sway, step on mars
play, among the stars
she stood, fray
gay, they dance
only moving, leaves
crushed under happy feet
and so the prose ends

i wish to love
but there is a gut feeling
that this love
could get me into trouble
a gut feeling
that this love
will corner me
and force me
to love it back
this love
makes me tremble

submissive
scared
shocked
shaken
cold
alone
misunderstood
overlooked
hopeful
loved?
warm
safe
sturdy
solid
stable
heard
seen
loved.

i’m here as you fall for him
i stand as you gaze into his eyes
i watch as you drift deeper into love
it would be heartbreaking, but it’s my fault
it’s my fault i fell
deep
deep
deep
into his abyss

My snow globe of a life, shook up every time I step out of the safe confines of my room
Every word I say a small vibration in the plates of my world, shaking me without consent
I’m trying to stand up straight in the snow the clouds the trash flying all around me
Is this a snowstorm or a tornado i can’t tell if it’s temporary or if the end is close by
Oh so you have your life together? You think you balanced the snow globe just so? It’s the easiest thing for me to just? Get you all, shook up

Whats wrong
Are you ok
Talk to me
What’s going on
Why are you sad
Why aren’t you being yourself
why are you crying
Stop crying
What are you saying
I’m sorry
Stop
What’s wrong
..
why don’t you already know

His mind, a field to which I long to run across
His heart, a ball that I wish I could have the strength to hold
His chest, a bed that on I wish to sleep
My face, the obvious signals I’m trying to give
My heart, he’s grabbed hold of for way too long
My name, that I wish for him to call