When I saw the fire in your eyes
It made me want to cry
And even though I cried
I saw in the mirror, the fire in my own eyes.

It's a burning tragedy
The way you feel for me
It makes my heart bleed
It's a burning tragedy.

She had on Hello Kitty *******
That I discarded to the floor
I could have removed them romantically
But she was just a *****.

She had smaller **** than I expected
When I received referral from a friend
But her waist I could grab onto
And oh how she could bend.

I thought I might break her
With every ****** of my hips
But every single moan
Cried more from her lips.

And when the night was over
With my final blow
She let me explode inside
Further announcing that she's a **.

It wasn't until a few years later
When I saw her once more
That she had with her a child
Once that I'd never seen before.

And given by his looks
His hair color and eyes
That I knew he was mine
Especially with the sound of her sighs.

She told me she tried to tell me
But I was too strung out
So she never tried again
Figured it'd be forgotten about.

And she was right
I would have never known
Until I called her up for another ****
Only to have my mind blown.

So what do I do now?
I guess it doesn't matter
I'm simply just a ******
My life is all ready a tatter.

I don't need a child
I don't need her, as well
I only need that needle
So I guess I'm going to hell.

Windmills blowing clockwise
Dandelions spreading seed
Their faces are smiling.

Fields of tall grass
Bending in the wind
They know no back bone.

The sky is brilliant
The clouds are fluffy white
Let them harmonize.

Flower petal explosion
Bamboo stalks whistling
Drum beat echoing
Lotus blossoms blooming
Wood wind chimes
It's all within time, It's all within time
Flow time, flow time.

Orange and white swirling
Water trickling; tumbling
Over rocky pond bottoms.
Koi fish swimming
Koi fish living
It's all within time
Flow time.

I feel inspired
But it's hard to write
When I have so many words in my head
And a foggy, blocked sight.

All these revelations
Epiphanies and truths
But I can't find the words
To explain them from their roots.

It's not that simple for me
No, not today
The structure evades me
Making my song hard to say.

I guess I know everything
At least inside my head
A deep profound understanding
Like the color red.

I could say I know why
The flowers bloom in the spring
Or how we learned to speak
And what love has to bring.

But really the true knowledge
Is realizing what you know
Is really something no more than nothing
And what it has to show.

It's everything you've always known
And the little voice in your mind
That tingle in your toes
And when your heart beats out of rhyme.

It's what you've always wanted to say
And everything you've wanted to do
What I really know
Is nothing more than you.

It's what makes you look up
Instead of looking down
And what makes you smile
Or what makes you frown.

It's when you cry so hard you laugh
And when you laugh so hard you cry
It's those secrets you see in the mirror
And those motto's you live by.

I don't know anything more than you
I just express it well
Instead of locking it inside
And wishing things were swell.

So really what I've been trying to write
Though I've written many lines
Is that everyone knows something
It's just whether or not they've realized.

Spread your wings and fly
Like a bird in the sky
I know you're asking why
We had to say goodbye
I can still hear your cry
Your breath like a sigh
And while I'm up so high
I'll wonder why you had to die
---Goodbye.

Don't you just wish
Sometimes
That you could speak your mind
Rattle out all your rhymes.

Let everyone know
What you're thinking about
How you really feel
Or why you wear that pout.

And don't you just wish
Every day
That you could sing your own song
Not caring about what anyone will say.

I think everyone
Has this desire
Inside our heart
Burning like a fire.

We should all let it out
Let the fire burn
And deal out all our words
Speaking what we yearn.

And we shouldn't be afraid
Of our own burning flame
We should let a little out
Letting fate control the game.

We all have a passion
Something hiding in our hearts
A secret we hold on to
Because we're afraid of what it might start.

But don't be afraid
I should listen to my own advice
And maybe you, or I, will speak out today
Without thinking twice.

Maybe I'll get lucky
And be remembered years from now
For something amazing
Something that makes one say "Wow."

Maybe I'll get lucky
And win the lottery
Buy a big house
Or go live anywhere I wanna be.

Maybe I'll get lucky
And find the perfect someone
To make me really happy
And fill my life with fun.

But I'm all ready lucky
I'll be remembered in a way
By everyone who loves me
And the things I have to say.

I'm all ready lucky
I'm richer than I can boast
Not including money
But in what counts the most.

And I'm all ready lucky
I've found the perfect man
Who makes me more than happy
And who can fit in to my plan.

So I'm the luckiest person in the world
At least in my sight
And that's all that really matters,
Right?

Do I deserve you?
My insecurities think not
But what do they know,
About what we've got?

I don't have any doubt
About whether I love you or not
But I wonder "Do I deserve you?"
Often in my thoughts.

I bet it's because I lack
A confidence of grand amount
And have never been with someone so amazing
So naturally I have doubt.

But not about our love
Just whether I deserve you or not
Because I look down on myself
And wonder what goods I've got.

It'll soon pass, I know
As other things have
I'll learn to let it go
And put it in the past.

Cause most of me knows
That I deserve you
But part of me doesn't
Because our love is so true.

Too good to be true?
Maybe, but not
What do my insecurities know,
About the love we've got?

Forgive me for being happy
Forgive me for not wallowing in my misery
Forgive me for being in love
Forgive me for now bowing humbly.
Forgive me for being honest
Forgive me for seeing through your lies
Forgive me for crying
Forgive me for asking why.
Forgive me for speaking up
Forgive me for acting out
Forgive me for maturing quickly
Forgive me for having doubt.
Forgive me for being paranoid
Forgive me for laughing at you
Forgive me for being there
Forgive me for expecting you to.
Forgive me for having a will
Forgive me for being strong
Forgive me for being human
Forgive me for being wrong.
Forgive me for being strange
Forgive me for being right
Forgive me for being broken
Forgive me for putting up a fight.
Forgive me now or forever hold your peace
Because I won't wait around
Not for you, at least.

I'll push you up
High into your dreams
And when you reach the top
My heart will burst at the seams.

Cause seeing you happy
All beaming and bright
Makes the perfect contrast
To the dark of the night.

A light shines in the blackness
My love showing you the way
To your desired destination
And to you I will say:

"Come on, follow me
I know where to go
I'll guide your way
With the light I show."

"And come on, follow me
I'll hold your hand
Down the rocky paths of life
The end an unknown land."

We'll walk it together
Never apart
Protecting each other
From the very start.

And I'll whisper in your ear
Like a springtime wind
Quiet and promising
My words unpinned:

"I'll love you forever
Through the darkness and light
I'll hold you hand
Together we'll fight."

"And when it's all over
I'll still love you more
When we receive our wings
Up and up we will soar."

"So hold onto my hand
Don't let it go
We'll walk this path together
Even through woe."

Just a little reminder
This tale of our love
A message brought to the both of us
From someone looking out up above.

Don't forget this poem
Or what I whispered in your ear
And I'll remind my own self
All through out the year.

Together we walk
Our love bursting at the seams
We'll push each other up
Up into our dreams.

I wanna be dancing
With the bass thumping loud
Sweaty and half naked
Lost in the crowd.

People all around me
A laser light show up above
The DJ's playing beats
Music that I love.

Raw, wild and filthy
Hips swaying like a snake
The darkness illuminated
By the light shows people make.

Everyone is dancing
Here in the middle of the floor
Bodies rocking and grooving
Sinful sweat dripping from our pores.

But for now I fantasize
About this moment in my mind
Sometime soon it will come true
And I'll get to bump and grind.

Beat out a rhythm
With my finger tips
All of the lyrics
Flowing from my lips.

A private dance party
When I'm all alone
I'm a Rockstar in my mirror
With my hairbrush microphone.

And maybe I'll be Rockstar
Someday, someday
Or just here in my bedroom
I have stage fright anyway.

Pump up the volume
No shirt, no pants
Jamming in my socks
My own private dance.

I do it just for fun
When I'm all alone
Rockstar in my mirror
With my hairbrush microphone.

I love how you sound
Writhing beneath me
A surprise in your voice
Your legs trembling.

The muscles in your body
Are flexing and tensing
Your hips are rising
Your breath is so heavy.

I love how you sound
It's my favorite part
Usually a quiet mouse
But like this, so raw, so untamed.

I've never seen you like this
I marvel in the moment
In your rapture of ecstasy
A hum between my own thighs.

It's exciting to see you
Let loose like a trapped wind
Blowing out wildly
Like you've never been free to breeze.

It's easy to please you
Because it pleases me
Especially when you're writhing
Beneath me.

Does a blind man see nothing
Or does he see black or white
Does he see a certain color
Or does he see a lack of light?

We'll never really know what a blind man sees
He may see nothing
But what could nothing really be?

A blind man might be the only
Man to see nothing
For nothing is nothing
And that really is something
--That we can't see.

We try to define nothing
When we cannot see it
And maybe that is the only
Something a blind man can see.

We'll never know the truth
But I am sure it is something
More than black or white
Or the the lack of light
This is what he sees without his sight,
Right?

You taste like apple ginger
Especially in the rain
The smell of wet around us
A memory like a stain.

You smell like earth and spices
I breathe you into my soul
Your scent enticing
Like a magnet pull.

Your hair in my hands
Your lips on mine
I want to be in collision
With your hips in due time.

But for now the rain
Pouring down like a shower
Washing away filth
And all the painful power.

Refreshing and delicious
Of cold and drippy wet
Later in the moonlight from the window
A hotter mess, I bet.

Daydreaming of a collision
But for now a car ride
A hopefully fulfilled prediction
Only now just your hand on my thigh.

In due time, in due time
You will be mine
Sweaty but gingerly
Between my thighs.

I miss you a lot today
I think it's probably the music
Or the sun setting in my yard
That makes me think of you.

Or maybe it's that I'm writing
About you again
And allowing inspirational thoughts of you
To move my hand like you always do.

Or maybe it's that
The rain is gone
And I know we could be out
Hiking the day away.

But I'll see you soon, love
It's silly I know
That you've only been gone
One day, today.

I can't help but want
To spend my time with you
It's something that comes
With the love in my heart.

And maybe that it's a lazy day
One I could share with you
In bed, lounging
Unable to part.

Some say it's only like this
For a little while
And that it goes away
After the new feeling is all spent.

But it's only progressing
Into a hopelessly romantic love
So I don't think I'll be ever asking
Where it all went.

I don't miss you sadly
I miss you in joy
In comfort of knowing
You're on my mind  al-ways.

And I am in yours
I don't doubt it the least
With little love notes
Of your adventure days.

It makes me smile to know
I don't have to be around
For you to enjoy life
For you to grow.

And It makes me laugh to know
You don't have to be around
For me to enjoy life
For me to grow, so

Have fun out there, babe
Exploring, expanding
As I pass the time
Being inspired by your "I love you's".

I'll see you when you get back
And kiss you gingerly
Hold you real close
And tell you that "I love you, too."

I miss you a lot today
It might be the music or the sun
Or that I know I can't see you
Even if I wanted to for fun.

It's like poison to my soul
Being here
Captivated by toxic.

I cry every time
The taste of sweet nectar
Fading from my lips when I return.

Why don't they taste their own bitter hearts?
Why can't they die, like I, from the venom in their mouths?
Don't they feel the weight on their shoulders?

I hate it
I hate it so much it hurts
I hate it so much that I cry
Every time.

Caged in rage
I think I've had enough
But there's so many steps to take.

Trapped in anger
Sometimes I just wish I could run
And never come back to this place.

There's more than enough anger
To go around
But I want none of it.

The negativity is suffocating
And drowning me in what I don't feel
I've had enough. I've had enough.

Being mildly depressed
Is something that wears out the soul
I bet I could have guessed
That it would begin to take a toll
And though I cannot cry
I still feel the pain
My tears will not dry
Until they fall like rain.

Just when I think
My inspiration has run dry
You sneak your way into my mind
And show me how to fly.

The words I construct
Flit across the page
With love and romance
And freedom from a cage.

My heart soars for you
And sings a melody
Lovesick and a romantic
For you, from me.

You've changed my life
In a magical way
From black to colorful
From plain to gay.

But what I'm trying to tell you
Is that you're very special to me
In more ways than just my love for you
But how you set me free.

It's strange how time goes by so slowly
But I feel like it's been so long
Since we have been together
Writing our love song.

But it is really great
That time tricks us like this
Cause I'd like to cherish you
In every moment of bliss.

I love you, sir
More than I think even -I- know
And I'll hold onto you forever
Because you're now stitched into my life flow.

"I really don't like this song
It sounds so terribly dead"
I looked around at all the people
They hadn't heard what I said.

"Turn it off!" I said
"Turn it off!" I said
"It's driving me completely insane!"
But the people there were inside of my head
And the song they played was the same.

I'm not very good at this
Explaining myself and what I do
Deciphering my emotions
Deciding what is wrong and what is true.

So let's start with the no
And later with the yes
One means "Absolutely!"
And the other a "I guess"

It's a bit confusing
But I know you'll understand
If maybe I write it down
To lend you a helping hand.

When I say maybe
I really don't have a clue
Of what or how I feel
And what we should do.

So back to yes it's simple
When it doesn't mean yes
It's probably a "No"
Or a "Not quite yet."

When you cross all the I's
And dot the T's
Everything is spelled correct
And really easy to read.

But if you don't speak my language
Because I'm afraid you aren't me
And you definitely aren't a girl
I'm sorry, but that's how it has to be.

And when I'm mad I'm not really mad
Or I'm very *******
Though I probably won't tell you
But clear my throat and cough.

Because when I'm nervous I fidget
And it's obvious to most
That I'm afraid to give a straight answer
For what I fear might come too close.

I don't like getting yelled at
In fact it's usually the response
That I get when I speak openly
And tell of all my wants.

But I have to learn
That you can't always be afraid
It's only more problematic
And expands the mess I made.

So I should just speak my mind
I will try, when I can
And tell you a direct answer
So that you understand.

Because I probably just boggle you
Twist you up and confuse you
Turn you upside down
Even though I don't mean to.

So sometimes yes means no
And other times no means yes
And when I say maybe
That's usually a I guess.

So that is half of the time
But even that's not completely true
I guess I could try a little harder
And break it down for you.

So yes is sometimes maybe
And no is always no
But maybe is absolutely
And I guess, is what you should watch out for.

Because when I say I guess
I really mean no, never
Unless I'm smiling
Then we can do it together.

I'm having a hard time explaining
I'm sure you can see
Maybe there's no use in trying
In figuring out me.

But I give you lots of credit
And lots of kisses too
Cause you've got it down pretty good
Probably better than I do.

So I'll stop trying to explain myself
It seems to be a waste of time
I'm only making it more confusing
By writing this rhyme.

There was a time in the world
When things were not the same
They were very different
Even by name.

Everything was backwards here
Sideways or upside down
This world was mixed up
Topsy turvy, twisted around.

The ocean swells started at the shore
And then pulled out to the sea
It's madness, I know!
But this is how it use to be.

Dogs meowed
Whales were in the sky
Cats barked
And birds didn't fly.

Clouds were pink
And grass was blue
Mountains were red
And yellow too.

When people spoke it sounded like music
And when instruments played they could talk
People didn't have faces
And they danced instead of walked.

We kicked people to say hello
Shaking hands was a crime
We had fingers instead of toes
It was such a strange, strange time!

Nobody wore any clothes
And had no hair on their head
We didn't wash with water
But bathed in mud instead.

They say the world changed
When a meteor fell from space
Creating a cosmic boom
That put things out of place.

Now here were are today
Thinking everything here is how it should be
But there once was a time before this
When everything worked differently.

So there was a time in the world
Before our time now
When everything was different
Including the why and how.

Everything was backwards here
Sideways or upside down
This world was mixed up
Topsy turvy, twisted around.

We're waiting for our death
Or maybe just a new beginning
The storm is haunting the horizon
Black clouds with lightning grinning.

The rumbling of the thunder
Is laughing at our fear
Or maybe it's my imagination
But the worst will soon appear.

They said for years
That when the storm arrives
Beasts will come from the dark
And we will run for our lives.

Some will die then
But most will die soon after
In the storm bouts of acid
And the thunders laughter.

But if you don't die then
It'll be from the flood
Drowning in your misery
Or trapped in the sludge mud.

And if you're still alive
You better have a boat
The beasts of the sea will eat you up
"Apocalyptic ******!" she wrote.

Her name was Sylvia
A mystical seer
From the before times
She told what she could hear.

The wind whispered to her
All these terrible things
Here they are before us now
And this is what she said they would bring.

So we're waiting for our death
We've all ready felt the plague
The storm is haunting the horizon
Until the end of our days.

I'll capture your soul in a jar
and keep it close to me
I'll carry it a distance so far
and set it by the sea.

Your soul will glow and gleam
and yearn to be let out
I'll open the lid and beam
let you be free and flit about.

From the city I rescued you
from all the pain and sorrow
By the sea will do
and we will leave back home tomorrow.

But for now we will cherish this
a moment for your soul and mine
To wrap around each other in bliss
by the sea, for a short time.

The stars begin twinkling above us
the ocean waves ride low and high
We watch the moon after dusk
and dance in it's light.

The water at our feet
cold and freezing but we don't care
Because our love is our heat
keeping us warm when we're bare.

At sunrise I return you to your jar
and carry you close to my chest
For next year we will travel this far
To this place in the west.

My one day with you
I cherish it all year long
I wish there was more we could do
to be together like music and lyrics of song.

But this is all we have
so I am thankful for it
Hopeful that our love will last
I don't know about you, but I won't quit.

So next year I can't wait
To be with you again
The time that passes I so very hate
But it will be worth it in the end.

Galactic starlight of gold
Fluorescent and glowing strong
I'll keep it even though
I can't hold it very long.

This odd ball of bright
Is everyone's guiding star
With it you can see the city
And you can see very far.

But it's the only light in the city
Because every other it consumes
Who needs more than this ball of bright?
Only the greedy, it presumes.

It has a mind of it's own
It's goal to protect and control
The people worship it humbly
Their oppression something unknown.

They can't leave the city
To the world outside
The ball of bright though is hungry
For more power, in it's pride.

Cause the star is confined
To these city walls
Though it's powerful
It cannot leave at all.

So within these walls it suffers
As the people suffer as well
Though they're blissfully unaware
Of the stars want to rage Hell.

The starlight ball so bright
Really wants to leave the city behind
In it's yearn for freedom
It has a plan in mind.

It'll expand the walls of the city
By raging wars and fire
Gain more land and thus more freedom
And build it's tower higher and higher.

That is not what it really wants
The freedom is nice and fine
Though it's not really freedom at all
But power hungry in kind.

Because though it has more land
More people and more power
The walls still trap it endlessly
So it resides alone in it's tower.

Immortal life for the star
Along with power and land
But a yearn for freedom
To be held in a hand.

And let it go into the sky
Back to where it belongs
We took it for our own greed and power
Let it be free to go home.

Stars shouldn't be confined
Within city walls to rule everyone
To be worshiped and fed power
When it should just have freedom.

Feed it and it grows strong and mindless
But let it be free and it will be soft and guiding
Feed it and it will be powerful and hungry
But let it be free and it will grant wishes to your liking.

So keep the stars in the sky
They can still guide us through the night
But they're free up there
And it's better for everyone in their plight.

There are so many things I wish I could say
Wish I could describe
In a perfect way
That everyone could understand me.

And I know not everyone thinks the same
As I do, every day
It's a complicated distance that I came
To get to where I am.

I walked a many desert storms
In bare feet with the ground so hot
I could have been lost though I was reborn
From the journey of the dry.

I swam a many oceans stretched
Naked and freezing
I could have drowned but something I fetched
In the water saved my life.

I climbed a many mountains high
Without protection of stable ground
The incline uprising like my sigh
But my luck kept me from falling.

Or maybe it was God's gracious light
Watching over me
Or maybe fate just didn't want to take me that night
I'm not so sure, but I am pleased.

Cause my life has been a journey
Of uphills, downhills
Falls and climbs
But here I am today
Walking along this line--
Through life.

Your eyes were like a sunflower
Comparable in beauty
With colors patterned
In the shape and design

Your eyes were like a sunflower
They drew me in
And swallowed me
Down into your heart where I'll be fine, I'll be fine

And my eyes were like a sunflower
Just like yours
But different in color
Contracting and eating your existence

This moment I cherish
Because your eyes hold so many secrets and
In that second of gaze connected by a line
I could see them all clearly without rose tint

I've taken off my pink hued glasses and
I see the world through clear thin glass
See it for what it is
Through your sunflower eyes

Fingerprints litter the glass
Making it difficult to see through to it's beauty
Tainted by past hands
Even without the rose applied

Will we ever see the world for what it is?
Maybe
If we look through sunflower eyes

Beautifully tangible in my mouth
I taste it like you see a rainbow
Swallowed like sunshine on my skin
Filling like a cotton candy cloud.

I spent all my years, being off key
Finally in tune, I can play my melody

I feel like a fish
Belonging to an ocean
With the understanding of my place
But the knowing of life outside

I yearn to be free

When I use to look in the mirror
I didn't see pretty
In fact I didn't see me
Or anything beautiful at all.

I'd pick myself apart
Piece by piece
Bring myself to tears
Sob and bawl.

It's not that I hated myself
I just didn't see anything I liked
But I've come to learn it's not about me
And what I see.

If I can see what you see
Then it doesn't matter what I think
Because to you I'm beautiful
And that's all I have to be.

You appreciate every part of me
Every curve, every limb
Even when I'm not feeling so pretty
You're dying to get me bare.

And that's a nice thing to be
I can't really argue with that
Cause now I see what you see
Which is completely fair.

So when I look in the mirror
I don't have to think twice
About my beauty
About my soul.

And when I look in the mirror
I see everything you see
Even if I'm still a little shy
I accept me as a whole.

All thanks to you
I see me
I don't have to pick myself apart anymore.

It's like a laugh in the dark
Imposing and oppressive
Even if just a giggle
You're afraid.

And in the dark you're alone
Depressed and distraught
Even if you aren't crying
You're afraid.

Because darkness is the unknown
And no one likes to tread it lightly
Even if you're with someone
You're afraid.

In the dark means no control
And no control means vulnerability
Even if you're not alone
You're afraid.

You're crying on the inside
Because you don't want the darkness to see your tears
Or the person next to you because
You're afraid.

But eventually the heavy weight
Of darkness and loneliness on your shoulders
Will cause you to concave because
You're afraid.

Tell yourself to be not afraid
Because darkness is natural
It's light we create
Be not afraid.

I'll pull you out of this darkness
Because the laughter is my own
And grasping my hand I realize I'm saving myself
Am I afraid?

Even when everyone is lending you a hand
The only one you'll take is your own
Because like a lion you have your pride
You are afraid-- I am afraid.

The darkness is your fear
And it rules and haunts your world
But you've not allowed it to collapse on your shoulders
You're not afraid now, are you?

Because light we create
But when created it shines in the dark
And then you can see your path before you
I'm not afraid.

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid
Of myself
Any longer.

I see your soul like it's on fire
Flickering like your inner desire.
It's beautiful and gold
Something for me to hold.
It lashes out at my own soul
Igniting my fire from burnt-out coal.
And in the coal lies diamond shards
That I gamble with my cards.
We roll the dice together
But the game goes on forever.
Your soul binding to mine
Our bodies entwined.
The fires roaring inside our being
Keeping us from fleeing.
And on and on we go
On and on, to and fro.
To the end together as one
Dancing since the fire begun.
Finicky flames, but burning bright
You and I, what a sight.
Liquid love, cold steel blue
Combining, becoming what is true.

Your beauty is like a diamond
Began as rough
Shined up sparkly
To something that is enough..

For me to see how beautiful you are
Under the calloused surface of your skin
You glow like a moonbeam
Brilliant beneath your sin.

Everyone is a sinner
But to me you're divine
Your spirituality is powerful
Can you see who you really are through my eyes?

Like honey I lick you up
So sticky sweet to my lips
The nectar of your essence
Upon my finger tips.

And you're delicious, so tasty
I love you the way you are
As precious as gold, to me
Rare like a falling star.

I've caught you in my hands
Sticky, brilliant, tasty, bright
I'll pour my water over you
Honey-filled moonbeam, delight.

Howling at the moon
I think is what I was doing
It wasn't too soon
I was losing control.

Cause really I'm an animal
Whether it be a dog or a cat
I'm wild and unpredictable
It's in my true nature.

I usually repress it all
And keep it locked inside
But that night I began to call
To who I really am.

Yipping, yowling
Growling, barking
Purring, howling.

That is true to myself
This wild beast inside
It's something I can't help
And I won't hide it away.

Besides, sounds are so much more appealing
For moments when you lose yourself
Words just aren't as revealing
To what you are feeling.

Yip, yip.

It was a moment we shared
That held more power than I'll ever understand
A moment we shared
So enlightening, so magical.

The water was rushing
Over our naked forms
And we're face to face
In this moment.

I didn't expect anything
That happened
To happen like that
It was something special.

You're voice is so profound
So beautiful, so amazing
I could feel your power
All over me, within me.

Our foreheads pressed together
My breath is heavy but controlled
Because I feel so clean
So refreshed and reborn.

In this moment
Visuals pass behind my eyelids
I could never recreate what I saw
But I'm sure you could feel it.

When you were through
Chanting to my very soul
I don't think I've ever felt so alive
I don't have the words to describe..

I huddled down into the water
Because it, I had become
Prior to this moment
And it cleansed my everything.

When I opened my eyes
I realized, I was crying
Cause what you did
Made me feel a new rapture of emotion.

I could tell you what this did to me
But there's no way to really tell someone lightly
That you don't want anyone else
But them.

And there's no easy way to put
That you feel like your very essence
Is tied to theirs, after this moment
And you won't let them go.

I don't just understand you now
I know you
I don't just watch you
I'm with you.

You don't have to explain yourself to me anymore
And I don't have to try to understand
But really I'm confused
Cause now I know.

I more than know
I am.

I am there with you.

A bird caught from the wild
And trapped in a cage
You have to let her go
Free from the bars.

She doesn't want to be trapped
Inside this lonely cage
Open the door and let her fly home
Up into the stars.

And like a leaf in the wind
She glides to wherever it leads
Her wings open wide
Riding the circulation of air.

The destination she finds
Is the one that she seeks
And landing to her new home
She becomes a pair.

Being a pair she is happy and fulfilled
Her heart beating along side another
The love she has grows
Keeps growing and expanding.

For with her partner she is content
And she flies storms for her lover
He won't cage her in
This kind of love is withstanding.

You validate everything
I have wished to be validated for
Everything so small
And everything so big.

You point out everything
I've wanted to be pointed out
And not only with your words
But you like it, too.

And everything I've ever wanted
You've made it happen
Everything I wish I may, wish I might
You granted.

I wanted to be beautiful
And now I am
I always was
But I see it now, like you do.

I wanted to be unique
And now I am
You've encouraged me to be the difference
That I've always tried to be.

I wanted to be adventurous
A real die hard thrill seeker
I'm not quite there
But I believe I can be anything now.

I wanted to be loved
Madly, out of control but exciting loved
And here you are
Surpassing even that.

I wanted to grow
And I reached to the sky so many times
But I didn't know
I couldn't do it alone.

I wanted to be thought of every day
Or at least thought of affectionately
You think of me all of the time
And I don't doubt your love.

I wanted to be important
To one person, or to all
And just by one look
I know I'm your world.

I wanted to be acknowledged
For all those dumb things you want to be acknowledged for
And you do it so well
And sincerely.

I wanted to be accepted
No matter my faults
And you take it all
With open arms.

I wanted someone to smile
Because of me
Because of something I did
Because of something I said
Because of something I am
Be happy, because of me.

I've only known distaste
Because of me
Because of something I did
Because of something I said
Because of something I am
Being unhappy, because of me.

Because of who I am.

Everything I am
You've grown to love
And I think all my wishes
Have come true.

I don't have to cry those tears anymore
The ones of wanting to change
Because all I wanted
Was to be loved for me.

And now I am.

Love is just a word on the surface
When I plunge so much deeper than that
To the bottom of the ocean.

I took a dive head first
Without looking back
And it almost shocked me beyond shock.

But it was such a wonderful dive
And I'm still going
Cause I don't really think there's a bottom.

When judgment is dropped
And love is knowing
You'll just deepen the sea.

With the ocean around me
I can feel your intense emotions
The ripples breaking against my skin.

I've become a part of your existence
And I understand all of your notions
That I ripple back the patterns you send.

Together in this ocean of rapture
We ripple out our feelings for each other
And accept them without blocking the movement.

You've become part of my existence
The emotions endless for another
In the sea we've deepened beyond depth.

Because depth is measurable
But rapture of love is not
At least my own emotions are not confined to a barrel.

At the bottom of my barrel I've dug further
But now more outside of the barrel is sought
Outside of the confines is so define-less.

So much more than love
So much beyond comprehending
But do we really need to comprehend it?

Just feel it inside
Our egos transcending
And let me love you like an untamed sea.

Don't let them drag you down as they die
It's hard to let them go, but you must
It's the way of life.

They're heavy on your shoulders
An unnecessary burden to bare
Free them as they grow colder.

Don't let them drag you down when they die, it'll only destroy you
Let them fall to the ground
This is what you must do
This is what is true.

Open your eyes
Look at me
Do you see what I see
Between you and I?

I can see the wavelengths
Pulling and pushing
Growing and shrinking
Like ocean waves.

I'm connected to you
Open your eyes to see it
Accept the webs
Tying us together.

Now take a deep breath
See it ripple
As I breathe with you
It rolls.

It's a compromise
Of our desires
Feel the waves, see them
Wash over your skin.

The color is vibrant
Iridescent, fluorescent
Warm, wet, comforting
In rainbow shades.

It's glittered with stars
Like our own galaxy
I love you, you love me
That's all that matters.

The center is our hearts
With our bodies making the waves
The connection is strong
And inevitable.

The difference between you and I
Is forgotten
And we are one
In this galaxy, this web of glowing technicolor.

You eyes are blue
With honey so sweet
Accenting the sad-sad shade
Like a silver lined cloud.

It's funny, strange even
How the color of your eyes
Match the rain
That haunts you.

A complicated and versatile color
That collects in many locations
In everyone's life
Your life, my life.

Tell me what you see
As I breathe with you
Cause I see it
Do you see it too?

Sinking
Sinking into a hole with vines to trap you
Thorns to stab you
To keep your heart from mending.

The darkness is welcomed
As much as you are afraid
But you're use to the fear
It haunts you often.

And looking up you see the sky
It explodes in cosmic colors
Nothing you can be a part of
You can only watch and yearn for it.

Your limbs you cannot move
And you realize you've stopped breathing
Or maybe you never did
You can't grasp the truth.

It all slips through your fingers
Like water through cracks
And everything is cold
And everything is lifeless.

In this hole you're confronted
With everything you need to face
You want to
But you want to hide.

You'll figure it out
Slash the vines
Destroy the thorns
Climb out of the hole.

Eventually
With time
You'll get to the sky
Up, up and away.

Because it's colors are so intimidating
But you want it so bad
It's right there
You can see it!

You cannot touch
You cannot have
But one day you will
You will, you will.

It's above you, you see
One day you'll leave this hole behind
To be with the other clouds in the sky
Cause really you're just a cloud, like all of them.

And you rain on yourself
All the time
And it's a continuous cycle
But all cycles break in the end.

Break your cycle
Be with the sky
And explode yourself
In cosmic colors.

The base of everything is black
And behind my eyelids.
Splashes of exotic colors
Explosions like firecrackers.
I know everything
I am everything
And everything knows me
And everything is me.
Whirring lines of transfiguration
Not tangible images
But the core of each thing
It's essence.
No bodies.
No thoughts.
No ideas.
Just knowing
And being.
Each depth I understand
And beyond that depth, I understand
And going down deeper, I still understand.
And it's endless
Like an abyss
Except less black
And more yes, yes, yes.
Sounds are accents to colors
But not necessary
For everything is connected
So everything knows
And to what are words?
Nothing but nothing
There are no words here...
When everything knows
And is, everything.
Lights, lots of lights
Coinciding with color
And creating sound
With it's slap of bright
And splatter of life.
There are more colors than I remember
When my body was mine.
There are sounds I think exist
But I could never hear them before.
Rumbling, rolling.
There are lights so bright I can see souls
Even though I all ready knew they were there.
Free-falling
And floating at the same time
While being rooted
To everything.
There's a buzzing over the flesh of the universe
Ripple-like effects of wavey buzzes
Touching each thing.
And I feel it all in my center
And it's on fire
But so wet.
And it spreads out in a beat like a heart; all over me
Because I am everything.
No shapes and sizes
No differentiating from each thing
The lines are blurred
The edges blending together
Everything is one
But still each thing individually connected.
I understand
And I take this understanding back with me
When I melt back into my fingers and toes
And join the worldy world
With a universe of understanding.

We're always halfway there
No matter where we are
And being halfway there
We don't have to go far.

It started on a hike
So familiar
Then to a shrine
Nothing in particular.

A small discussion
To later be pronounced
Sharing of stories
Figuring things out.

Just to that hill
There lies a bench
Tiny flower on the way
So many colors, all for you.

An urge to feel the Earth
On my skin
But I oppress it
And instead move on.

We don't walk far
But it's been an hour or so
We discover a rock
Where my brain would explode.

Take me on this rock
I want you to
You want to
We're halfway to the cave, why not?

It hits me like a semi truck
I can't see even though I see
So I close my eyes
No, no, the initial shock.

It brings on tears I've been meaning to cry
For so long
You tell me it's all right
And I try to breath, with you.

Undeniably a profound experience
I cannot explain
But it happened
Halfway to the cave, with you.

I wouldn't have gotten out alive
If you hadn't been there
But I wouldn't have been there
If you didn't bring on awkward moments.

Mind-blowing all in all
What I expected it to be
Though it never was
Never had been before.

I was so scared
But you were there
And I hated you briefly
Only briefly, and it was false.

You pried me from the rock
The only existence I understood
Since mind didn't make sense
And yours terrified me.

A long journey ahead
But I'm not afraid anymore
I think I can relax a little bit
You make it easy to be something I've never been but wanted to be so bad.

You said I'm brave
Or was
But who wouldn't be
When they have you as their guide.

But I don't trust easily
Especially guidance through
What I fear the most
Even if it's by you.

But now in darkness
I'm not afraid
A profound experience
One you made.

I would have had you on the bridge
Halfway to the cave
But I'm so unlucky
Good thing I waited.

Riddle me this
Riddle me that
Have you met your match?
She's halfway to the cave
Halfway to you
And where you are
And halfway home
And halfway to halfway
But lost
But everything is halfway to the cave
So you know where you are
And it's not far
Cause you're halfway
Halfway to the cave
And where you need to be.

But I'm glad I got lost
Halfway to the cave with you
Cause we kept going forward
And lead me through.

I grew so much
In just a day
A moment I'll savior
So life-changing, I must say.

So many realizations
From ripples of water
To plants that eat
And watch and grow

I lost myself
Halfway to the cave
But you found me
You always do.

Just let it out
I want you to
It hurts when you don't
At least it hurts to some people, most people.

Release the tension
From your muscles
Allow desired escapism
To capture your mind.

I'll rub out all the kinks
I promise
I'll help ease the circulation
Of your blood flow.

Breathe deeply
In time with my breaths
Do you feel the energy
Between us?

I can feel it
It bounces from me to you
In a complicated connection
Of webs like a spiders.

Between you and I
I know where I stand
A confidence built
Progression over time.

Do you see it through my eyes?
A shadow cast
Over the light I've spread
An intimidating stretch of black.

Do you feel it like I do?
Bubbling up, boiling over
Glowing like moonlight
Warm like the sun.

The rain that haunts you
It haunts me to
Without prediction it falls
And destroys every endeavor.

Back to the first page
Sometimes you have to read it more than once
A few times
To really understand.

And some don't ever stop reading the same page
The same book
Over and over
Over and over.

But there's always an umbrella
There's my umbrella
And there's always other books
To read.

So let it out
Release the tension
Breathe in time with me
Can you feel it?
I can.

I'd breathe for you
If you needed me to
And I'd let it out slowly
To give you a sense of inner peace.

I'd see for you
If you needed me to
And I'd describe my sights
To allow you to see what I see.

I'd speak for you
If you needed me to
Though it isn't my brightest idea
I'd hold my own, so you could be free.

I'd think for you
If you needed me to
I wouldn't recommend it
But I'd do it if need be.

I'd feel for you
If you needed me to
Touch everything to be touched
So that you could feel it too.

I'd walk for you
If you needed me to
And I'd go to the end of the world
To get you to where you need to be.

I'd smile for you
If you needed me to
Even if I was down
I'd abolish my frown, to be happy for you.

I'd cry for you
If you needed me to
And I'd let out all of my sorrows
On behalf of the pain you feel.

I'd fight for you
If you needed me to
Even at my worst
I'd challenge anyone, anything.

I'd stop for you
If you needed me to
Even when I think I can't quit
I'd drop everything.

I'd laugh for you
If you needed me to
And I do every day
Because you make it so easy.

I'd climb for you
If you needed me to
Even if I hated the idea
I'd go right to the top, without complaint, because I know how you are.

I'd give up everything
If you needed me to
Even when I try to say I would never
I would, for the love in my heart.

And most importantly: I'd die for you
As scary as that sounds
The intensity I feel for you
Is like below freezing water, or the center of the sun.

Don't be afraid
Of my feelings
As crazy as they sound
I can still be practical
I can still be logical
I can still watch out for myself, watch out for you.

I don't mean to be so dramatic
Or theatrical
But I feel this way
I really feel this way.

Before I even started writing
I knew I wouldn't want to share it with you
Because it's about you
Or really, directed at you.

I probably won't share it with you for a while
I  don't want you to feel any pressure
From my emotions
From my needs.

I'm a little upset
Well maybe 'upset' isn't  the word
But I'm bothered
And I keep thinking about it, and have been all day.

You wouldn't tell me if something was wrong?
Really?
Why?
I don't understand.

But I guess I slightly understand
Trust has to be earned..
You make it seem so easy
To not tell me things.

Like it doesn't bother you at all.
You answered quick to my question
As if you had been hiding all ready
Because you knew the answer, before thinking about it.

I guess I'm just wondering
When you're going to open up
But I'll give you space, I'll give you time
Because that's who I am.

And I'm sure I should just stop expecting
You to tell me things
When I suppose it's something normal for you
To hide away, behind your walls.

I get it
You probably think I don't, but I do
I know what it's like to hide
I do it all the time.

I know what it's like not to trust
Or trust the one you love
With your secrets
With your pains and your scars.

But I'm all right with that
It's not gonna stop me from loving you
It's not gonna stop me from telling you how I feel
Or telling you my secrets.

Cause maybe you have to figure me out
Before you can trust me with all those things you don't tell me, or anyone
Maybe that isn't the case
But I can tell myself that, and it'll make it understandable.

I know I can say all these things
But you won't open up
You'll have to do it on your own time
And I get that, I do.

I guess I just wish you could talk to me
And maybe that's a bit of a jump
Because you do talk to me
But I guess I just wish you'd tell me those things you don't tell anyone else.
That you'd tell me your deepest secrets
And let me past the surface.

Everyone can wish, but most don't receive.

Just let me cry for a little while
Let me be something of glum
Sometimes I feel this pain
And I just have to let it out.

Most don't understand it
But I don't expect them to
Even though I want them to
But all that matters is you.

And even though I feel so down
I let you come around
And letting you come around
Allows me to get back up.

But spending time in this hole
That I've dug all on my own
Guides me to deciding
What it is that I'm about.

Cause I have all these things
That I wanna be, I wanna do
That I think I am
But really all that's there is blue.

And the blue is like the sky
But the blue is also like the ocean
As well as like the sadness
And like the tears that I cry.

So many shades of blue
So many, so many!
But it's time for a new hue
Just a change of color would be nice.

It's gonna take everything I have
And everything I am
And everything that I could be
To get there.

But when I'm there
It's gonna be good
It'll be fantastic
And no one will be able to stop me then.

So I've just gotta get there
And get out of this hole
But like I said:
I've gotta be in this hole to figure it all out.

But I'll figure it all out
You'll see.