productivity is a dragon
slain by the knights of pleasure and sloth
security is a castle
built by the dragon
housing the knights as they tear from within
it was not built in a day
or two
or seventy-five
the forest where you're from is a castle of its own
the knights roam free in the forest
but theres monsters there

Looking up
staring down
Heavy hearts only weigh what you feel like
The glass is only half-empty if it was full before
Loss is only a loss if you feel worse
The best thing to say is “at least”
“Well now I get to”
“It’s fine because”
Don’t worry about it
Unnecessary sadness
Think up
Not down

Piano, soft melody plays
A guitar, acoustic growth brings a heart skip
Drum set joins, I dance more noticeably
They skip, drums change rhythm and she begins to sing
It flows, getting louder
a wooden flute takes her place, she sings background,
I rest for a second to remember the words
I roll on my back letting the lyrics consume me
Sing along, talking to the music
I love this song

Soft kneads on the blanket I am under
A tender plop down should feel better
Purr exponentially rattling my mattress
pressure, comfort in presence
Eyes can see into mine
He knows everything I feel
Relentless, get off your phone, love me more
You’d like me to rub the space between your whiskers and your face
Peaceful, you close your eyes
I toss, I turn, you move to rest me
No one cares for each movement as you do
You sleep, curled into a ball
Couldn’t roll, too snug
I see you, your happiness in calm
It consoles me

Acceptance is cool
Trying is cool
Colorful things are cool
Researching the things you like are cool
Eating healthy is cool
Doing things with your friends is cool
drugs, in order to expand your mind and grow internally, are cool
Working out and exercising all the time to make yourself healthier and more attractive is cool
Keeping your room clean is cool
Brushing your teeth every day is cool
Writing everything down because documentation is the only thing that helps you to remember who you are is very cool
Creating fantastic works of art and functionality are so very cool
Drinking 8 cups of water (8oz) every day is cool
Being nice and helping your family is cool
Loving being outside and active is cool
Actively fighting the feeling of heaviness and darkness that keeps you stagnant in life is cool
being content is cool
Being cool is the only way to survive while enjoying the whole thing

The cars drive by
It’s cold outside
The puddles on the ground
Sterilized my ignorance
Water is water
Ocean spray or the day after blizzard
Feels the same
Imagine a space where it feels better
Be there
Be better
Do it

Wandering in the meta verse
Finding a reason to stay awake
Crying when they don’t come
Bored of the time consumer
Tired of living in my skin
Trying a new one is out of the question
A hole is so very difficult to dig
Harder to get out of
The illusion of progress seems like a sick joke
Hating the world so I don’t have to hate myself
Hating the circumstance but not making the change
Do not take anything for granted
Time is precious no matter