings may have faded but I do wonder from time to time if I happen to cross your mind more than once on our awkward encounters.

*vm