“The Carousel”
February 7th, 2014.
Valerie Viele

There is never a moment to stop
A real stop
A true stop
A sincere stop
When everything quits, halts, ceases and refrains

No matter where one stands
or what character one sits upon
Even if one is stationary
The carousel still revolves

One can walk this way
One can walk that way
One can lie down
but the carousel still revolves

Can one get off?
Can one get back on?
Can one make the choice?
There is never a moment to stop
and the carousel still revolves

SSK<3

"Four - Breaking Even"
February 4th, 2014
Valerie Viele

I am a creation. I am a maiden. I am a creator. I am a crone.
I am dawn. I am noon. I am evening. I am midnight.
I am a girl. I am a temptress. I am a neither. I am a goddess.
I am a daughter. I am a *****. I am a mother. I am a lineage.
I am a sister. I am a best friend. I am a vague acquaintance. I am a messenger.
I am a child. I am a ******. I am a lover. I am a wife.
I am a princess. I am a beauty queen. I am a damsel in distress. I am a warrior.
I am a daisy. I am a snapdragon. I am a rose bud. I am a lilly.
I am a smile. I am a wink. I am a laugh. I am a snort.
I am a frown. I am a cold shoulder. I am a forgiver. I am a resolver.
I am a question. I am a questioner. I am a question mark. I am a answer.
I am a butterfly kiss. I am a bumble bee sting. I am a cicada hiss. I am a caterpillar tickle.
I am a cupcake. I am a box of chocolates. I am a glass of wine. I am a bowl of oatmeal.
I am a doll. I am a model. I am a celebrity. I am a infamous figure.
I am a game master. I am a rule-breaker.  I am a tyrant. I am a player.
I am a brat. I am a train-wreck. I am a witty retort. I am a knowing silence.
I am a ballerina. I am a dancer. I am a performer. I am a choregrapher.
I am a goodie two shoes. I am straight "A." I am a graduate. I am a mentor.
I am a tomboy. I am a mess. I am a fresh-pressed suit. I am a mumu.
I am a sneer. I am a red pair of lips. I am a pout. I am a broad grin.
I am a skinned knee. I am a bruised ego. I am a battered soul. I am a healed heart.
I am a piece of candy.  I am a piece of work. I am a master piece. I am a peace of mind.
I am a bubble gum "POP!" I am a whip-smart "CRACK!" I am a below the belt "BLOW!" I am a humble "WHISTLE!"
I am a kick. I am a slap. I am a hit and run. I am a sly trip.
I am a hug. I am a kiss. I am a ****. I am a cuddle.
I am a favorite. I am a nobody. I am a somebody. I am a everybody.
I am a challenge. I am a one-sided opinion. I am a worthy debate.  I am a open mind.
I am a bicycle. I am a fast car. I am a train. I am a stroll.
I am a pony tail. I am a bleach blonde. I am a practical bob. I am a braid.
I am a bracelet. I am a gold ring. I am a necklace. I am a bead.
I am a broken bone. I am a victim. I am a rescuer. I am a nurse.
I am a singer. I am a song. I am a composer. I am a listener.
I am a leader.  I am a runaway. I am a follower. I am a team.
I am a bubble bath.  I am a long shower. I am a quick rinse. I am a ocean dip.
I am a pond. I am a frozen lake. I am a waterfall. I am a river.
I am a castle. I am a tall tower. I am a skyscraper. I am a bridge.
I am a banshee. I am a blood-curdling scream. I am a yelp. I am a squeak.
I am a pretender. I am a liar. I am a deceiver. I am a revealer.
I am a sob. I am a woe-is-me. I am a wallow. I am a single tear.
I am a why? I am a why not? I am a no. I am a yes.
I am a sleep over. I am a house party. I am a coffee break. I am a tea time.
I am a today. I am a now. I am a tomorrow. I am a yesterday.


SSK<3

I think I was dreaming
Until I met you
I've been sleeping restlessly
All of this time

When you kissed my lips
I opened my eyes
And saw you in the daylight
That I had never seen before

I knew I was awake now
When you held my hand
Your skin was so warm
Nothing like in my dreams

You led me from fantasy
Straight into reality
Taking me on magnificent adventures
That I never could have imagined

When I saw your boyish grin
And realized I was the cause
I was completely taken aback
My voice strangled in my throat

You take the breath from my lungs
And you paint the smile on my lips
I wear my favorite shade of happy
Tickle me pink, just for you

Nowadays we dream together
But it's nothing like it was
Before you kissed my lips
And I opened my eyes

Our dreams our endless enchantment
Full of wonder and whimsy
We allow our imaginations
To run wild and free

With you and me
Our dreams are boundless
There are no fences to corrall
The mustangs of our Will's

Full speed ahead and *******
Galloping with ferver
Together we ride in open fields
The daylight a fresh perspective

My eyes were opened
Because of you
And I will never let them close
Not now, not again, not ever

The days I spent dreaming
Are a memory far behind
I remember what it was like
But I don't wish to go back

I wish to stay with you
Riding our mustangs
Letting our Will's be the reigns
Our eyes open, in daylight.

Your cruel crimson lips
Blood dripping from your finger tips
My love a shattered work of art
The result of my broken heart

Splatters of scarlet hope
Mark the sheets where we eloped
My love a discarded virginity
The result of my mistaken affinity

Garnet was the decadent shade
Of the dress that veiled my vestal glade
My love a slippery hemline
The result of my relentless pine

The rusty curls on your head
Delivered me willingly into the bed
My love a handful of tangled hair
The result of my wanton affair

The flowers he sent were red
Reluctantly, I told him you were dead
My love a half-hearted lie
The result of my wandering eye

A ring offered, of ruby and gold
Silver is better, but I was sold
My love a rehearsed song
The result of my doing wrong

A burgundy kiss for a charming knight
A wedding of chastity white
My love a perfected role
The result of my injured soul

An artificial cherry-flavored *******
Sloppy second copulation
My love a feigned first
The result of my unquenched thirst

The sheet is stained with merlot
Out with the trash, then he will never know
My love a memorized line
The result of my spilled debaucherous wine.

In a world of concrete
and televisions
there is no room
for love and liberty
only hyperspeed delusions

Screens project illusions
colorful and negative
******, ****, war
pure destruction
revolution

Communication boxes
with buttons and blinky lights
musical tones to let you know
that your mother says hello
her voice and face is not enough

Letters are overated
conversations are useless
chivalry is ridiculous
and a smile is anything
but friendly

Neighbors are irritating
too much or too little
of this
that
or the other thing

Knowledge is power
accessible, unclear and confusing
nothing makes any sense
everyone is stupid
but everyone knows everything

Convenience
is inconvenient
never good enough
fast enough
or affordable

There's internet
for computers, tv and cell phones
books in every format
knowledge through every source
but it's all lies, right?

No one knows the truth
no one can believe it
everything is a lie
and everyone is trapped
between televisions and concrete

Nature is forgotten
or locked in fences
near park benches
trimmed and controlled
to particuliarities

Consummables are consumed
without recognition
of the quantity
or lack thereof
until there is nothing left.

Used and abused
people and animals
plants and minerals
oxygen and gas
depleted, destroyed, enslaved

There is no room
for love and liberty
in a world ruled
by delusions
created from concrete and televisions

The truth is beyond the horizon
it lies asleep
in the deep sea

The truth is sought after
to no avail

It will only wake and rise
when
the time
is right

The clock of eternity ticks
But no one knows the time
Every second counts
Adding up towards the end

The truth that is sought
will awaken

and bring
the end
of time

And all that has been waited for
Will commence in just one second

And in that one second
The truth will unfold
to reveal:
the end
and the beginning
of time.

I'm hanging by a thread
At least I feel that way sometimes
A noose around my neck
Though I'd make some pretty wind chimes.

I'm not going to let go
And let myself fall down
Luckily I have my many stars
That guide me through this desolate town.

I wander around lost
In the burning sun
But when the night comes
I can begin to have fun.

My many stars come out to shine
Showing me the way
And though I'll have a sleepless night
I'll be ready for the day.

Maybe you can guess
Who or what the stars are
But all that matters is their brilliance
To show me how to travel far.

Though nothing glows brighter
Then the moon in the sky
I may have my many stars
And that is not a lie.

But this big bright globe
Is more than just a friend
He keeps my heart up there
I know it's more than just pretend..

And more than just a fairy tale
Of a maiden and the moon
One day it will be forever after
Though maybe not so soon.

I wish upon a star tonight
Though the man in the moon is listening
I say: "I wish I can keep him for all time!"
And I swear, after, I saw him glistening...

I know you'll find your way
You always do
Like water in a stream
You flow wherever the current takes you.

And I've been by your side
Since the beginning
Though we're far apart
I don't feel our friendship thinning.

If anything it's stronger
And growing ever more
I don't stop to doubt it
I just let it up and soar.

Like a bird it has to fly
Every living thing must be free
I think
So I'll let it be.

And when I watch the sunset
I often think of you
Wishing I could see you
And ask you, "How do you do?"

Our paths always meet
At the crossroads of life
And I know you'll always be there
When I'm going through strife.

Though when things are bliss
I can always count on you
To swim with me in happiness
Instead of driving it undo.

Born kindred spirits
Taking a similar walk through time
I know I should have told you this
But I express better through rhyme.

So I jot out my feelings
Scribble out my thoughts
Cross all my T's
And top the I's with dots.

But I won't give you this poem
Because of what I think
Some things are better left unsaid
Or written in invisible ink.

I wish the words of my mouth
Could work like a fine stitching
Closing up the holes in your heart.

But I never have the words
To make it all go away
If anything, I just tear it all apart.

I'm not eloquent
Or tastefully soothing
But my heart beats in the right rhythm.

I try to say all the right things
Instead, I stumble and fall
I guess, truly, I am just winsome.

I watch your painful confusion
Unable to help
And we both seem to tumble into turmoil.

I wish could gracefully
Be your divine savior
But unfortunately I'm just a harlequin girl.

I tip them upside down
I throw them on the ground
It's the only way I can look at them clearly.

When they're right in my face
Everything seems out of place
And I can't seem to understand them sincerely.

When they fall apart
It damages my heart
And I have to put them all back together.

To read them right
They have to be in plain sight
So I can interpret the future weather.

What I'm talking about
Brings upon some doubt
That's hiding in the back of my mind.

But when I lay them straight
I can predict my fate
And the truth I will know, and can find.

Many things are applicable
And possibly despicable
To what I'm trying so hard to explain.

But really what it is--
The answer to this quiz
Is that my emotions are difficult to preordain.

So I'll look at the sky
And release them to fly
Because that is the best thing I can do.

Let them go free
And just let it all be
Then they will be easier to construe.

Heal the wound before it hurts
But it will still leave a scar
Brush the ashes under the rug
But it's like keeping them in a jar.

The scar is a reminder
Though you never felt the pain
And the ashes carry a memory
Like a carpet stain.

Let the scar be a part of you
But not what has the say
And don't brush the ashes under the rug
Just let them blow away.

The ominous cloud
Looming on the horizon of your heart
Brings tears to my eyes
It's bittersweet and ****.

I wish, oh I wish
To send the cloud away
Like a Goddess of the Wind
I would blow it astray.

But every cloud has it's purpose
To let the rain fall in power
Though it's saddening at first
It cleanses, delightfully, even the wall-flower.

All I can do
Is provide the sunny rays
To warm the chill left behind
And brighten the darkness daze.

Though I wish to be a Wind Goddess
To stop the rain from falling
But I'd rather be of the After-Rain Sun
Instead of the forestalling.

I'm having trouble breathing
It doesn't hurt
It's actually kind of nice.

This tension in my lungs
Is because of your love
And in my ribcage there are mice.

Maybe it's a little morbid
Rather than to say butterflies
But those can be freed with a sigh.

Maybe it's a little demented
But I like it that way
I wear a noose as a tie.

I guess I'm probably backwards
To say the least
I prefer blood to water.

Your love is psychotic
Like a psychedelic trip
From a blotter.

It's so nice
As wrong as asphyxiation sounds
But it's as macabre as it is pleasing.

And if you were to leave
The warmth of my body
Would undoubtedly turn to freezing.

He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to hide
Somewhere warm, somewhere sweet
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to sleep
Soundly, quietly.

In his hair I find my hands
Searching for what haunts him
But gliding through every strand
I soothe him with my love.

He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to find
Somewhere lush, somewhere bright
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to play
Wildly, freely.

In my arms I hold him close
Covering his skin with my soul
Goosebumps, on each others skin
I love him with my body.

He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to seek
Somewhere dangerous, somewhere high
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to run
Quickly, simply.

In his eyes I see the signs
Locking our gaze of flowers
Smiles, stretching our mouths
I speak to him in song.

He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to be
Somewhere far, somewhere clean
He reminds me of somewhere I'd like to keep
In my heart, in my soul.

The sun it sets on tonight
It reminds you to let everything go
The day following is new and clean
So just let the good vibes flow.

The sun it sets to remind us
That it's time to go to sleep
But more importantly
It ends the day we try to keep.

Hanging on does you no good
To the day you should probably forget
It only causes you more pain
Then the original regret.

So let the sun set on tonight
And remember tomorrow is a new day
Holding on only makes it worse
Go on, forget about yesterday.

All I want is to be something great
I just want to blow everyone away
Can it be that easy?
Is it something I have to say?

All I want is to expand minds
I just want to cause raptures
Can it be that simple?
Will my word be what captures?

Just let me be the star
That I know that I am
As rare as a pearl
You find within a clam.

Just let me be moving
As powerful as a river
Like a creeping on your skin
That causes you to shiver.

I know I'll come
Like a rain in a drought
Surprising, expected
With a sporadic route.

I know I'll come
Like a raging fire
Strong, relentless
Not far from desire.

This is all I want
It's nothing to you
But when I change the way the tide pulls
It's something you might look up to.

You soothe all my aching pain
You cleanse me like refreshing rain
You leave behind a pleasant stain
You are sweet like sugar cane.
You teach my I've got much to gain
You keep my from riding in the tame lane
You allow me to be a little vain
And you love me as powerful as a freight train.
Our love is a smooth but scenic terrain
Though sometimes we go against the grain
Our passion is nothing close to plain
And more comfortable than a ball and chain.
I love you
Through thick and through thin
Though innocence and sin,
Like flowers to sunshine
It's not hard to define
I will love you
Like the sound of a rhyme
And hopefully, for a glorious time.

Fraudulent like lies on paper
Written in blood so thick
Your sin it smells like perfume
The envelope sealed with a kiss, it makes me sick.

No one stands for your tales
Of truth created from spite
It's written on your forehead
I think you know that it isn't right.

You are aware of what you say
What you do and how you do it
You work up a smile like a wolf
But your prey won't fall into the bottomless pit.

Soon you will progress into destruction
From the venom of your own bite
Topple like a tower
Out of everyone's sight.

Funny how the cards fall
Interesting how it collapses from the inside
Weak in the middle of a hard outer shell
Destroyed by the relentless tide.

Down you go!
Into your own pit of hell
A familiar smile above you
From the ones that you didn't wish well.

I think it's appropriate to say
That spending time apart
Is a good way
To bring upon a fresh start.

People hold onto ideas,
Opinions and thoughts.
And when they can't catch a break
They tie things into knots.

All these knots make complications
Which turn into frustrations
That create a complexity
In their current relations.

So when you do get a break
It's suddenly nice
To see someone again
Rather than standing on thin ice.

This is something I've discovered
But now been able to put into words
We shouldn't always be together
Like a flock of birds.

Our migrations should separate
Go their different ways
And maybe they'll cross paths again
Later in our days.

The time apart we should cherish
And learn what we need to know
To form new ideas, opinions and thoughts
And move on from our relation woe.

So I don't take distaste
In the distance that's been created
Our routes will cross again
When the frustrations have dissipated.

I think I've decided I'm crazy
Like really lost my mind
But you're just as crazy
So I've come to find.

"Let's talk about how beautiful you are," you said
And snuggled into my shoulder
"Let's talk about spaceships," I said
Maybe I was growing bolder.

Then you replied, wittily,
"You'd look beautiful in a spaceship."
And that was when I realized
I was biting my lip.

Because you see, the mingling
Of the Strings, all around you and me
Have intertwined our crazy minds
And thus set us free.

I might look pretty in a spaceship
But that is not the point
The point is, the ground we fell upon
Has a common joint.

And maybe that doesn't make sense
But to me, I see the factors matching
Connecting all our String Theory Strings,
Each others breath we are catching.

And maybe that's what love is
When our wriggly Strings combine
Or maybe that's how you teleport
And even read my mind.

Either way, I think we're crazy
And match up fairly true
Pretty in a spaceship, or not
I am definitely in love with you.

Why aren't you smiling, Sun?
You shine, but you don't smile
In face you seem dimmer today
Would you like to talk for a while?

It seems you drag today
It seems you are down in a hole
You have nothing to say
But the truth has clearly taken a toll.

Can I make you smile today, Sun?
Will you shine on me?
Despite your dimness, you are still warm
Won't you talk to me?

Unfamiliar sadness
Is the worst kind of sadness
At least I think that's how it goes.

You tell yourself to smile
You tell yourself it's okay
But that's simply not how it flows.

It engulfs you like a fire
Swallowing its surroundings
Swallowing you entirely whole.

It's a new kind of sadness
Though you've been sad before
This one continues to burn hot like a coal.

You try to stifle it
You try to drown it
But it keeps eating you day by day.

Little did you know
That this type of sadness
Has to be put out a different way.

Unfamiliar sadness
Is the worst kind of sadness
I've pretty much figured that out.

It might take you a while
To put out the fire
But then you'll know for next time, what it's all about.

It's dark outside and the moon is bright
It casts a glow across where I stand
I'm thinking of you tonight
Wishing I could hold your hand.

Right now I'm thinking of love
Right now I'm thinking of sorrow
I raise my eyes to what's above
Yes! There's still hope for tomorrow.

I haven't lost my sight
I can imagine the world is lonely
I'd rather like to bask in the moonlight
For this one time only.

But my skin it itches with wonder
And my feet want to dance
This must be some spell that I'm under
Or is this my second chance?

Youth strikes my features
But at the center I am old
Out from the night come the creatures
And with them comes the cold.

I know so much and yet so little
My mind has expanded to infinity
Though my reality feels brittle
I can hang on through serendipity.

This is my magical power
I weave the world with my fingers
The clouds in the night rain down a shower
I'm am the dancer, the thunder the singers.

This is my chance!
I'll fashion a quilt of morality
I'll swirl it as I dance
Making the divine fabric a reality.

But alas, this is only a dream
And I'm dreaming of love and sorrow
As I finish up the last seam
I think there's still hope for tomorrow.

It's dark outside and the moon is bright
As I'm sleeping soundly
Such a dream won't slip from my sight
I'll remember it profoundly.

I feel like I should be writing
There is so much to say
And yet so little
At the same time.

I want the world to know
That happiness is easy
As long as you know how
To look past the grime.

It can be found anywhere
In a far off land or on some mountain
But usually
It's right under your nose.

It can be found in anything
In a smile or a wish
That's usually
How it goes.

Happiness is sometimes fleeting
But often it is always there
You just have to find it in the right spot
Sometimes it's simply in the air.

Other times it can't be found
But you're sure it's where you left it
Maybe try looking somewhere else this time
It hasn't up and vanished.

And when you think there's none left at all
That's when you probably have it the most
You just don't see it in the obvious places
It's like looking for a ghost.

Lift the veil from your eyes
Happiness is everywhere
Just remember to look in every corner, crack, under every rock
I promise you, it's there.

I think you've got your head up in the clouds
And it's time to come down
You're not making me proud
Can't you tell by my frown?

You're fading quickly, I see it
I don't wanna watch you burn your life away
You're choking on the bit
I guess tomorrow is another day.

You can always try
Don't give up, don't tap out
You secretly want to say goodbye
But you don't want to face the drought.

I miss the you you use to be
I miss the smile on your face
I just want to see you free
Away from this place.

I wish I could get you out
I wish I could save you some how
But you have to defeat your own doubt
I just can't help you now.

You'll pull me down with you
So I have to leave you behind
This is the conclusion I've come to
And it hurts, so I find.

It has to be this way
This is my love speaking
I guess tomorrow is another day
For you to find what you're seeking.

I thought I lost my inspiration
And lacked a current destination
Now I'm in deep concentration
Writing down my contemplation
As I write these words in desperation
I wonder on the worlds damnation
Now I seek inebriation
Within my words correlation
So here I am at my writing station
Thinking in exasperation
What do I know of segregation?
How do I change it to integration?
Do you understand my stipulation?
How do I defeat this abomination?!

I will wait in anticipation
Then I will take a needed vacation
After my attempt at world *******.

Today I feel beautiful
Like a flower blossoming in spring
I've only just begun to blossom
Sprouting, I am becoming something.

Today I feel strong
Like the trunk of a tree
Weathered but mighty
My roots the base of me.

Today I feel light
Like a feather flying
My burdens not heavy
Or preventing me from trying.

Today I feel happy
Like a smile reaching eyes
The sadness once carried
Released like heavy sighs.

Today I am great
No matter the circumstance
Today is a good day
A day for my second chance.

Life is beautiful with you
The flowers smell nicer
The sky is bigger and more blue.

Life is amazing with you
The sun is warmer
The rain is more refreshing and true.

Life is colorful with you
The sunset is prettier
The blossoms are vibrant and brighter.

Life is happy with you
The nights are calmer
The days are silly and lighter.

Life is better with you
You are a light to my world
A reason to my rhymes.

Life is how life should be with you
Everything is promising
Everything is good, even through the bad times.

I wanna hold on to you
I wanna kiss you like I ought to
I wanna make love to you
I wanna touch you like I always do.
I wanna console you
I wanna tell you I love you like I ought to
I wanna protect you
I wanna shield you like I always do.
I don't wanna let you go
I wanna let my feelings show
I wanna tell you what I know
I wanna keep you from woe.
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna
You can't always have what you want, they say
But you told me, clearly
That I can have you however which way.

I won't think twice about it
Though I will admit
That I was dealt ****
But I didn't quit
So I deserve this.

I don't think you see yourself
The way I see you
Do you see what you're made of?
Do you see what you can do?

I feel like maybe you're blind
Or lack some kind of confidence
But I think you can do everything
So you should stop being so tense.

Can't you see yourself?
You do everything with this kind of grace
That people come to you
To find their place.

Even I have come to you
To find where I belong
You've pointed me in the right direction
The direction I knew all along.

It's okay to be arrogant
Because more or less, you're always right
I think you should apply your greatness
And let yourself shine bright.

Don't hold yourself back any longer
Quit hanging onto your fears
Because you should be who you really are
Have you taken a look in the mirror?

You're ******* beautiful, okay?
What more can I say?
And you're going places
You're well on your way.

Don't let anyone or anything
Halt you in your plight
I'll be right here by your side
Helping you put up a fight.

Because you deserve a good life
So you can really grow
And spread out your seed
So that everyone will know what you know.

But first you have to conquer yourself
And I'm telling you right now
Don't be afraid, of you, what you're capable of
Because really, you're a 'wow.'

I wish I could make a list
That would convince you
Of how great you really are
And all the things you can do.

But you don't need that
Because I'm sure you all ready have found out
That you're gonna do great things
Even if you have the doubt.

I just wanna tell you that I''m not behind you
In all that you do
But beside you through this endeavor
To first conquer you.

Because before you can challenge the world
You first have to challenge you
And once you do that
You'll know all you need to get through.

So don't get offended
Or turned off by my words
This is only half of what I feel
And only part of what I've learned.

And I know you can do it
I know it in my heart
Because I can see you
See who you really are.

Flower petals fall
From a wilting bloom
The rain has long been gone
It hasn't brought it's yearned for gloom.

The blossom looks down
To the earth it sprouted from
It's back bending over
The rain, it wants it to come.

Though it's death is near
A new plant will arise
From the seeds it drops
And the rain falling from high.

When the next blossom blooms
It will smile up at the sky
But until it can be born
Another has to die.

When am I going to realize,
That I can do whatever I please?
I can speak out my opinions
And I can drop my formalities.

I don't have to wait to be told
Whether or not it's okay
I can do anything I desire
I can say what I want to say.

I have the right
Who needs validation?
I don't need it, neither do you
Nor do I need confirmation.

I can write my own rules
I can stay up late
I can break them, too
And I can sleep all day.

Why do I seek to be told,
Whether or not it's all right?
I can do whatever I want
I'll spread my wings and take flight.

To be bold is to do what you want
Not what you're told
And I know I want to be bold
I'm not going to wait until I get old.

I'm not going to wait until I break
From holding myself back
Cause then I've waited too long
To conquer what I lack.

Time is running out
Even though they say you have plenty
But they say that as a comfort
Cause they waited, like many.

I won't wait any longer
Time isn't going to freeze
When am I going to realize,
That I can do whatever I please?

We're all individuals
But part of a tree
Some of us are leafs
And grow into green.
Others are seeds
That plant a way of life
Some of us are flowers
Growing beautiful, through strife.
Plenty are juicy fruits
Coming with the harvest to please
Then there are the branches
That carry them all and put them at ease.
The bark covers the tree
Protecting all that it is
And the roots grow deep into the ground
Keeping the tree from falling amiss.
We all grow towards the sky
But most don't make it that far
Will we ever reach the heavens?
Will we ever touch a star?
But whatever piece you are
No matter our differences
Were all a part of the tree
Past, future, and present tenses.

Not all the colors within myself,
are bright and flecked with gold.
In fact some of them are dark,
and some of them are old.
A few are striped and tiled,
others are polka-dotted and lined with black.
Lots of them are glittery,
and some of them are layered in a stack.
Several are pastels and pretty,
a couple are neon and glow.
With all the colors inside myself,
I make a contrasting, ridiculous and wild, rainbow.
Everyone has colors within themselves,
That makes up who they are,
Some of them are tacky,
Lots are metallic like a star.
But a lot of them are specific,
Each hue to each person,
Every palette is unique,
Just look at everyone!
So if you look inside yourself,
And check out your color collage,
I'm sure you'll be pretty impressed
With your colorful modge podge!

I feel like I'm standing
On a Tower Of Cards
Like I could fall at any moment
My ground collapsing beneath me.

But isn't that how life is?
It could easily be ripped away
As it is given,
Tread lightly, little girl.

But I'm not a little girl
And I don't walk as careless as I use to
I walk cautiously
And tip-toe in all the right places.

So on the top of this Card Tower
I can see the world
And as long as I walk like upon egg shells
It will stay that way.

Like a loose leaf I fell from the tree,
The fall was long and freeing,
'Til I reached the bottom.

A wind has since then carried me,
To places far and wide,
I no longer know where I fell is.

The wind is both soothing and brash,
I don't trust it will take me back,
But to more beautiful sights.

I feel a little confused
Like I have something to figure out
A little twisted up and chewed
My mind is racing on doubt.

I'm trying to put my thoughts
Into words in this writing
My hand it jots
The nails on my fingers I am biting.

It's hard to say how I feel
But I definitely know that I am feeling
Everything inside is real
I just have to find it by peeling.

My skin it itches from nerves
I look sallow and wrecked
I've stretched myself thin and over all the curves
I can no longer object.

I had to cry today
Because I drove myself up a wall
Repressing things I've wanted to say
Has somehow made the mountain I have, to climb, very tall.

It's not like my problems are anything important
But I guess they tend to wear me ragged
It's sometimes because I can be expectant
Of people and things that are jagged.

I have some things I still need to learn
But I'd rather be learning then at a stop
Like how not to expect and sometimes not to yearn
And when to skip, rather than to hop.

I try to keep my heart open wide
But that leaves it to be bruised
I have to let some things subside
And not let myself feel used.

I'll learn to be compassionate
But still protect myself
Though somehow I feel like I'm in debt
To all the dolls on the shelf.

I conclude this work of emotion
Still upside down and withered
At least I've crossed further, the ocean
But I have yet to meet the blizzard.

I think that maybe
I'm a little more than in love
Something deeper, something stronger
If that's possible.

And I think that maybe
I could keep you
If not for forever
But for a while.

You're smile
Makes me shy
I hide my eyes
Beneath my lashes.

When you look at me
I can't help but grin
And want to just wrap you up
In my arms.

If I could find a word
To describe how I feel
I'd write it over and over
In a love letter to you.

And if I could find a song
To describe how I feel
I'd play it over and over
For you.

It's something silly
But isn't that real love?
Bumbling, clumsy
And fun.

I can say very well
That you bring out the best in me
And I feel like that maybe
I bring out the best in you.

This isn't the best poem
But I've been wanting to say for a while
That you make me so happy
More than I can describe.

I love how you look
How you look at me
How you smile
How you smile at me.

And I can feel your love
When you're talking to me
Hear it in your voice
Like a tone only I can hear.

And your actions speak volumes
Loud enough and large enough for me
To know that you truly love me
And I don't even have to ask.

So just so you know
I hear, feel, see, breathe your love
And it's enough
I couldn't ask for more.

Except maybe for a kiss
To remind me
A smile to make me smile
And a hug to feel your love.

I love you.

I feel old sometimes
Like a blossom trapped between pages of a dictionary
A dictionary that had been left in the attic for years.

I feel young sometimes
Like a kitten that plays with it's toy on the floor
A kitten that never knew that there was more to life outside the house it lives in.

I feel hated sometimes
Like a blister bubbled on the bottom of your foot
A blister that you have to deal with for the rest of the hike.

I feel loved sometimes
Like tasting chocolate for the first time
A chocolate bar you received from your love on Valentines Day.

I feel ***** sometimes
Like how you feel after a day at the beach
A day at the beach that you still didn't shower after you got home.

I feel clean sometimes
Like that feeling you get when it rains and you're standing in it
A rain after the hardest week of your life.

I feel alone sometimes
Like when you're surrounded by all your loved ones but you don't exist
When you seem to go unnoticed when all you wanted was to be seen.

I feel claustrophobic sometimes
Like when you're trapped in an elevator with too many people
Trapped, when all you wanted was to be alone.

Sometimes I wish I didn't feel
But if I didn't feel
I wouldn't be me
And if I wasn't me
I wouldn't feel.

I don't need you to rescue me
I'm no damsel in distress
I can take care of myself
I can get out of this mess.

As much as I want to be rescued
I can't let you save me all the time
I don't need a hero, I swear
I can get up this climb.

I wish I could just have no back bone
And let Superman rescue me from fall
But I'm too stubborn, and independent for that
I'm not some delicate china doll.

I'm a Superwoman myself
Even if I still know how to cry
I can take care of my problems
I don't need you to kiss them goodbye.

It would be nice, I must say
To have my life a clean slate
But that's something I have to do myself
Something that's part of my fate.

So you can kiss me Superman
But I won't let you save my day
I don't need your super powers
Go save someone else for a change.

I love you more
Than the flowers love rain
So I kiss you like that.

I love you more
Than the lizard loves the sun
So I kiss you like that.

I love you more
Than I hate pain
So I kiss you like that.

I love you more
Than I want to run
So I kiss you like that.

I love you more
Than I want to cry, sometimes
So I kiss you like that.

I love you more
Than I hate stress
So I kiss you like that.

I love you more
Than I love writing rhymes
So I kiss you like that.

I love you more
Than I know how to express
So I kiss you like that.

And you like it like that,
So it'll always be like that.

I just wanted to remind you
Of how much I love you
I write this seemingly love drunk
Hopefully you will see it too.

I wanna wash over you like rain
And kiss your eyelashes like snow
I want to be the grass you lay upon
And the sun that touches you from head to toe.

I wanna be what makes you happy
But also show you where happiness lies
And I wanna be what makes you smile
But show you how to smile when you're happiness dries.

I wanna put your puzzle together
And show you how to do mine
I wanna solve all your problems
And share with you how everything will be fine.

I wanna be a part of you
And touch your face whenever I wish
I wanna hold your hand when I am lost, or you
And grace you with my loving kiss.

I just want to be yours
Even though I all ready am
I wish I could just hand you my very soul
So you can keep it, in your hand.

But I've got to keep a little me to myself
And I recommend that you should do the same
Because if we don't have any secrets
How are we to play the game?

It takes two to do most things
But it's not fun if you know all the steps
I'd like to keep you guessing
And you would, as well for me, I bet.

His scent it lingers
Like a pheromone, there
I kissed him gently
And stroked his hair.

His taste is on my lips
I did not wish to part
It was a moment long enough
To flutter the beating of my heart.

His vivid memory in my mind
Brings me to write out my adoration
His smile feeds mine
And I am to be patient..

Until I see him again
And grace his lips with my kiss
I'll think about him every day
'Til a moment like this, he, I will miss.

I want you naked in my bed
Or I want to be naked in yours
I miss you tonight
Especially when I lay in bed, all alone.

You don't realize it
But you're amazing
At everything you do
At everything you touch.

I wanna kiss your mouth
And caress your face with my hands
I want to run my fingers through your hair
You're amazing, so amazing.

I get a shiver inside of me
When you stroke me the right way
The only way you know how
The only way you ever have.

And I get the butterflies in my stomach
When I think of your smile
I nearly blush, when I normally would never
But you make me feel in all the right ways.

You're amazing, so amazing
I thought you should know
You're amazing at everything you do
Especially amazing at me.

Lies like liquid dripping from your tongue
You hang it out, forked and scandalous
Your words like venom, they stung
And I look at you like you have no soul.

The taste of honey on my lips
My words are soothing and fresh
We tear at each others pride, and it rips
Like poorly sewn seams of a dress.

Your eyes are vicious and angry slits
Mine are doe-round and bright
There's a darkness lingering around all your infamous wits
And I knock them down easily, one by one.

You're a tattered and tortured thing
You live by your words, but would not die
And I skip around and merrily sing
Oblivious, or not, to the hatred you harbor.

Like magnets we oppose each others side
But it takes two to tango
You are here and so am I
We will learn to live together -- Yin and Yang.

Like a Daisy you smile
When the sun beats down on your face
Your hair is blowing in the wind
And you're walking with a felines grace.

You have a body sculpted by Gods
And I had always envied you
With hair pretty and long
And the best personality to boot.

I thought I wanted to be like you
But that wasn't the case
I just wanted to be me
And something similarly great.

So I went out into the world
And sought out myself
She was hidden in a couple of rocks
And waiting on some bookshelves.

When I found her she smiled
It bloomed across her face
And she took my hand and led me
Down a beach to a magical place.

I no longer envy your beauty
But marvel at you with smiles
And realize when I look at myself
I have my own womanly wiles.

And why do we envy each other,
Us ladies all pretty and sweet?
Because we never look in the mirror
And let our reflection and self, meet.

A passion dripping of sin
A drunken epiphany
Plucking all my heartstrings
In the perfect melody.

You soothe me with your words
Profound and adoring
I think of you in debauchery
The fantasy is flooring.

I'd die for your arms around me
Just for a second I lust
A desire burning like hot coals
You around me I trust.

Cover me with your poetic form
Your limbs lounging about
A warmth radiating from your sweat-skin
I welcome your nakedness with no doubt.

My sighs are heavy and hypnotized
I'm wrapped all up in you
And I'm not fighting at all
Because it's all I want to do.

Be with you
Be yours
Let you stroke my hair
My want is practically seeping from my pores.

But I am all ready yours
I just wish for you tonight
A moment apart from you
Brings my ache to an astounding height.

I miss you, I miss you
I'll say it a million times
As if that would put you in my arms
By writing all these rhymes.

Sleep well without me, love
If only for a night
I'll kiss you naked in my dreams
And forget this temporary plight.

A coy but quirky little thing
Wrapping him around her finger
Kisses to his mouth
Her dewy taste to linger.

A devious but ginger little creature
Coiling around her heart
Adding tongue to the kisses
His taste not bitter, but ****.

The Fairy and the Serpent
A love so delicious it should be forbidden
Both having fiery passion
Makes them not so different.

They're sneaky and wise
But calm and collected
And when staring at each other
They see parts of themselves reflected.

He shields her with his hardened scales
And protects her with his venomous bite
She mystifies him with her glitter lust
And guides him with her magic light.

Here in their Nirvana Paradise
They've come upon a common ground
Their love is unrestrained and powerful
And a soul mate they have found.

I wanted to rip your heart out
And eat it like it were a fruit
Just so you could die
Like you made me want to.

I thought I loved you
At one point, maybe twice
But it was really just hate
That started at a small height.

I gave you everything
Bent over backwards, upside down
I served my heart in place of yours
But my love you never found.

Your perception was twisted
You wanted to tear me apart
Said I was the lusted, the wanted
But you were wrong from the start.

I was weak, you were right
And from you I learned so much
That I can't let people walk on me
Least of all let them touch--

My heart.

You see I took it back from you
And threw the truth in your face
Even after all we had been through
You placed me as a disgrace.

I let you down but in reality
You let ME down
And I had to figure **** out
After you left me with a frown.

Stabbed me in the back countless times
Asked me for money and favors
And I wrote out all your rhymes
For you poetic labors.

It was all my hard work
Thrown down the drain
But I let you go
And inevitably you went insane.

Because I set my rage free
And you clung to it for years
I know it held you back
Causing many of your tears.

And still I never wanted to hurt you
I just wanted you to see
That you couldn't treat anyone like that
Least of all me.

So maybe I was your wake up call
Or at least I planted the seed
Someone else can water it
But I suppose you've become a ****.

I've heard things 'round the bend
That you've finally been seen for what you were
I always knew that side of you
But I was friends with something else, what it was, I'm not sure.

And once I learned
And grew up
I traveled on
And threw you out of my cup.

And that cup I filled
Not with anything of you
But everything of me
And all I had been that was true.

And now here I am
Doing fine without you
But I don't regret any of it
Because it was part of everything I had to go through.

Thank you.

Bleeding from the heart
In a metaphorical way
The pain is excruciating
And there is nothing left to say.

They both knew it all along
And knew they had to tell the truth
They didn't love each other
Didn't even care to.

They stare at one another
Lost in emotion and thought
One with tearful eyes
The other also distraught.

It couldn't work out between them
With her deceit and his lies
Though it lasted for years
It was a mosh posh of destruction, with a side of hateful fries.

He cheated every weekend
****** without disgrace
With every man he came across
Then kissed her when he returned home, right on her face.

She deceived him from the start
Marrying him for his money
And spending it all on an addiction
The truth just wasn't very funny.

And when it all came out
With tears and screams
They realized it wasn't meant to be
Their love had fake seams.

But did they ever love each other?
Or was it just a comfort of the placement?
To be in someones arms
Something convenient, though distorted and bent.

When it was all over
They said their goodbyes
And went separate ways
To start separate lives.

She's a lawyer now
Making her own money
Paying for her own addiction
Isn't that funny?

And he came out of the closet
Still ******* without disgrace
And instead of getting kisses
He gets *** all over his face.

So they took roads away from each other
But ended up the same way
Maybe they should have stayed together
It would have been more comfortable, wouldn't you say?