I look for you,
All day long,
In places where you used to be,
But you're not at them anymore,
Except in the goosebumps on my arms, on thinking of you,
Except in the tears that refuse to roll down,  much like you,
Except in the pages I've filled, with insufficient glorifications of you,
Except in my mind, where logic and thought have been replaced by you,
Except in my heart, that keeps me alive, but beats for you
I look for you,
All day long,
In places where you used to be,
But you elude,
And I find you,
*Only in me

Your absence from my life *****,
I've stopped making efforts that go in vain,
I've accepted that for you, there's nothing to gain,
But you were my calm in every storm,
You were the big bang, where my real journey began from,
You were all I aspired to be,
You were the only face I ever wanted to see,
You were the alpha and omega of all that I am,
You were the only one, with whom I'd share my bread and jam,
But you've severed all those ties,
And I've stopped believing my lies,
So we go on with our lives,
But,
Your absence from my life *****

I just had to get out of there,
She was too much,
She loved me, no doubt,
But we often hurt the ones we love,
In the very name of love,
I tried,
I tried hard to work myself around her ways,
'Cause I knew she meant well,
But the hurt was getting too much,
In my life that's out of control,
And what was worse,
I found myself comparing her to*  you
The only one I ever loved,
The only one who knew how to love  me,
*She was a friend,
But not that perfectly fit piece,
To fit the empty space in my jigsaw,
Taken away with you

Farewell, my love
I'm coming to question why you were sent into my monochrome life,
To fill it with breathtaking colours?
That eventually took my breath away -
Alas,
It's time to set you free,
It's time to set me free,
I can't say goodbye;
So farewell, my love

It It began with my broken, shaky, nervous words,
This friendship,
Then you made it a song,
My broken, shaky, nervous words have resurfaced,
But I guess only you know where that's coming from

Disparity is a sad thing,
While one kid is forced to eat,
Another is forced to find leftovers to fill his vacuum stomach,
While one refuses to study,
Another longs a book, or probably doesn't know what it is,
And this breaks my heart and makes me cry,
And I tell myself to stop being so ******* sensitive

Drawing answers from silence,
Where's the silent language of us?

And why can't these walls be pictures of you?

And why can't the air carry your fragrance?

And why can't music be notes of your laughter?

And why can't mirrors be your eyes?

And why can't food taste like your skin?

And why can't every touch be your embrace?

And why can't time be a long drive with you?

And why can't newspapers carry stories of you?

And why can't rains be a shower with you?

And why can't walks be conversations with you?

And why can't the world revolve around you, when mine already does.

I can only see the world from my perspective,
So please believe me when I look at you and say,
*It's a gorgeous view

You are mine
Not a posession
But mine - an *extension

The portions of your person, you think aren't nice,
They're the best of you, when looked through my eyes
It's a gamble opening up a heart so soon,
When the only thing we share, is the same sun and moon
Still I feel, it's worth taking a chance,
'Least we can do, is have a dance
I want to know everything about you at once,
And then I don't want to run out of things to know
Without even catching your hand,
How do I not want to let go?

Bathing in your sunshine,
I mistook myself for the moon,
I'm a sun too, with a blinding light of my own

So now, I declare a finality,
I am finally done.
Done trying to please you,
Done attempting to be part of your glorious life,
Done putting you before me.

But for all that you've shown me, beautiful angel,
I'll never be done with three things:
I'll never be done praying for you,
I'll never be done thinking about you,
I'll never be done wanting you.
In silence.

But to keep a morsel of myself intact,
And to grow it into all that I could be,
With you, I'm done

How are you?
I'm good. What about you?
Fantastic

How was your day?
Not so great. Yours?
Oh I've seen better

How's it going?
Pretty well actually, how about you?
Never better

Do you see?
I ask about you,
So that I know about me
And you thought you're being pathetic!

So it's over,
The time we had is gone,
Now we're over,
The time of my life is gone,
Stop it if you can?
Would it be a lot?
Maybe you already gave it all you've got,
Is it possible now?
Can it be back some how?
It's lost in the recesses of your memory,
A faint town of what we used to be,
Lost in the alleyways if this new address,
I guess it's over
The time we had is gone

No one has the same skin as you,
That rough yet soft texture,
The way the veins in your hands would surface,
When you held something gentle,
Or when you exerted force,

No one has the same touch as you,
When you shake hands,
Or when you touch a pimple and say,
"What's this?"
"You still look pretty as always"

No one has the same eyes,
That lit up when you laughed hard,
But always carried a weight in them,
Like the surface of the sea,
Hue-lit, but hiding a world beneath

No one has the same fat nose,
That gets fatter when you're angry,
And makes me want to pinch it
And then go for those boney cheeks

No one has the same smile,
That speaks many languages,
That comforts me, loves me,
Makes me weak in my knees,
Touches me, hurts me, trusts me,
And eventually... breaks me

Tell me now, that it'll be okay,
Tell me somehow, we'll find a way,
Tell me it isn't a one way street,
Tell me, please tell me, crossed roads will meet

If you want to say it,
Say it.
If you want to do it,
Do it.
If you want to be it,
Be it.
If you want to give it,
Give it.
If you want to write it,
Write it

Life's too short,
Shorter than your next breath,
Don't waste it
Take a minute,
Ponder,
If the world ended tonight,
Would you die a content being?,
If not, are you doing all that you can to change it?
Do it.
Everything else, is up to Him.
And if you're looking for a sign,
*Here it is.

I'm glad I met you,
As brief as our walks in each other's lives may have been,
I'm glad,
For at least my belief in goodness now has a face

The world around didn’t matter,
You didn’t matter; I didn't matter;

It was spinning around, noise,
It wasn’t clear, but it was
And it wasn’t clear what ‘it’ was

People were going about the motions,
Like these thoughts were not real

‘Can’t you hear them?’ I thought to myself
And I swear as I was thinking, I thought I heard you
I thought I heard you say, ‘I hear you’
But you didn’t. But it still feels like you did
But you didn't

It was spinning around, noise,
It wasn’t clear, but it was
And it wasn’t clear what ‘it’ was

The world around didn’t matter,
You didn’t matter; I didn’t matter

"What's wrong?", you ask
And as the world crumbles to dust,
All I manage is, "nothing, all good".

Take me in, take me in, sea
One with you, let me be
The loud silence we share is a sign,
I'm a wave, the shore isn't mine

The carcass was made to wait,
For nobody wanted to light the pyre

"Don't worry about me, I am not your problem"
Oh but darling, you are my *solution

This love you give me, I deserve not,
These hands you extend,  but I've never caught

You give your all,  I only seem to take,
You catch me when I fall, when you should just let me break

I'm a vacuum, I'll only pull you in more deep,
I'm nothing at all, for me, don't ever weep

As a wave lives for a moment, still causes a stir in the sea,
I'm a passing moment's laughter,  forever can't count on me

You think it's a storm, and I'll rise above some day,
But I'm its eye, I'm the black, not the grey

I'll make you debris, collateral damage is what they'll say,
Here's your out, leave me, I'm a monster, you shouldn't stay

Are you doing what I did?
Are you ignoring today,
Dreaming about a tomorrow,
That may never see the light of day?

I'd take a bullet for you,
So go ahead, shoot

To think of just yesterday
Too soon to become a **memory

There should be a day, dedicated to celebrate you,
A shrine, to give a place of solace to your devoted lovers,
A song, to glorify you with all the right notes, and lyrics befitting your magnificence
And most of all,
There should be a heart,
To hold yours,
In its splendour, and its devastation,
And that heart,
Should belong,
To me

Leave,
If you must
.
.
.

But return,
Before I'm dust

Loss was inevitable;
Yours or mine,
Was mine either way

You are a metaphor for me
Words are flashing before my eyes
Every book I read,
I find you in every character...
Yet when I fill pages about you,
not one makes sense

I'll be your lullaby, when your mind won't let you sleep,
I'll be your blanket, when you're cold,
I'll be your home, when you're homesick,
I'll be your mirror, when aren't sure what you look like,
I'll be your shadow, when you need a quiet presence,
I'll be your shoulder, when you want a minute to rest your head,
I'll be your map, when you feel lost,
I'll be your music, when you want to shut everything out,
I'll be your drug, when you want to let loose,
I'll be your cloak, when you feel naked,
I'll be your smile, when you can't remember how,
I'll be your jazz, when you want to jive,
I'll be your door, when you need an out,
I'll be your everything I can be, I'll be

****** upon you, my love
My love - you did not ask for it,
You did not want it,
Though, perhaps,
You did need it,
You did not accept it,
You wanted it to die,
You needed it to survive,
But you did not see,
My love had just one destination,
Denied of its destiny
- it got lost

You were holding yourself together with glue and tape,
I wanted to help,
So I foolishly flung a bucket of glue at you,
And then cried foul when you broke

You're testing my patience, you're testing my will,
You know I've fought hard, and I shall still  

I didn't question your motives, until I had no choice,
Why do you want to me to lose my faith, why don't you hear my voice?  

It's never been an equal world, there are ups and downs for all,
Had a share of highs, but lately into nothingness, it's a free fall  

Existence as a tree, is not what you could have possibly planned for me,
Then why am I a listless vacuum, with nothing pouring in or out of me  

If this is as good as it's gonna get, then take it away at once,
Keep those souls I love happy, And to see you, let me have a chance

I could taste your tongue,
You could smell my fears,
Why did we stop in days, baby?
This was to go on for years

Not all love is the same,
Not all love can be the same;
Understand what I mean when I say,
It's not that you haven't known love,
You just haven't known me

Can you not see -
That I'm not blind?

Dreams have deadlines,
Know when you missed one,
Then focus on the next

My dark, my light,
My star shining so bright,
My heaven, my hell,
My only prayer for a wishing well,
My smile, my tear,
My strength to overcome fear,
My silence, my song,
My right to every wrong,
My baby, my boy,
My highest and pure joy,
My life, my all,
My reason to stand tall,
Do me a favour - be okay