Don't you just wish
Sometimes
That you could speak your mind
Rattle out all your rhymes.

Let everyone know
What you're thinking about
How you really feel
Or why you wear that pout.

And don't you just wish
Every day
That you could sing your own song
Not caring about what anyone will say.

I think everyone
Has this desire
Inside our heart
Burning like a fire.

We should all let it out
Let the fire burn
And deal out all our words
Speaking what we yearn.

And we shouldn't be afraid
Of our own burning flame
We should let a little out
Letting fate control the game.

We all have a passion
Something hiding in our hearts
A secret we hold on to
Because we're afraid of what it might start.

But don't be afraid
I should listen to my own advice
And maybe you, or I, will speak out today
Without thinking twice.

Your eyes were like a sunflower
Comparable in beauty
With colors patterned
In the shape and design

Your eyes were like a sunflower
They drew me in
And swallowed me
Down into your heart where I'll be fine, I'll be fine

And my eyes were like a sunflower
Just like yours
But different in color
Contracting and eating your existence

This moment I cherish
Because your eyes hold so many secrets and
In that second of gaze connected by a line
I could see them all clearly without rose tint

I've taken off my pink hued glasses and
I see the world through clear thin glass
See it for what it is
Through your sunflower eyes

Fingerprints litter the glass
Making it difficult to see through to it's beauty
Tainted by past hands
Even without the rose applied

Will we ever see the world for what it is?
Maybe
If we look through sunflower eyes

When I met you I didn't think it would be this way
In fact I had my eyes on someone else
But really that was just a step in your direction
And more help to find myself.

And when I found myself
In one all-night-long conversation of digging deep in my soul
I realized that was just a stepping stone
To where I am now, just another paid toll.

Your image had been so foggy in my mind
I knew not of who you were
And not of who you could be
Or even of the power
You had over me.

It was a gradual pull
Tugging me towards you
A look through a crowd
A brief touch while walking across a room.

As I recall now
I vaguely knew of the connection
How gravity would pull us together
Without me paying any attention.

I let you keep me
You asked so sweetly
My head told me no
But my heart disagreed.

I answered with a kiss
The one you had been craving
I let you have no more
I had secrets I was saving.

And look at where we are now
Many adventures have been had
And many more to come
There hasn't been an inch of anything bad.

I'm madly in love
Completely clumsy over you
Totally twitter-painted
With everything you are and everything you do.

A night without you is insanity
As much as it is good for me
The space is as nice as it is lonely
But that's a healthy thing to be.

I could just lay in bed with you all day
Lounging arrogantly in the ****
I enjoy it the most
But going out is good too.

And I suppose I'd probably get sick
Of lounging all the time
The rarity is so fun
And probably why it feels so nice.

I could get lost in your eyes
And stare at you forever
I swear love is like a drug...
Can we stay addicted together?

Forever.

Take my hand in yours
I'll tell you all that's in my heart
Open all my doors
And this is only the start.

Let's take on the world
I'll be your mastermind
I can't do it without you
And we've got plenty of time.

Our love can conquer anything
That's not something that I just feel
But something I know
Something that is stable and real.

I love you, I love you, I love you!
I wish I had a better phrase
I'll scream it at the top of my lungs
'Til I'm blue in the face.

But that will never entirely describe
Exactly how I feel
That's why I write all these rhymes
To express in full detail.

Don't ever let me go
Don't ever let me go
I had to say it twice
To get my point across
Once just wouldn't suffice.

I hope you know what you're getting yourself into
I know I say this a lot
And if I had the appropriate words
I'd tell you exactly what you've caught.

Me.

This is all me right here
And if you don't approve
You can **** it
Cause this is what you got yourself into.

So here I am
All my heart put into words
And as the time goes by
My emotions continue to stir.

And create something tangible
Of stability and strength
Like a rope it braids
Into a hearty and on-going length.

So let's rule the world together
Just take it over
Grand supreme exalted dictator
And your mastermind lover.

Beat out a rhythm
With my finger tips
All of the lyrics
Flowing from my lips.

A private dance party
When I'm all alone
I'm a Rockstar in my mirror
With my hairbrush microphone.

And maybe I'll be Rockstar
Someday, someday
Or just here in my bedroom
I have stage fright anyway.

Pump up the volume
No shirt, no pants
Jamming in my socks
My own private dance.

I do it just for fun
When I'm all alone
Rockstar in my mirror
With my hairbrush microphone.

I feel a little confused
Like I have something to figure out
A little twisted up and chewed
My mind is racing on doubt.

I'm trying to put my thoughts
Into words in this writing
My hand it jots
The nails on my fingers I am biting.

It's hard to say how I feel
But I definitely know that I am feeling
Everything inside is real
I just have to find it by peeling.

My skin it itches from nerves
I look sallow and wrecked
I've stretched myself thin and over all the curves
I can no longer object.

I had to cry today
Because I drove myself up a wall
Repressing things I've wanted to say
Has somehow made the mountain I have, to climb, very tall.

It's not like my problems are anything important
But I guess they tend to wear me ragged
It's sometimes because I can be expectant
Of people and things that are jagged.

I have some things I still need to learn
But I'd rather be learning then at a stop
Like how not to expect and sometimes not to yearn
And when to skip, rather than to hop.

I try to keep my heart open wide
But that leaves it to be bruised
I have to let some things subside
And not let myself feel used.

I'll learn to be compassionate
But still protect myself
Though somehow I feel like I'm in debt
To all the dolls on the shelf.

I conclude this work of emotion
Still upside down and withered
At least I've crossed further, the ocean
But I have yet to meet the blizzard.

“The Carousel”
February 7th, 2014.
Valerie Viele

There is never a moment to stop
A real stop
A true stop
A sincere stop
When everything quits, halts, ceases and refrains

No matter where one stands
or what character one sits upon
Even if one is stationary
The carousel still revolves

One can walk this way
One can walk that way
One can lie down
but the carousel still revolves

Can one get off?
Can one get back on?
Can one make the choice?
There is never a moment to stop
and the carousel still revolves

SSK<3

It was Ecstasy that made her happy, and
Ecstasy that made her cry. It was
Ecstasy that made her sappy, and
Ecstasy that made her emotions fly. This pill they call
Ecstasy, was to her, more than just a a drug. But a gift and yet a curse, that she popped to keep herself up. But sometimes this
Ecstasy did not always keep her up. Even in her highest moods, she felt like she was at the bottom of her cup. Now
Ecstasy is thrilling, and makes your body feel alive. Though it is all just an illusion, that
Ecstasy makes you feel so high. She takes the pill to live, and she takes the pill to die. But in the end,
Ecstasy is nothing more than a perfect tragedy. And this
Ecstasy that one loves so dear.. Will be the end of your life, or the opening to the wonderful clear.

I love how you sound
Writhing beneath me
A surprise in your voice
Your legs trembling.

The muscles in your body
Are flexing and tensing
Your hips are rising
Your breath is so heavy.

I love how you sound
It's my favorite part
Usually a quiet mouse
But like this, so raw, so untamed.

I've never seen you like this
I marvel in the moment
In your rapture of ecstasy
A hum between my own thighs.

It's exciting to see you
Let loose like a trapped wind
Blowing out wildly
Like you've never been free to breeze.

It's easy to please you
Because it pleases me
Especially when you're writhing
Beneath me.

A passion dripping of sin
A drunken epiphany
Plucking all my heartstrings
In the perfect melody.

You soothe me with your words
Profound and adoring
I think of you in debauchery
The fantasy is flooring.

I'd die for your arms around me
Just for a second I lust
A desire burning like hot coals
You around me I trust.

Cover me with your poetic form
Your limbs lounging about
A warmth radiating from your sweat-skin
I welcome your nakedness with no doubt.

My sighs are heavy and hypnotized
I'm wrapped all up in you
And I'm not fighting at all
Because it's all I want to do.

Be with you
Be yours
Let you stroke my hair
My want is practically seeping from my pores.

But I am all ready yours
I just wish for you tonight
A moment apart from you
Brings my ache to an astounding height.

I miss you, I miss you
I'll say it a million times
As if that would put you in my arms
By writing all these rhymes.

Sleep well without me, love
If only for a night
I'll kiss you naked in my dreams
And forget this temporary plight.

"We fit together so nicely,"
You said
And I completely agree
Something so right, so meant to be.

It starts with a sweat
And a intense wash of cold
In reaction to the heat
On the inside of me.

A shiver-- or two
Quaking my form
And there you are
Between my thighs.

I'm holding my breath
Or I'm breathing heavy
And I'm biting my lip
Cause it feels so nice.

We fit together like puzzle pieces
Rocking and stretching our limbs
Colliding in a moment
Of a rising ******.

Then it comes quick
Only a split second to think
To realize what is really happening
Just long enough to react.

Starting with a flicker
Of a fiery sensation
Between my legs
And it spreads, like a wildfire

It pops
Explodes
And I feel it everywhere
A release.

My muscles ****
And it's like I'm trying to escape from my own skin
My jaw clenches
Then goes slack.

My eyes roll
My mind a kaleidoscope of thoughts
There's no sense of control
Just waves of reactions upon reactions.

A thousand different tickles
Down my thighs and to my toes
Like the sensation of warm water
When you're bitterly cold.

After the initial shake of the explosion
My mind is useless
And I have to put myself back in my body
Because for a moment I was free.

The tension is gone
Every part of me is loose
And everything is sensitive and temperamental
Like a candles flame.

For a moment there's nothing
Nothing but my body
No mind
No thoughts
No silly people things

Just the raw
The primal
The true being I am
And I see you..

You're between my thighs
Starstruck by the moment
Marveling at my body
As it rolls into yours.

I'm ****** back into the act
Like a magnet to it's kind
And you're so ******* beautiful
And you're all mine
And here, right now
We're one.

My body is powerless to you
And yours is powerless to me
We don't speak
We simply feel
And that's a closeness most don't achieve.

A bond
Like no other
Body
And mind.

"We fit together so nicely,"
You said
And I completely agree
Something so right, so meant to be.

I don't need you to rescue me
I'm no damsel in distress
I can take care of myself
I can get out of this mess.

As much as I want to be rescued
I can't let you save me all the time
I don't need a hero, I swear
I can get up this climb.

I wish I could just have no back bone
And let Superman rescue me from fall
But I'm too stubborn, and independent for that
I'm not some delicate china doll.

I'm a Superwoman myself
Even if I still know how to cry
I can take care of my problems
I don't need you to kiss them goodbye.

It would be nice, I must say
To have my life a clean slate
But that's something I have to do myself
Something that's part of my fate.

So you can kiss me Superman
But I won't let you save my day
I don't need your super powers
Go save someone else for a change.

I think that maybe
I'm a little more than in love
Something deeper, something stronger
If that's possible.

And I think that maybe
I could keep you
If not for forever
But for a while.

You're smile
Makes me shy
I hide my eyes
Beneath my lashes.

When you look at me
I can't help but grin
And want to just wrap you up
In my arms.

If I could find a word
To describe how I feel
I'd write it over and over
In a love letter to you.

And if I could find a song
To describe how I feel
I'd play it over and over
For you.

It's something silly
But isn't that real love?
Bumbling, clumsy
And fun.

I can say very well
That you bring out the best in me
And I feel like that maybe
I bring out the best in you.

This isn't the best poem
But I've been wanting to say for a while
That you make me so happy
More than I can describe.

I love how you look
How you look at me
How you smile
How you smile at me.

And I can feel your love
When you're talking to me
Hear it in your voice
Like a tone only I can hear.

And your actions speak volumes
Loud enough and large enough for me
To know that you truly love me
And I don't even have to ask.

So just so you know
I hear, feel, see, breathe your love
And it's enough
I couldn't ask for more.

Except maybe for a kiss
To remind me
A smile to make me smile
And a hug to feel your love.

I love you.

I know you'll find your way
You always do
Like water in a stream
You flow wherever the current takes you.

And I've been by your side
Since the beginning
Though we're far apart
I don't feel our friendship thinning.

If anything it's stronger
And growing ever more
I don't stop to doubt it
I just let it up and soar.

Like a bird it has to fly
Every living thing must be free
I think
So I'll let it be.

And when I watch the sunset
I often think of you
Wishing I could see you
And ask you, "How do you do?"

Our paths always meet
At the crossroads of life
And I know you'll always be there
When I'm going through strife.

Though when things are bliss
I can always count on you
To swim with me in happiness
Instead of driving it undo.

Born kindred spirits
Taking a similar walk through time
I know I should have told you this
But I express better through rhyme.

So I jot out my feelings
Scribble out my thoughts
Cross all my T's
And top the I's with dots.

But I won't give you this poem
Because of what I think
Some things are better left unsaid
Or written in invisible ink.

What it really comes down to
Is that I have no guts
I lack the appropriate courage
From being crushed.

I fear the chance of failure
And it really holds me back
It's a pretty bad habit
One I can't seem to knack.

Maybe I don't really want to
It's actually really hard
I'm always afraid of the jump
Or asking for another card.

Taking the leap of faith
Isn't something I've ever done
And whenever I do something new
I grit my teeth, and want to run.

I don't know what my problem is
Or if it's a problem at all
But It's something I need to conquer
A climb over another wall.

A little piece of me
That I'm trying to decipher
It's something I've been working on
Something that doesn't bring me higher.

It brings me lower
I've figured this out
So now I've got to get passed it
And overcome the doubt.

And maybe one day
Some time soon
I'll have the courage
To try something new.

Try all the things
I've always wanted to do
Dance like no one is watching
And sing like I ought to.

But that time won't come easily
And it won't come very fast
Hopefully I can defeat this
And put it in my past.

Behind me. I want this behind me.

Your cruel crimson lips
Blood dripping from your finger tips
My love a shattered work of art
The result of my broken heart

Splatters of scarlet hope
Mark the sheets where we eloped
My love a discarded virginity
The result of my mistaken affinity

Garnet was the decadent shade
Of the dress that veiled my vestal glade
My love a slippery hemline
The result of my relentless pine

The rusty curls on your head
Delivered me willingly into the bed
My love a handful of tangled hair
The result of my wanton affair

The flowers he sent were red
Reluctantly, I told him you were dead
My love a half-hearted lie
The result of my wandering eye

A ring offered, of ruby and gold
Silver is better, but I was sold
My love a rehearsed song
The result of my doing wrong

A burgundy kiss for a charming knight
A wedding of chastity white
My love a perfected role
The result of my injured soul

An artificial cherry-flavored *******
Sloppy second copulation
My love a feigned first
The result of my unquenched thirst

The sheet is stained with merlot
Out with the trash, then he will never know
My love a memorized line
The result of my spilled debaucherous wine.

Caged in rage
I think I've had enough
But there's so many steps to take.

Trapped in anger
Sometimes I just wish I could run
And never come back to this place.

There's more than enough anger
To go around
But I want none of it.

The negativity is suffocating
And drowning me in what I don't feel
I've had enough. I've had enough.

I thought I lost my inspiration
And lacked a current destination
Now I'm in deep concentration
Writing down my contemplation
As I write these words in desperation
I wonder on the worlds damnation
Now I seek inebriation
Within my words correlation
So here I am at my writing station
Thinking in exasperation
What do I know of segregation?
How do I change it to integration?
Do you understand my stipulation?
How do I defeat this abomination?!

I will wait in anticipation
Then I will take a needed vacation
After my attempt at world *******.

The attraction is there
Undeniably so
I can not run from it
I can not hide from it
It's there
And that's okay

You and those eyes
Admiring my body
Followed by your hands caressing my form
Oh it's there
And I like it
Of course

We are doing animal things
All night long
In a bed not made for ourselves
When morning comes we will become people again
And do people things
And go about our lives until night comes
When we can be animals again

You'd rather do animal things
Than people things
And so would I

Responsibilities take you from me
And that's all right
Because they are important
And I understand

Besides
I'm the rational one
I have to tell you to do these people things
Or we would do animal things all into the day

I'm carnally pleasing to you
I know this
I see it in your eyes
And how your hips respond to mine

Instincts take over whenever we are together
Animal things have to be done
The lack of self-control
In a bed that is not made for ourselves
Is so very supposed to be
Meant to be
And that's okay

I can not run from it
I can not hide from it
This undeniable attraction to you
Is so overwhelming that all I think about
Is doing these animals things
Even if I am the rational one

Doing animal things
In a bed not made for ourselves
Is quite all right
It's more than okay
It's perfect.

Isn't it strange how some people are?
Hiding away, until it's dark
Then they shine like a star
--But is it too late?

It's never too late
I really believe
That misery can be pulled
Away by a leash.

It's only another dog
To eat your words
Without understanding..

Pearls to swine
You'll regret it later
Why waste your pearls on a thing like that?

I cast my pearls
And as a star I shine
Surprisingly I find
A light in the darkness
A single flicker
Starting to burn, the flames getting thicker
That's all it takes
A pearl to just one
A unicorn standing alone among pigs.

Sharing their pearls with one another
Each unique sphere valuable to the other
Pearls to swine
You'll regret it
But to one unicorn in a pack of pigs,
Your pearls are precious.

I'll push you up
High into your dreams
And when you reach the top
My heart will burst at the seams.

Cause seeing you happy
All beaming and bright
Makes the perfect contrast
To the dark of the night.

A light shines in the blackness
My love showing you the way
To your desired destination
And to you I will say:

"Come on, follow me
I know where to go
I'll guide your way
With the light I show."

"And come on, follow me
I'll hold your hand
Down the rocky paths of life
The end an unknown land."

We'll walk it together
Never apart
Protecting each other
From the very start.

And I'll whisper in your ear
Like a springtime wind
Quiet and promising
My words unpinned:

"I'll love you forever
Through the darkness and light
I'll hold you hand
Together we'll fight."

"And when it's all over
I'll still love you more
When we receive our wings
Up and up we will soar."

"So hold onto my hand
Don't let it go
We'll walk this path together
Even through woe."

Just a little reminder
This tale of our love
A message brought to the both of us
From someone looking out up above.

Don't forget this poem
Or what I whispered in your ear
And I'll remind my own self
All through out the year.

Together we walk
Our love bursting at the seams
We'll push each other up
Up into our dreams.

Flower petal explosion
Bamboo stalks whistling
Drum beat echoing
Lotus blossoms blooming
Wood wind chimes
It's all within time, It's all within time
Flow time, flow time.

Orange and white swirling
Water trickling; tumbling
Over rocky pond bottoms.
Koi fish swimming
Koi fish living
It's all within time
Flow time.

It's like a laugh in the dark
Imposing and oppressive
Even if just a giggle
You're afraid.

And in the dark you're alone
Depressed and distraught
Even if you aren't crying
You're afraid.

Because darkness is the unknown
And no one likes to tread it lightly
Even if you're with someone
You're afraid.

In the dark means no control
And no control means vulnerability
Even if you're not alone
You're afraid.

You're crying on the inside
Because you don't want the darkness to see your tears
Or the person next to you because
You're afraid.

But eventually the heavy weight
Of darkness and loneliness on your shoulders
Will cause you to concave because
You're afraid.

Tell yourself to be not afraid
Because darkness is natural
It's light we create
Be not afraid.

I'll pull you out of this darkness
Because the laughter is my own
And grasping my hand I realize I'm saving myself
Am I afraid?

Even when everyone is lending you a hand
The only one you'll take is your own
Because like a lion you have your pride
You are afraid-- I am afraid.

The darkness is your fear
And it rules and haunts your world
But you've not allowed it to collapse on your shoulders
You're not afraid now, are you?

Because light we create
But when created it shines in the dark
And then you can see your path before you
I'm not afraid.

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid
Of myself
Any longer.

I spent all my years, being off key
Finally in tune, I can play my melody

In a world of concrete
and televisions
there is no room
for love and liberty
only hyperspeed delusions

Screens project illusions
colorful and negative
******, ****, war
pure destruction
revolution

Communication boxes
with buttons and blinky lights
musical tones to let you know
that your mother says hello
her voice and face is not enough

Letters are overated
conversations are useless
chivalry is ridiculous
and a smile is anything
but friendly

Neighbors are irritating
too much or too little
of this
that
or the other thing

Knowledge is power
accessible, unclear and confusing
nothing makes any sense
everyone is stupid
but everyone knows everything

Convenience
is inconvenient
never good enough
fast enough
or affordable

There's internet
for computers, tv and cell phones
books in every format
knowledge through every source
but it's all lies, right?

No one knows the truth
no one can believe it
everything is a lie
and everyone is trapped
between televisions and concrete

Nature is forgotten
or locked in fences
near park benches
trimmed and controlled
to particuliarities

Consummables are consumed
without recognition
of the quantity
or lack thereof
until there is nothing left.

Used and abused
people and animals
plants and minerals
oxygen and gas
depleted, destroyed, enslaved

There is no room
for love and liberty
in a world ruled
by delusions
created from concrete and televisions

I don't have to be anything for anyone
I don't have to prove myself to you
I shouldn't have to prove myself to you
So I won't.

There's an elephant in the room
When we're together
It's awkward and a little sad
But this is how it's become.

The space between us is so large
That it's like a vast desert
And I don't understand you anymore
And you don't understand me.

What pulled us apart
I'm sure is the difference
Between your shallow mind
And the depth of mine.

Drifting apart may be for the best
Though I will never tell you this
I'll just let the tides of change
Take me away to a different ocean.

But I never stop loving someone
That I've all ready loved
And you will always be in my heart
As a friend, as a shoulder to lean on, despite the distance.

And I've noticed the elephant in the room
Is so sad, so down, so angry
And you brought this elephant
But I don't mean to accuse.

I'll let the elephant stay
It's probably better this way
But I will always love you.

Windmills blowing clockwise
Dandelions spreading seed
Their faces are smiling.

Fields of tall grass
Bending in the wind
They know no back bone.

The sky is brilliant
The clouds are fluffy white
Let them harmonize.

Forgive me for being happy
Forgive me for not wallowing in my misery
Forgive me for being in love
Forgive me for now bowing humbly.
Forgive me for being honest
Forgive me for seeing through your lies
Forgive me for crying
Forgive me for asking why.
Forgive me for speaking up
Forgive me for acting out
Forgive me for maturing quickly
Forgive me for having doubt.
Forgive me for being paranoid
Forgive me for laughing at you
Forgive me for being there
Forgive me for expecting you to.
Forgive me for having a will
Forgive me for being strong
Forgive me for being human
Forgive me for being wrong.
Forgive me for being strange
Forgive me for being right
Forgive me for being broken
Forgive me for putting up a fight.
Forgive me now or forever hold your peace
Because I won't wait around
Not for you, at least.

Unfamiliar sadness
Is the worst kind of sadness
At least I think that's how it goes.

You tell yourself to smile
You tell yourself it's okay
But that's simply not how it flows.

It engulfs you like a fire
Swallowing its surroundings
Swallowing you entirely whole.

It's a new kind of sadness
Though you've been sad before
This one continues to burn hot like a coal.

You try to stifle it
You try to drown it
But it keeps eating you day by day.

Little did you know
That this type of sadness
Has to be put out a different way.

Unfamiliar sadness
Is the worst kind of sadness
I've pretty much figured that out.

It might take you a while
To put out the fire
But then you'll know for next time, what it's all about.

It's nice to wake up next to you
A comfortable feeling
That I could get used to.

Rising whenever we please
Taking our time to get out of bed
A ***** feeling, it puts me at ease.

Just as I am waking
I know you're next to me
And a smile is immediately forming.

I really could get used to this
Sleeping next to you
And receiving a good morning kiss.

I want it to last
But you cant stay in bed forever
I am hoping tonight comes fast.

So I can get close to you again
Hold you in my arms
And maybe the night wont end.

I want you naked in my bed
Or I want to be naked in yours
I miss you tonight
Especially when I lay in bed, all alone.

You don't realize it
But you're amazing
At everything you do
At everything you touch.

I wanna kiss your mouth
And caress your face with my hands
I want to run my fingers through your hair
You're amazing, so amazing.

I get a shiver inside of me
When you stroke me the right way
The only way you know how
The only way you ever have.

And I get the butterflies in my stomach
When I think of your smile
I nearly blush, when I normally would never
But you make me feel in all the right ways.

You're amazing, so amazing
I thought you should know
You're amazing at everything you do
Especially amazing at me.

Tick-tock of the clock
Time is running out
It feels like everything is moving quickly
I don't know what this is about.

I've lost control
Though really I never had it
Just an illusion I created
Another bad habit.

I fear getting older
I feel I'm not young enough
I want to grow up, I want to get out
Break free, a diamond in the rough.

Shine me up, sparkly
Rub down all my edges; smooth so smooth
Round off all my corners
Encourage me to move, move, move.

Push me! Shove me!
Get me going
Touch me the right way
Get the juices flowing.

Excite me, entice me!
Then burn me out
Let the wax run hot
Down, down, all about.

Change.
I hate it. I hate it.
I love it. I love it.
A love-hate relationship.

The lack of control
When change happens
Is terrifying
And nerve-wracking

But I accept everything as is
I've learned to let things go
Even though I burn hot, so hot
I let my wax flow.

Free, so free
I'd love to be
Trapped, very trapped
But now I see.

There's a *** of gold at the end of every rainbow
Though it's never found
It's a hope to grasp onto
A reason to keep your head above the water so as to not drown.

And eventually, metaphorically
I will find that *** of gold
My wax will run to the end of the wick
And everything I have will be old.

And with the old I will know
More than I've ever known
But until that I day, I must say
I have a lot, so far, that's grown.

So let the wax burn
Let the change exist
I will allow the loss of control
And the passing of time will persist.

Acceptance.
It's so hard, but so nice.

Your beauty is like a diamond
Began as rough
Shined up sparkly
To something that is enough..

For me to see how beautiful you are
Under the calloused surface of your skin
You glow like a moonbeam
Brilliant beneath your sin.

Everyone is a sinner
But to me you're divine
Your spirituality is powerful
Can you see who you really are through my eyes?

Like honey I lick you up
So sticky sweet to my lips
The nectar of your essence
Upon my finger tips.

And you're delicious, so tasty
I love you the way you are
As precious as gold, to me
Rare like a falling star.

I've caught you in my hands
Sticky, brilliant, tasty, bright
I'll pour my water over you
Honey-filled moonbeam, delight.

"Four - Breaking Even"
February 4th, 2014
Valerie Viele

I am a creation. I am a maiden. I am a creator. I am a crone.
I am dawn. I am noon. I am evening. I am midnight.
I am a girl. I am a temptress. I am a neither. I am a goddess.
I am a daughter. I am a *****. I am a mother. I am a lineage.
I am a sister. I am a best friend. I am a vague acquaintance. I am a messenger.
I am a child. I am a ******. I am a lover. I am a wife.
I am a princess. I am a beauty queen. I am a damsel in distress. I am a warrior.
I am a daisy. I am a snapdragon. I am a rose bud. I am a lilly.
I am a smile. I am a wink. I am a laugh. I am a snort.
I am a frown. I am a cold shoulder. I am a forgiver. I am a resolver.
I am a question. I am a questioner. I am a question mark. I am a answer.
I am a butterfly kiss. I am a bumble bee sting. I am a cicada hiss. I am a caterpillar tickle.
I am a cupcake. I am a box of chocolates. I am a glass of wine. I am a bowl of oatmeal.
I am a doll. I am a model. I am a celebrity. I am a infamous figure.
I am a game master. I am a rule-breaker.  I am a tyrant. I am a player.
I am a brat. I am a train-wreck. I am a witty retort. I am a knowing silence.
I am a ballerina. I am a dancer. I am a performer. I am a choregrapher.
I am a goodie two shoes. I am straight "A." I am a graduate. I am a mentor.
I am a tomboy. I am a mess. I am a fresh-pressed suit. I am a mumu.
I am a sneer. I am a red pair of lips. I am a pout. I am a broad grin.
I am a skinned knee. I am a bruised ego. I am a battered soul. I am a healed heart.
I am a piece of candy.  I am a piece of work. I am a master piece. I am a peace of mind.
I am a bubble gum "POP!" I am a whip-smart "CRACK!" I am a below the belt "BLOW!" I am a humble "WHISTLE!"
I am a kick. I am a slap. I am a hit and run. I am a sly trip.
I am a hug. I am a kiss. I am a ****. I am a cuddle.
I am a favorite. I am a nobody. I am a somebody. I am a everybody.
I am a challenge. I am a one-sided opinion. I am a worthy debate.  I am a open mind.
I am a bicycle. I am a fast car. I am a train. I am a stroll.
I am a pony tail. I am a bleach blonde. I am a practical bob. I am a braid.
I am a bracelet. I am a gold ring. I am a necklace. I am a bead.
I am a broken bone. I am a victim. I am a rescuer. I am a nurse.
I am a singer. I am a song. I am a composer. I am a listener.
I am a leader.  I am a runaway. I am a follower. I am a team.
I am a bubble bath.  I am a long shower. I am a quick rinse. I am a ocean dip.
I am a pond. I am a frozen lake. I am a waterfall. I am a river.
I am a castle. I am a tall tower. I am a skyscraper. I am a bridge.
I am a banshee. I am a blood-curdling scream. I am a yelp. I am a squeak.
I am a pretender. I am a liar. I am a deceiver. I am a revealer.
I am a sob. I am a woe-is-me. I am a wallow. I am a single tear.
I am a why? I am a why not? I am a no. I am a yes.
I am a sleep over. I am a house party. I am a coffee break. I am a tea time.
I am a today. I am a now. I am a tomorrow. I am a yesterday.


SSK<3

Does a blind man see nothing
Or does he see black or white
Does he see a certain color
Or does he see a lack of light?

We'll never really know what a blind man sees
He may see nothing
But what could nothing really be?

A blind man might be the only
Man to see nothing
For nothing is nothing
And that really is something
--That we can't see.

We try to define nothing
When we cannot see it
And maybe that is the only
Something a blind man can see.

We'll never know the truth
But I am sure it is something
More than black or white
Or the the lack of light
This is what he sees without his sight,
Right?

Beautifully tangible in my mouth
I taste it like you see a rainbow
Swallowed like sunshine on my skin
Filling like a cotton candy cloud.

I'm amazed, surprised even
He's so good to me
I don't even have any reason
To be anything but me.

In fact I feel more myself
He's such a good guy
I almost don't deserve him
But I won't say goodbye.

Everything he is, is perfect
Everything he does is, as well
I hope I'm good enough
I can't seem to tell.

He treats me better
Than anyone ever has before
Respect, with real love
I couldn't expect anything more.

I don't think he realizes
How loved I feel
When you go from being treated like trash
This is something so much more real.

I just hope I can match up
To the amazing way he showers me with love
I'll try my best, I'll bend over backwards
He must be a gift from above.

I truly believe this was meant to be
As corny as that sounds
Cliche-ly, I say, fate brought us together
Our loves knows no bounds.

At least not mine.

I wish the words of my mouth
Could work like a fine stitching
Closing up the holes in your heart.

But I never have the words
To make it all go away
If anything, I just tear it all apart.

I'm not eloquent
Or tastefully soothing
But my heart beats in the right rhythm.

I try to say all the right things
Instead, I stumble and fall
I guess, truly, I am just winsome.

I watch your painful confusion
Unable to help
And we both seem to tumble into turmoil.

I wish could gracefully
Be your divine savior
But unfortunately I'm just a harlequin girl.

I'm hanging by a thread
At least I feel that way sometimes
A noose around my neck
Though I'd make some pretty wind chimes.

I'm not going to let go
And let myself fall down
Luckily I have my many stars
That guide me through this desolate town.

I wander around lost
In the burning sun
But when the night comes
I can begin to have fun.

My many stars come out to shine
Showing me the way
And though I'll have a sleepless night
I'll be ready for the day.

Maybe you can guess
Who or what the stars are
But all that matters is their brilliance
To show me how to travel far.

Though nothing glows brighter
Then the moon in the sky
I may have my many stars
And that is not a lie.

But this big bright globe
Is more than just a friend
He keeps my heart up there
I know it's more than just pretend..

And more than just a fairy tale
Of a maiden and the moon
One day it will be forever after
Though maybe not so soon.

I wish upon a star tonight
Though the man in the moon is listening
I say: "I wish I can keep him for all time!"
And I swear, after, I saw him glistening...

There's nothing more
I'd like to say
Then how much I love you
On Valentine's Day.

We have been
Through thick and thin
From start to end
From here to there again.

I wish I could give you
Anything you desire
The world and it's treasures
And the Lord's holy fire.

My heart belongs to you
It may be here in my chest
But it beats for you eternally
And it only wants the best.

God has chosen my knight
And with great joy
I accept him wholeheartedly
Man or boy.

You taste like apple ginger
Especially in the rain
The smell of wet around us
A memory like a stain.

You smell like earth and spices
I breathe you into my soul
Your scent enticing
Like a magnet pull.

Your hair in my hands
Your lips on mine
I want to be in collision
With your hips in due time.

But for now the rain
Pouring down like a shower
Washing away filth
And all the painful power.

Refreshing and delicious
Of cold and drippy wet
Later in the moonlight from the window
A hotter mess, I bet.

Daydreaming of a collision
But for now a car ride
A hopefully fulfilled prediction
Only now just your hand on my thigh.

In due time, in due time
You will be mine
Sweaty but gingerly
Between my thighs.

We're always halfway there
No matter where we are
And being halfway there
We don't have to go far.

It started on a hike
So familiar
Then to a shrine
Nothing in particular.

A small discussion
To later be pronounced
Sharing of stories
Figuring things out.

Just to that hill
There lies a bench
Tiny flower on the way
So many colors, all for you.

An urge to feel the Earth
On my skin
But I oppress it
And instead move on.

We don't walk far
But it's been an hour or so
We discover a rock
Where my brain would explode.

Take me on this rock
I want you to
You want to
We're halfway to the cave, why not?

It hits me like a semi truck
I can't see even though I see
So I close my eyes
No, no, the initial shock.

It brings on tears I've been meaning to cry
For so long
You tell me it's all right
And I try to breath, with you.

Undeniably a profound experience
I cannot explain
But it happened
Halfway to the cave, with you.

I wouldn't have gotten out alive
If you hadn't been there
But I wouldn't have been there
If you didn't bring on awkward moments.

Mind-blowing all in all
What I expected it to be
Though it never was
Never had been before.

I was so scared
But you were there
And I hated you briefly
Only briefly, and it was false.

You pried me from the rock
The only existence I understood
Since mind didn't make sense
And yours terrified me.

A long journey ahead
But I'm not afraid anymore
I think I can relax a little bit
You make it easy to be something I've never been but wanted to be so bad.

You said I'm brave
Or was
But who wouldn't be
When they have you as their guide.

But I don't trust easily
Especially guidance through
What I fear the most
Even if it's by you.

But now in darkness
I'm not afraid
A profound experience
One you made.

I would have had you on the bridge
Halfway to the cave
But I'm so unlucky
Good thing I waited.

Riddle me this
Riddle me that
Have you met your match?
She's halfway to the cave
Halfway to you
And where you are
And halfway home
And halfway to halfway
But lost
But everything is halfway to the cave
So you know where you are
And it's not far
Cause you're halfway
Halfway to the cave
And where you need to be.

But I'm glad I got lost
Halfway to the cave with you
Cause we kept going forward
And lead me through.

I grew so much
In just a day
A moment I'll savior
So life-changing, I must say.

So many realizations
From ripples of water
To plants that eat
And watch and grow

I lost myself
Halfway to the cave
But you found me
You always do.

I'm having trouble breathing
It doesn't hurt
It's actually kind of nice.

This tension in my lungs
Is because of your love
And in my ribcage there are mice.

Maybe it's a little morbid
Rather than to say butterflies
But those can be freed with a sigh.

Maybe it's a little demented
But I like it that way
I wear a noose as a tie.

I guess I'm probably backwards
To say the least
I prefer blood to water.

Your love is psychotic
Like a psychedelic trip
From a blotter.

It's so nice
As wrong as asphyxiation sounds
But it's as macabre as it is pleasing.

And if you were to leave
The warmth of my body
Would undoubtedly turn to freezing.

There's something special about Grandmothers
That nobody knows
A sweet little kept secret
Like kisses to your nose.

Her heart is made of gold
And filled with honey to the brim
Her eyes were specially picked
From fallen stars that never go dim.

Her spirit comes from rain
That fell from the sky
Caught in God's bucket
And poured to make her alive.

Her legs were made for dancing
And propping when she gets old
They were made from strong tree trunks
Chopped by God's axe made of gold.

Her hands were made from leather
Polished with God's tears
And become soft and papery
After so many years.

Her hair is like the finest silk
Whether it curly or straight
Pulled from God's head himself
And sewn into her scalp on her birthday.

Grandmother's are beautiful
Fashioned after the Lord
Loving, kind, and strong
Trustworthy, intelligent, and adored.

They always know right from wrong
And mend things when they break
Their words like band-aids
Healing up your emotional scrapes.

There's something special about Grandmother's
That nobody knows
A sweet little kept secret
Like kisses to your nose.

Maybe I'll get lucky
And be remembered years from now
For something amazing
Something that makes one say "Wow."

Maybe I'll get lucky
And win the lottery
Buy a big house
Or go live anywhere I wanna be.

Maybe I'll get lucky
And find the perfect someone
To make me really happy
And fill my life with fun.

But I'm all ready lucky
I'll be remembered in a way
By everyone who loves me
And the things I have to say.

I'm all ready lucky
I'm richer than I can boast
Not including money
But in what counts the most.

And I'm all ready lucky
I've found the perfect man
Who makes me more than happy
And who can fit in to my plan.

So I'm the luckiest person in the world
At least in my sight
And that's all that really matters,
Right?

She had on Hello Kitty *******
That I discarded to the floor
I could have removed them romantically
But she was just a *****.

She had smaller **** than I expected
When I received referral from a friend
But her waist I could grab onto
And oh how she could bend.

I thought I might break her
With every ****** of my hips
But every single moan
Cried more from her lips.

And when the night was over
With my final blow
She let me explode inside
Further announcing that she's a **.

It wasn't until a few years later
When I saw her once more
That she had with her a child
Once that I'd never seen before.

And given by his looks
His hair color and eyes
That I knew he was mine
Especially with the sound of her sighs.

She told me she tried to tell me
But I was too strung out
So she never tried again
Figured it'd be forgotten about.

And she was right
I would have never known
Until I called her up for another ****
Only to have my mind blown.

So what do I do now?
I guess it doesn't matter
I'm simply just a ******
My life is all ready a tatter.

I don't need a child
I don't need her, as well
I only need that needle
So I guess I'm going to hell.

Do I deserve you?
My insecurities think not
But what do they know,
About what we've got?

I don't have any doubt
About whether I love you or not
But I wonder "Do I deserve you?"
Often in my thoughts.

I bet it's because I lack
A confidence of grand amount
And have never been with someone so amazing
So naturally I have doubt.

But not about our love
Just whether I deserve you or not
Because I look down on myself
And wonder what goods I've got.

It'll soon pass, I know
As other things have
I'll learn to let it go
And put it in the past.

Cause most of me knows
That I deserve you
But part of me doesn't
Because our love is so true.

Too good to be true?
Maybe, but not
What do my insecurities know,
About the love we've got?

Fraudulent like lies on paper
Written in blood so thick
Your sin it smells like perfume
The envelope sealed with a kiss, it makes me sick.

No one stands for your tales
Of truth created from spite
It's written on your forehead
I think you know that it isn't right.

You are aware of what you say
What you do and how you do it
You work up a smile like a wolf
But your prey won't fall into the bottomless pit.

Soon you will progress into destruction
From the venom of your own bite
Topple like a tower
Out of everyone's sight.

Funny how the cards fall
Interesting how it collapses from the inside
Weak in the middle of a hard outer shell
Destroyed by the relentless tide.

Down you go!
Into your own pit of hell
A familiar smile above you
From the ones that you didn't wish well.

I think I've decided I'm crazy
Like really lost my mind
But you're just as crazy
So I've come to find.

"Let's talk about how beautiful you are," you said
And snuggled into my shoulder
"Let's talk about spaceships," I said
Maybe I was growing bolder.

Then you replied, wittily,
"You'd look beautiful in a spaceship."
And that was when I realized
I was biting my lip.

Because you see, the mingling
Of the Strings, all around you and me
Have intertwined our crazy minds
And thus set us free.

I might look pretty in a spaceship
But that is not the point
The point is, the ground we fell upon
Has a common joint.

And maybe that doesn't make sense
But to me, I see the factors matching
Connecting all our String Theory Strings,
Each others breath we are catching.

And maybe that's what love is
When our wriggly Strings combine
Or maybe that's how you teleport
And even read my mind.

Either way, I think we're crazy
And match up fairly true
Pretty in a spaceship, or not
I am definitely in love with you.

I think I was dreaming
Until I met you
I've been sleeping restlessly
All of this time

When you kissed my lips
I opened my eyes
And saw you in the daylight
That I had never seen before

I knew I was awake now
When you held my hand
Your skin was so warm
Nothing like in my dreams

You led me from fantasy
Straight into reality
Taking me on magnificent adventures
That I never could have imagined

When I saw your boyish grin
And realized I was the cause
I was completely taken aback
My voice strangled in my throat

You take the breath from my lungs
And you paint the smile on my lips
I wear my favorite shade of happy
Tickle me pink, just for you

Nowadays we dream together
But it's nothing like it was
Before you kissed my lips
And I opened my eyes

Our dreams our endless enchantment
Full of wonder and whimsy
We allow our imaginations
To run wild and free

With you and me
Our dreams are boundless
There are no fences to corrall
The mustangs of our Will's

Full speed ahead and *******
Galloping with ferver
Together we ride in open fields
The daylight a fresh perspective

My eyes were opened
Because of you
And I will never let them close
Not now, not again, not ever

The days I spent dreaming
Are a memory far behind
I remember what it was like
But I don't wish to go back

I wish to stay with you
Riding our mustangs
Letting our Will's be the reigns
Our eyes open, in daylight.

I miss you a lot today
I think it's probably the music
Or the sun setting in my yard
That makes me think of you.

Or maybe it's that I'm writing
About you again
And allowing inspirational thoughts of you
To move my hand like you always do.

Or maybe it's that
The rain is gone
And I know we could be out
Hiking the day away.

But I'll see you soon, love
It's silly I know
That you've only been gone
One day, today.

I can't help but want
To spend my time with you
It's something that comes
With the love in my heart.

And maybe that it's a lazy day
One I could share with you
In bed, lounging
Unable to part.

Some say it's only like this
For a little while
And that it goes away
After the new feeling is all spent.

But it's only progressing
Into a hopelessly romantic love
So I don't think I'll be ever asking
Where it all went.

I don't miss you sadly
I miss you in joy
In comfort of knowing
You're on my mind  al-ways.

And I am in yours
I don't doubt it the least
With little love notes
Of your adventure days.

It makes me smile to know
I don't have to be around
For you to enjoy life
For you to grow.

And It makes me laugh to know
You don't have to be around
For me to enjoy life
For me to grow, so

Have fun out there, babe
Exploring, expanding
As I pass the time
Being inspired by your "I love you's".

I'll see you when you get back
And kiss you gingerly
Hold you real close
And tell you that "I love you, too."

I miss you a lot today
It might be the music or the sun
Or that I know I can't see you
Even if I wanted to for fun.