My mom didn't warn me about guys like you
In fact I don't think she knew
That any of you existed
Anymore.

But I don't think she has anything to be afraid of
No I don't think she would have warned me
I think she would have encouraged me
All along the way.

But here we are
We're holding each other close
And I'm whispering to you
That I love you.

When you whisper it back
I feel this something in my heart
Flesh out and resonate
Towards you.

I just wanna trap you
That sounds a little weird, I know
But I wanna trap you
In my arms forever.

Or maybe I'll just take you by the hand
And go out on the dance floor
Cause you know I can't do it without you
And if I hadn't  said yes, you would have dragged me.

I would have kicked and screamed
The whole way
But would that really get us anywhere?
Would that really make it any easier?

But I told you I wasn't easy
Like when I told you I wouldn't let you have me
The first night
That one night
The night I kissed you
For the first time.

And I'm sure you've noticed
That nothing is easy with me
I'm quite the cookie to crack
Cause instead of cracking I might crumble.

Into a million little pieces
Then what would you do?

I don't know what I'd do
Cause in the pieces I'd lose my brain
My mind would up and run away
And my body would be lifeless.

But it's okay
Everyone makes mistakes sometimes
And if I crumble instead of cracking
You better put me back together
Because I spent all these ******* years
Actually I believe it was my whole life
--Being broken
And I'm not about to give up all those years (my whole **** life)
Willingly, or easily.

And like I said
I'm not easy
And I never will be
But I guess that makes things interesting.
Doesn't it?

What it really comes down to
Is that I have no guts
I lack the appropriate courage
From being crushed.

I fear the chance of failure
And it really holds me back
It's a pretty bad habit
One I can't seem to knack.

Maybe I don't really want to
It's actually really hard
I'm always afraid of the jump
Or asking for another card.

Taking the leap of faith
Isn't something I've ever done
And whenever I do something new
I grit my teeth, and want to run.

I don't know what my problem is
Or if it's a problem at all
But It's something I need to conquer
A climb over another wall.

A little piece of me
That I'm trying to decipher
It's something I've been working on
Something that doesn't bring me higher.

It brings me lower
I've figured this out
So now I've got to get passed it
And overcome the doubt.

And maybe one day
Some time soon
I'll have the courage
To try something new.

Try all the things
I've always wanted to do
Dance like no one is watching
And sing like I ought to.

But that time won't come easily
And it won't come very fast
Hopefully I can defeat this
And put it in my past.

Behind me. I want this behind me.

"We fit together so nicely,"
You said
And I completely agree
Something so right, so meant to be.

It starts with a sweat
And a intense wash of cold
In reaction to the heat
On the inside of me.

A shiver-- or two
Quaking my form
And there you are
Between my thighs.

I'm holding my breath
Or I'm breathing heavy
And I'm biting my lip
Cause it feels so nice.

We fit together like puzzle pieces
Rocking and stretching our limbs
Colliding in a moment
Of a rising ******.

Then it comes quick
Only a split second to think
To realize what is really happening
Just long enough to react.

Starting with a flicker
Of a fiery sensation
Between my legs
And it spreads, like a wildfire

It pops
Explodes
And I feel it everywhere
A release.

My muscles ****
And it's like I'm trying to escape from my own skin
My jaw clenches
Then goes slack.

My eyes roll
My mind a kaleidoscope of thoughts
There's no sense of control
Just waves of reactions upon reactions.

A thousand different tickles
Down my thighs and to my toes
Like the sensation of warm water
When you're bitterly cold.

After the initial shake of the explosion
My mind is useless
And I have to put myself back in my body
Because for a moment I was free.

The tension is gone
Every part of me is loose
And everything is sensitive and temperamental
Like a candles flame.

For a moment there's nothing
Nothing but my body
No mind
No thoughts
No silly people things

Just the raw
The primal
The true being I am
And I see you..

You're between my thighs
Starstruck by the moment
Marveling at my body
As it rolls into yours.

I'm ****** back into the act
Like a magnet to it's kind
And you're so ******* beautiful
And you're all mine
And here, right now
We're one.

My body is powerless to you
And yours is powerless to me
We don't speak
We simply feel
And that's a closeness most don't achieve.

A bond
Like no other
Body
And mind.

"We fit together so nicely,"
You said
And I completely agree
Something so right, so meant to be.

I think about you all the time
All through out the day
Anytime I'm not with you
And even when we're together.

You're always on my mind
It doesn't matter what I'm thinking about
You're always there
In the background of my thoughts.

I can't get you out of my head
I just keep thinking about you
Anything that has to do with you
And everything you are.

Do you grasp,
How attached to you I am?
How important you are to me?
Or how I've made this special place in my heart, for you?

I wanna be with you
All the time
I wanna touch you
All the time.

You don't need to be protected
I know
But I'll be here
Shielding you from harm.

Even as you may get hurt
Or broken
I'll bandage you up, carefully
And love you  still.

Wrap my arms around you
And let you feel my heart
It beats for you
Only you.

And this might be startling
I'm kind of put off myself
But I love you, so much
That it's a part of everything I am.
And everything I will be.
Like a web: it's all connected.

So take me as I am
Just take me!
I don't want anyone else to have me
But you.

I'm hard to understand, I know
It's never been easy for anyone
I'm hard to talk to, I know
Sometimes I can't even talk to myself.

The moment I think I've got myself figured out
You dig up something else
Something I didn't know about
Something hard to grasp.

But it's good, it's great
I'm learning new things
New character traits
About me.

And I'm a metamorphosis
Before your eyes
But it's  a constant rolling wave
So you understand.

At least I hope you understand
And I'm really trying to make it easy
As easy as I can make it
Which really isn't easy at all.

But I'm sure you'll figure it out
In due time
Cause I'm really not that complicated
You just have to learn my rhyme.

Cause you can know all the words in my box
But not know the order
And if you don't know the order
How can you really figure me out?

And you can know all the words in my box
But not be able to spell a single one
And if you can't spell them
How can you really spell me out?

But this is so new, so fresh
I'm not really all that worried
In fact I won't be surprised
If you never get the words straight.
If you never get the spelling correct.

And it might be exciting
Keep things alive
And probably a little frustrating
Over time.

But it'll be okay if you never figure me out
You won't get bored, I promise
I'm the only one that's got me even a little figured out
And still I mostly don't make sense.

But it's not about making sense, is it?
It's more like just a feeling
Who really needs words in this universe,
When we have our bodies to speak with?

Cause even when I know you're confused
Or even when I've confused myself
I hold you close
Take a deep, deep, breath
And let my body do all the talking.

If you ever figure me out
You'll have to tell me your secret
Cause I'm still confused
About myself.

This is my personal card
Of course from me to you
This was kind of hard
Since there's so many words to use.

Though nothing can express
What a mother you have been
Yes, sometimes things can be a mess
But quickly we get over our sin.

I love you more than anything
And nothing will ever change that
For you and I, we have this string
The holds us back to back.

Both sides want the same thing
But in different ways
Who knows what this love will bring
We will have the watch the days...

Both sides so opposite
And yet so the same
But grab you mitt
Let's play this game.

This game of love and trust
This game of daughter and mother
This game is such a must
This game is against one another.

But why can't we be a team?
Get along, like we should
Why can 't things be peachy keen?
I bet if we tried, we could...

But things can be so much fun this way
You sure have taught me a lot
For tomorrow's just another day
Time cannot be bought.

So we better spend it right
Go out and have some fun
Let's try not to fight
So put down you're pointless gun.

Yes.. Challenges may come our way
Our love will beat them down flat
So be prepared for my play
Because I'm up to bat.

So this poem of our opposite teams
Is so completely true
And yet we support each others dreams
We just don't tell each other we do.

This might be a bit confusing
But this entire thing is right
I bet it's a bit amusing
When we think back to our fights.

I love you, I really do
So please except this gift
Yes, from me to you
Don't show anyone this poem, even if you can't resist.

I don't have to be anything for anyone
I don't have to prove myself to you
I shouldn't have to prove myself to you
So I won't.

There's an elephant in the room
When we're together
It's awkward and a little sad
But this is how it's become.

The space between us is so large
That it's like a vast desert
And I don't understand you anymore
And you don't understand me.

What pulled us apart
I'm sure is the difference
Between your shallow mind
And the depth of mine.

Drifting apart may be for the best
Though I will never tell you this
I'll just let the tides of change
Take me away to a different ocean.

But I never stop loving someone
That I've all ready loved
And you will always be in my heart
As a friend, as a shoulder to lean on, despite the distance.

And I've noticed the elephant in the room
Is so sad, so down, so angry
And you brought this elephant
But I don't mean to accuse.

I'll let the elephant stay
It's probably better this way
But I will always love you.

Life is puzzling
There's so many pieces
So little time
But you'll figure it out
And I'm sure, I truly believe, you will be fine.

Life is beautiful
There's so many colors
So little gray
You can paint the best picture
And I will place confidence in everything you say.

Life is complicated
There's so many lines
So little negative space
You can draw the best diagram
And I will admire what you create.

Life is exhilarating
There's so many ups and downs
So little plateaus
You can ride thehighest roller coaster
And I will never tell you any no's.

Life is so hot and yet so cold
There's so many different degrees
So little moments of numb
You can bathe in every temperature
And I will never let you go glum.

Life is so happy and yet so sad
There's so many different emotions
So little moments of bland
You can cry and laugh all at once
And I will never let go of your hand.

Life is so everything
There's so many things
So little moments of none
You can have and have not
And I will never let you run.

I'll be the push to your shove
The pull to your tug
The hate to your love
The love to your hate
The comfort to your hug
The partner in your fate.

We'll do this together.
Side by side.
Forever and ever.
Through every endeavor.

I'm amazed, surprised even
He's so good to me
I don't even have any reason
To be anything but me.

In fact I feel more myself
He's such a good guy
I almost don't deserve him
But I won't say goodbye.

Everything he is, is perfect
Everything he does is, as well
I hope I'm good enough
I can't seem to tell.

He treats me better
Than anyone ever has before
Respect, with real love
I couldn't expect anything more.

I don't think he realizes
How loved I feel
When you go from being treated like trash
This is something so much more real.

I just hope I can match up
To the amazing way he showers me with love
I'll try my best, I'll bend over backwards
He must be a gift from above.

I truly believe this was meant to be
As corny as that sounds
Cliche-ly, I say, fate brought us together
Our loves knows no bounds.

At least not mine.

Tick-tock of the clock
Time is running out
It feels like everything is moving quickly
I don't know what this is about.

I've lost control
Though really I never had it
Just an illusion I created
Another bad habit.

I fear getting older
I feel I'm not young enough
I want to grow up, I want to get out
Break free, a diamond in the rough.

Shine me up, sparkly
Rub down all my edges; smooth so smooth
Round off all my corners
Encourage me to move, move, move.

Push me! Shove me!
Get me going
Touch me the right way
Get the juices flowing.

Excite me, entice me!
Then burn me out
Let the wax run hot
Down, down, all about.

Change.
I hate it. I hate it.
I love it. I love it.
A love-hate relationship.

The lack of control
When change happens
Is terrifying
And nerve-wracking

But I accept everything as is
I've learned to let things go
Even though I burn hot, so hot
I let my wax flow.

Free, so free
I'd love to be
Trapped, very trapped
But now I see.

There's a *** of gold at the end of every rainbow
Though it's never found
It's a hope to grasp onto
A reason to keep your head above the water so as to not drown.

And eventually, metaphorically
I will find that *** of gold
My wax will run to the end of the wick
And everything I have will be old.

And with the old I will know
More than I've ever known
But until that I day, I must say
I have a lot, so far, that's grown.

So let the wax burn
Let the change exist
I will allow the loss of control
And the passing of time will persist.

Acceptance.
It's so hard, but so nice.

When I met you I didn't think it would be this way
In fact I had my eyes on someone else
But really that was just a step in your direction
And more help to find myself.

And when I found myself
In one all-night-long conversation of digging deep in my soul
I realized that was just a stepping stone
To where I am now, just another paid toll.

Your image had been so foggy in my mind
I knew not of who you were
And not of who you could be
Or even of the power
You had over me.

It was a gradual pull
Tugging me towards you
A look through a crowd
A brief touch while walking across a room.

As I recall now
I vaguely knew of the connection
How gravity would pull us together
Without me paying any attention.

I let you keep me
You asked so sweetly
My head told me no
But my heart disagreed.

I answered with a kiss
The one you had been craving
I let you have no more
I had secrets I was saving.

And look at where we are now
Many adventures have been had
And many more to come
There hasn't been an inch of anything bad.

I'm madly in love
Completely clumsy over you
Totally twitter-painted
With everything you are and everything you do.

A night without you is insanity
As much as it is good for me
The space is as nice as it is lonely
But that's a healthy thing to be.

I could just lay in bed with you all day
Lounging arrogantly in the ****
I enjoy it the most
But going out is good too.

And I suppose I'd probably get sick
Of lounging all the time
The rarity is so fun
And probably why it feels so nice.

I could get lost in your eyes
And stare at you forever
I swear love is like a drug...
Can we stay addicted together?

Forever.

Take my hand in yours
I'll tell you all that's in my heart
Open all my doors
And this is only the start.

Let's take on the world
I'll be your mastermind
I can't do it without you
And we've got plenty of time.

Our love can conquer anything
That's not something that I just feel
But something I know
Something that is stable and real.

I love you, I love you, I love you!
I wish I had a better phrase
I'll scream it at the top of my lungs
'Til I'm blue in the face.

But that will never entirely describe
Exactly how I feel
That's why I write all these rhymes
To express in full detail.

Don't ever let me go
Don't ever let me go
I had to say it twice
To get my point across
Once just wouldn't suffice.

I hope you know what you're getting yourself into
I know I say this a lot
And if I had the appropriate words
I'd tell you exactly what you've caught.

Me.

This is all me right here
And if you don't approve
You can **** it
Cause this is what you got yourself into.

So here I am
All my heart put into words
And as the time goes by
My emotions continue to stir.

And create something tangible
Of stability and strength
Like a rope it braids
Into a hearty and on-going length.

So let's rule the world together
Just take it over
Grand supreme exalted dictator
And your mastermind lover.

This is the happiest I've ever been
No doubt in my mind
I can't control my smiles
If only I could stop the time

Right in this moment with you
Your lips to mine
The world it stops turning
Everything is so, so.. so **** fine

And all this bubbling in my stomach
My hearts up in my throat
Not in the bad way
But the kind of way that you know:

You're in love
Everything is seen in a new light
With brighter colors
And a fresh-headed sight

I pull the good from the bad
Unlike times before
Because the happiness I had lacked
Is now prominently present, ever more.

I see that when things are down
It's only the dark side of the moon
The other half of the circle
The pain, then the pleasure comes soon.

You can't have one without the other
But with the one you see the light
In every dark corner
You see it all as right.

Love, love, love, love
So much of it right here in my heart
It covers all my pain with floral print
Showing the light in the dark.

Defeating all my battles
Climbing every rock
Though I'm getting higher
I fear the tick of the clock.

But I feel like time stops with you
Even as every day passes by
And every moment we have, or to be had
Will be amazing and divine.

It's hard to put into words how I feel
But I'm sure everyone feels something the same
Though some hurt more than others
We're sharing the same pain.

None of us walk alone
We're in this together
We'll keep his memory alive
Keep it going, forever.

Though I'd like to say I can relate
I can never really imagine how he felt
But I know he's in a better place
This is just how the cards have been dealt.

Stay strong, my friends
I love you guys beyond the sky
And I'm here for all of you
I won't let you simply pass by.

Now remember Dean with a smile
Remember him with a laugh
Remember all the good times
Even though we can't have him back.

We'll see him in the afterlife
I know this is true
Rest in Paradise, Dean,  my friend
We all love you.

Everything is out of control
I feel like I've lost my mind
I have to sort through all the pieces
And gain control of the time.

My brain practically exploded
I might be past the point of no return
Or maybe I'm just being dramatic
I can't be too sure.

So many emotions
So many words as well
I can't speak any of them
Everything is so hard, I'm sure you can tell.

I'll just put the pieces back together
Thought I'm missing a few
Pull myself up off the floor
This is just another dark tunnel to walk through.

On my feet.  I'll keep going.

I told him my secret
Of the love that I've kept
Deep in my heart, from him.

I divulged all the details
Pouring out my soul of emotions
And serving my heart on a silver platter, to him.

At first the initial shock
Of telling all my desires
Showed on my face, but it was acceptable, to him.

He completely agreed
And understood my words
My poetic confession appealing, to him.

He loves me, he say's
And I love him
Which is exciting to me, and to him.

Now that the secret is out
The passion is unleashed
Which is entirely okay with me, and with him.

Where we stand is spiraling
Into a depth thought unreachable
And the idea is less terrifying, and more exhilarating to me, and maybe to him.

I've accessed intense emotions
That I thought were only for the insane
But maybe I'm crazy, to him.

I've opened my heart
Everything I am, spilling out
And it seems it is more than just a little something, to him.

I expect this to work out
Maybe for the long haul, I don't really know
That would be nice to me.. and maybe a little crazy, to him.

A little crazy never hurt anybody
At least it never hurts me
And clearly, that's okay with him.

Everything.
Everything's okay.

This world is not mine
I emerged from a magic mirror
And coming here to find
That my vision is clearer.

This is where I come to escape
Flower fields and tall trees
Butterflies surround a lake
It's beauty a sense of release.

This world is not mine to keep
But I can visit it any time
This is all what I dream when I sleep
Somewhere to hold my sanity in line.

When I rise
I feel renewed
And forgetting all my stressful ties
I feel like I can get through...

Life.
And visit the magic mirror again tonight.

It's nice to wake up next to you
A comfortable feeling
That I could get used to.

Rising whenever we please
Taking our time to get out of bed
A ***** feeling, it puts me at ease.

Just as I am waking
I know you're next to me
And a smile is immediately forming.

I really could get used to this
Sleeping next to you
And receiving a good morning kiss.

I want it to last
But you cant stay in bed forever
I am hoping tonight comes fast.

So I can get close to you again
Hold you in my arms
And maybe the night wont end.

This is where I belong
Painting a picture of you and me
In fluorescent technicolor.

Reality is upside down
But that's the way it's supposed to be
When you feel like this for each other.

The water's deep and overwhelming
The excitement of something new
Filling me to the brim.

I will swim through the water
It's eternal depth so rainbow, yet blue
And all I can see is now is you.

Is this a dream?
I'd rather not wake up if it is
I could just sleep like this forever.

I guess this is what you get
When you wait around for the right kiss
Isn't love so slippery and clever?

I've captured it in my hands
Finally letting it take over my heart
And I'll allow it to continue to grow.

I won't let it escape
This is such a wonderful part
Of the story that is my life flow.

Could it be happening like this?
So fast, so new, so fresh
I'm practically weak in the knees
Especially when I'm in his arms.

The world is so much more now
Than it was before
Everything is so colorful
Rather than black and white.

I could -die- for him
I know that's crazy to hear
We haven't been together for long..
But that's how I feel.

I have this gut feeling
That we're really gonna go far
It's almost terrifying
But I welcome it.

I always imagined it being like this
This love thing
I never really had it
Thought I did, but I was wrong.

This is how it really is to be in love
Powerful, passionate, exhilarating
And rather than -pretending- that I feel those things
They really are there, exploding on the inside of my heart.

I tried to find this kind of love before
But you can never really go out looking for it
And when you finally stop searching everywhere
It falls right into your lap, like it had never been hidden.

I literally swoon
He makes me swoon
I didn't ever think swooning was real
Just an over dramatization of a small feeling you only see in movies.

His eyes on me make me melt
His kisses lead me into a spinning excitement
Where the world outside of that moment, outside our universe,
Ceases to exist all together.

The best part is knowing that fairy-tale love exists
As long as you find the right person
Wait! Don't rush! Don't settle!
It'll come to you. It will.

As I conclude
This poetic letter of my confession, straight from my heart
Let love evade you!
If you keep chasing it-- it will never come

Love.
I couldn't think of a better word.

The sky captures my heart
Stabilizing it's sporadic beat
When things start spinning out of control
Looking up will keep me on my feet

It's always the same
At least for my lifetime
And when everything is changing
The sky is a reason to the  chaotic rhyme

The mass is stretched
The stars a scatter
The moon glows bright
It all quiets my inner chatter

There's something calming
About it's existence
Always there
Without resistance

It adds a color to the world
Whether day or night
The stars showing you're not alone
Or the sun shining bright

Clouds showing how it breathes
Rain expressing it's pain
Thunder the sound of it's cries
Lightning striking angry, announcing it's name

The sky is above us
And will always be around
As long as we live
It will keep us earth bound

And with it we will know
That it will always be
Consistent and stable
When everything else is changing freely.

I think I'm beginning to fall pretty hard
In that tumbling down a hill sort of way
He's a great guy, perfect really
Always brightening my day.

Actually it's more like my life
That he makes better all the time
I'm constantly happy and upbeat
No matter the way or rhyme.

This is his doing
The way he just comes up in here
Shakes up my world
All upside down, but totally clear.

I mean it's clear to me
Where this is going
I'm not sure if he knows
But love is going to be overflowing.

Soon, very soon.
Like a flower
It will blossom
It will bloom.

I'll take this all to the depth of my heart
My emotions flourishing
Growing and expanding
Nourishing..
My soul.

It's gonna happen
I can try to hide from it
I can try to run from it
But it will get me and and it--
Will just be.

Staring into the fire I see
Your face and wish you were here with me

But even deep within my secret desire
I know we will never be

Unfortunately

I had to let you go
Because  you didn't love me anymore

But even still I want you to know
That I love  you down to my very core

Unfortunately

I don't want these feelings anymore
I can't get you out of my head!

Yes my broken heart is healing
But I won't forget the tears I shed

Everything is black and blue
Everything is dark and cold
Without you, who am I to hold?

Unfortunately nothing is fortunate anymore
Unfortunately you're gone
Unfortunately I'm still here
Unfortunately we lost our bond..
But fortunately everything is now clear.

Red makes the color of love,
White is the wings of a dove.

Orange is the color of Halloween,
When Black joins in they make quite a team.

Green covers the peel of a lime,
And Silver is what coats the shell of a dime.

Gold is why there's a shine in a ring,
And the Yellow of the sun is what makes birds sing.

Purple fills the midnight sky,
And Blue is the color of tears when you cry.

Pink is quite a girlie shade,
And Teal is the color of ocean waves.

These are some colors of the rainbow,
This is only a few, how many do you know?

Let me tell you a story of a girl
Whose life  was like no other
In the beginning
Everything was a struggle.

When times got tough
She would lay lifelessly
In the dark.

The tears she would cry
Would keep a steady flow
Until her emotional outbursts ran dry.

When these times came
She felt in her heart that
There was no cure.

But when they would pass
A new feeling
Would overwhelm her.

Then she would smile
And go on with her life.

This story I'm telling you
Is the story I live.

This is the story of my life
It's not like any other
Even with a new beginning
Every day is still a struggle.

But now when times get tough
I know it's just a routine
The pain still hurts..
But instead of looking at it like a sunset
I smile and it's instead a sunrise.

And every day is a new day
One that will easily pass by.

So this story I tell you
Is to show all of you
That even when it's tough
And even when it's rough
You can get through it.

Just remember this:
This could be the story of your life
It may not be like any other
Even with a fresh head
And a new beginning
Every day might still be a struggle.

But then when times get tough
It's just the other half of the circle
The pain may still hurt
But there's always that new sunrise.

Keep. On. Pushing!
It hurts, I know. But you'll make it.
The tears you cry, will eventually run dry.
And you'll smile, as I did.
Then the sun will rise high.

And even with every day a new struggle,
It's all part of the sunset and sunrise.

I remember when I was young
My life was like a ride on a swing
And my heart it always sung
With the joy the ups would bring.

But when the swing would ride down
My heart would no longer soar
It was almost unsettling
The depression overtaking my core.

The swing would go up
The swing would go down
Fill up my cup
And then pour it out.

Unnerving
Exhilarating
Painful
Complicating.

Up and down
Happy and sad
Continuous motion
From good to bad.

But little did I know
A swing ride isn't forever
You can easily jump off
And release your tether..

To the ups and downs.

There's nothing more
I'd like to say
Then how much I love you
On Valentine's Day.

We have been
Through thick and thin
From start to end
From here to there again.

I wish I could give you
Anything you desire
The world and it's treasures
And the Lord's holy fire.

My heart belongs to you
It may be here in my chest
But it beats for you eternally
And it only wants the best.

God has chosen my knight
And with great joy
I accept him wholeheartedly
Man or boy.

Grandfather's are full of stories
Fairy tales and rhymes
Jokes from books and lots of laughs
To keep your strong in your stride.

They collect the coolest things
From stamps to golf *****
Keeping things entertaining
When you're bored or bouncing off the walls.

They never tell a lie
But sometimes stretch the truth long
But how could they be Grandpa
Without singing you a wild song?

There's something in their smile
That keeps you happy all around
With a twinkle in their eye
Their love knows no bounds.

They have the knowledge of the world
And some simple daily facts
They keep your imagination running wild
And always keep your secret pacts.

Don't underestimate Grandpa's
Cause they might lead you for a surprise
They're strong, they're fast, they're super smart
No one should mess with these guys.

So remember to love your Grandpa
And stop to hear a story or two
Cause even when you think they won't
They'll always look out for you!

There's something special about Grandmothers
That nobody knows
A sweet little kept secret
Like kisses to your nose.

Her heart is made of gold
And filled with honey to the brim
Her eyes were specially picked
From fallen stars that never go dim.

Her spirit comes from rain
That fell from the sky
Caught in God's bucket
And poured to make her alive.

Her legs were made for dancing
And propping when she gets old
They were made from strong tree trunks
Chopped by God's axe made of gold.

Her hands were made from leather
Polished with God's tears
And become soft and papery
After so many years.

Her hair is like the finest silk
Whether it curly or straight
Pulled from God's head himself
And sewn into her scalp on her birthday.

Grandmother's are beautiful
Fashioned after the Lord
Loving, kind, and strong
Trustworthy, intelligent, and adored.

They always know right from wrong
And mend things when they break
Their words like band-aids
Healing up your emotional scrapes.

There's something special about Grandmother's
That nobody knows
A sweet little kept secret
Like kisses to your nose.

The taste of blood on your tongue
Your eyes gazing into twilight
Chills dance across your flesh
Your thoughts and heart racing wild

Sinking your feet into the sand
You stretch your arms to embrace the dark
Closing your eyes you imagine:
A whole new world

Skin scarred and wounded
Heart, broken and torn
Memories ruined
With so much to mourn
Eyes bloodshot from lack of sleep
Crimson ribbons trailing from fresh slashes

Not a suicide attempt, no
But a way to release it all
Laying there on silk sheets
Lifeless to any call

You don't see the light yet
But you wish you could
You don't see the one yet
Your then eyes open to the world..

Tasteless
Black and white
Silence
With no light
Naked
Icy flesh
Speechless
Alone in this mess

Again..

A world surrounded in barbed wire
And thorns
No color
No life

I'm not even really sure what to say
Or how I should explain
Today is Father's day
And I've always had this pain.

It's right here in my heart
And I'll never let it go
Even though we've been apart
I can still feel it so.

It's not the easiest thing
To know you're gone today
I'm still hurting
And this is what I've wanted to say:

I know you left when I was little
But that's not what this is about
You didn't want us to be caught in the middle
And I've never had my doubt.

You had a reason to leave
And I accept this now
Though it was always hard to believe
That you could just walk out.

But that's what being a dad is like
You make big decisions on behalf of your offspring
And that was the right choice to better our life
And alleviate some -could be- lifetime suffering.

Though I still had lots of tears
I trust your decision was right
And after all these years
I now see with God's sight:

This was meant to ensue
You were meant to pass away
We were meant to live without you
And life goes on anyway.

I love you more than you know
And that will never change
Though I didn't want you to go
I have to except this new pain.

It helps me realize a lot of things
A lot of truths and rights
I know that God sometimes brings
Obstacles that we have to fight.

So now you know my thoughts
I wrote this for you
And I completely love you lots
And I know you love me too.

Besides all the mistakes
And the big choices you made
I won't slam the brakes
On my own life today.

I'll keep strong
And celebrate this holiday
Smile even when I feel wrong
Cause today is Father's day.

No reason to frown
You were a good man, and still are in my heart
I won't let this day bring me down
Because that's what you've wanted from the start.

You've just wanted us to be happy and safe
That was your plan from the get-go
And with all the dilemmas in the first place
Your choice made us happier even so.

I love you even though I don't feasibly know you
And love you now that you're gone
So I guess you knew that this decision was right to do
Because what happened is what you wanted all along.

Isn't it strange how some people are?
Hiding away, until it's dark
Then they shine like a star
--But is it too late?

It's never too late
I really believe
That misery can be pulled
Away by a leash.

It's only another dog
To eat your words
Without understanding..

Pearls to swine
You'll regret it later
Why waste your pearls on a thing like that?

I cast my pearls
And as a star I shine
Surprisingly I find
A light in the darkness
A single flicker
Starting to burn, the flames getting thicker
That's all it takes
A pearl to just one
A unicorn standing alone among pigs.

Sharing their pearls with one another
Each unique sphere valuable to the other
Pearls to swine
You'll regret it
But to one unicorn in a pack of pigs,
Your pearls are precious.

My heart aches with the overwhelming feeling of depression,
A feeling that gravity itself is pulling at the thread that holds everything together.
And yet it's the thread that binds my pain to my heart.
I can't hold back the tears anymore,
I can't control my emotions,
I can no longer keep the blade of tragedy and agony sheathed.

My heart it burns with the want and need of release,
A feeling that the single thread that keeps me together has come loose.
It is good.  And it is bad.
I can't hold on anymore,
I can't even feel the pain anymore,
I can no longer grasp the light-- but the hilt of that blade seems to fit to easily and comfortably into my hand.

A win-lose situation.
And a repetitive process.
A continuum.

My heart it bleeds from the wound that the blade has created from my own hands,
A feeling of finally being released from the hold of that single thread.
And yet..
The horrifying emotions will eventually return,
Just as the thread will sew itself back through those worn out places of my heart.

It was Ecstasy that made her happy, and
Ecstasy that made her cry. It was
Ecstasy that made her sappy, and
Ecstasy that made her emotions fly. This pill they call
Ecstasy, was to her, more than just a a drug. But a gift and yet a curse, that she popped to keep herself up. But sometimes this
Ecstasy did not always keep her up. Even in her highest moods, she felt like she was at the bottom of her cup. Now
Ecstasy is thrilling, and makes your body feel alive. Though it is all just an illusion, that
Ecstasy makes you feel so high. She takes the pill to live, and she takes the pill to die. But in the end,
Ecstasy is nothing more than a perfect tragedy. And this
Ecstasy that one loves so dear.. Will be the end of your life, or the opening to the wonderful clear.

You are bright and full of life,
You line the sky with orange light,
Full of warmth and sunny rays,
You end the night and make our days.

You always rise from behind hills,
You help the flowers on the window sills,
You are more eternal than life itself,
Forever rising without help.

You mark our days with guiding light,
God created you, to give us sight,
We plan our days around you,
And no matter what, you're never blue.

Without you we cannot see,
Without you then we would freeze,
Without you we'd have no plants,
You are the sun, and for you we dance.

Take a look at me.
What do you see?
You see somebody,
But you see the girl I used to be.

I am not that little girl anymore,
The one with the tears always in her eyes.
I am not that little girl anymore,
The one with a mouth full of lies.

I am all grown up now,
Maybe not as old as you,
But I surely know,
How to run my life like I ought to.

You think you know me,
And my ways,
But you don’t know me,
I have changed since those days.

I know I used to lie and cry,
Scream and yell,
But that part of me has gone by,
And this what I have to tell.

I am stronger now,
Maybe not better than you,
But you can not tell me,
How I should be and what I should do.

I do not need to cry those tears anymore,
The ones you caused me to shed from your abuse.
You had picked a fight with me that turned in to a war,
But now I am calling a truce.

You are not better than me,
I am not better than you,
But I know I can be,
Someone without you trying to lead me through.

I have cut your noose from my throat,
And I just want to say:
That I have the hope,
And the power to walk away.

So good-bye, good-bye,
To the old girl I used to be,
To you and your tie,
That kept me from being me.

Now take a look at me,
What do you see?
I hope you don’t see that somebody,
That girl I used to be.

No one told you,
When you would turn thirteen,
That you would suddenly do your make-up,
And try girly things.
You would no longer like baseball,
But rather going shopping for shoes,
And going to the mall,
To watch boys and what they do.
No one told you,
That when you would add one more year,
You would start to change,
And your life you would begin to steer.
You would date your first real boy,
And obsess over him for a week,
Then he would treat you like a toy,
And find he is not what you seek.
No one told you,
That when you would turn fifteen,
Make-up would not be all that important,
And you would not much like girly things.
Once again you would like sports,
But did not quite obsess over shoes,
You would have a crush on a dork,
And you would not be sure what to do.
No one told you,
That when you would add another year,
You would think **** is a fashion,
And that boy you had liked is now a queer.
Then that queer became your best friend,
And he would take you shopping for shoes,
But you would rather get a job,
And start becoming something new.
No one told you,
That when you would turn seventeen,
You would realize sixteen is so far away,
And feel stuck in between.
You would have your job and your best friend,
And all the shoes you ever could want,
But it would not seem like enough,
And your body you would not really flaunt.
No one told you,
That when another year would go by,
That you would still feel like a teenager,
And you would not know what to do with your life.
High school would finally be over,
And yet you would miss it so much,
Your best friend would have moved away,
And you would feel like you have lost your touch.
No one told you,
That when you would turn nineteen,
You would be shopping for furniture,
For your best friend that had moved away.
And that he would come back into town,
Deciding he was not gay,
And he wanted you to be down,
For getting married one day.
No one told you,
That when life gets a little uncontrollable,
The most unexpected happens,
And you would find it unavoidable.
No one told you,
And I am sure you are thinking that I am right,
That when you were a teenager,
You felt like life was so “tight!”
And other times it was not so great,
Like when you partied ‘til you yakked,
And when you lost your virginity,
It was with that guy that did not want you back.
And when you would do drugs for the first time,
You would have to sneak out of your house,
And you would fall asleep after the high,
And your parents would find out.
No one told you,
All those things you thought: you would never do,
And all those things they said: you would not,
Even though you thought you ought to.
No one told you,
About the tears that you would cry,
And the times you would laugh so hard,
That you would *** yourself and lie to get by.
And all the classes you would skip,
To get things you did not need,
And that you would drive your car into a ditch,
Man, don't you wish you had not done it?
But if you had not,
You would not be who you are,
And I bet you are happy they did not tell you,
And I bet you are happy your wish on a star,
Did not come true.
All because no one told you.

I’m falling through the sky
As time quickly passes by
The blood ribbons fall from my wrists
My heart is aching and my stomach twists.

You think you know me, but you don't
You think you feel for me, but you won't
You have your world and your own life
And I have this darkness and a knife.

You're always smiling every day
I'm always crying the pain away
You pick me up when I fall
But throw me down when I can't handle it all.

I'm the sinner, you're the saint
You cover mistakes, with white paint
But my mistakes can't seem to hide
Because my words are colored tie-dye.

You think you're cool, but you're not
You think I'm stupid, but I’m really caught
Caught in the tide of the sea
The sea of emotion, but you won't carry me.

You make me feel like I am dead
But I still bleed the color red
Why does my heart ache like this so?
Because you're my mother, and I can't tell you to go.

Craved** by all the sinners. All the ****** and all the thieves.
Craved by all the men, who wanted more than a just a peek. She was
Craved by the druggies, being their substance in the form of a human. And she was
Craved by all the purest, being their goddess in their search for more than an illusion. She was none of these things that they
Craved and yet partially these things in some way. But whatever she was, they all seemed so enticed, and
Craved her even more than they ever
Craved life.

The attraction is there
Undeniably so
I can not run from it
I can not hide from it
It's there
And that's okay

You and those eyes
Admiring my body
Followed by your hands caressing my form
Oh it's there
And I like it
Of course

We are doing animal things
All night long
In a bed not made for ourselves
When morning comes we will become people again
And do people things
And go about our lives until night comes
When we can be animals again

You'd rather do animal things
Than people things
And so would I

Responsibilities take you from me
And that's all right
Because they are important
And I understand

Besides
I'm the rational one
I have to tell you to do these people things
Or we would do animal things all into the day

I'm carnally pleasing to you
I know this
I see it in your eyes
And how your hips respond to mine

Instincts take over whenever we are together
Animal things have to be done
The lack of self-control
In a bed that is not made for ourselves
Is so very supposed to be
Meant to be
And that's okay

I can not run from it
I can not hide from it
This undeniable attraction to you
Is so overwhelming that all I think about
Is doing these animals things
Even if I am the rational one

Doing animal things
In a bed not made for ourselves
Is quite all right
It's more than okay
It's perfect.

When the universe began there was chaos and disorder,
Before we divided, I focused on my own outside border.
Besides the fangs and alien forces,
Laughter expanded my walls and charted courses.
I could navigate the paths to each universe separately,
Though the walk was treacherous I continued inevitably.
Time passed by slowly, no matter the location,
Other nights I lost time because of the recreation.
My mind understood things that shouldn't be understandable,
Not the meaning of life but answers to the beyond incomprehensible.
Inside the photographs and paintings all over,
I could see the movement, the change, that wasn't there sober.
What I wanted to say wouldn't come out,
No matter how hard I tried I couldn't get passed the doubt.
I heard everything said but didn't comprehend,
I could smile but I was unable to lend a hand.
Lead outside, I raised my eyes to the sky, to be enlightened,
I had known it all along but before I was frightened.
It was endless, and dark, with a depth like eternity,
Unable to look away it nearly swallowed me.
Back safe inside I traveled a short journey,
Hopeful to find the laughter that expanded my walls originally.
A magical place through a door, and through another,
Musical sounds and lots of color.
On a similar level I could blend in,
But a destroyer of worlds nearly made my walls cave in.
Escaping back to the other side,
A Charizard in the kitchen, a monkey in disguise.
Don't get ****** in, don't get ****** in,
It's madness and trickery, you must defend.
Stay back and be a spy,
Through a pentagonal shape for my eye.
A tickle-y feeling so I go down the hall,
But I am diverted by a door like a wall.
Locked, I can't seem to grasp,
But a leader with a hat showed me passed.
Or rather through a secret door,
Into a chamber I didn't know before.
Inside I discovered beautiful things,
And I tasted the delight that pumpkin brings.
My reflection was clearer and more defined,
I guess I never before saw the signs.
I felt like a secret confined,
So I fled to return another time.
Into a room to visit a neighbor,
A quiet and peaceful, relaxing chamber.
This universe is nice but not my first choice,
So with a present delivery I went back to the noise.
Under a rainbow knit blanket I found,
Heartbeats in hands that I thought to spread around.
The blanket returned to it's covered state,
And I took the secret to somewhere safe.
Through a door, and another door,
The light struck me as I saw smokey waves and heard a roar.
Horn of Damocles, Horn of Damocles.
Saved the day, saved the day.
Destroyer of worlds as well as creator,
Banishment happened sooner than later.
The walls lost their breath, but the stars were still bright,
The music was enchanting along with the light.
Enough adventure for I,
It's over, goodbye.
It's a sad word so I choose another to say,
Bye-bye seems less far away.
The rainbow blanket no longer stirs,
The universe has calmed and the aliens have dispersed.
The bone-man soothes the soul,
With his music he rocks and rolls.
Takes the nurse away for the night,
Thank God cause I almost lost the fight.
Did I tell you the universe is in your eyes?
I heard it earlier from someone near by.
He was rather blunt but I was unaffected,
We didn't **** but it was a nice suggestion.
I forgot to mention that we crucified,
A man who I know, and wouldn't rather die.
So we set him free, earlier in the night,
Before the laughter I saw something slight.
In a painting as a gift for me,
Jesus on the cross and an angel of mercy.
With that I'm going to conclude,
Oh Magical Manna, I approve.