Chiseled the rock, over and over,
A beautiful sculpture was to emerge,
Patiently carved, with diligent hands,
Only not to hurt the natural design

Carefully worded,
An essay, a story of a warrior king,
With spellbound pen and captivated heart,
Only for words not to fall short

Beautifully composed, melodious song,
With brilliant lyrics and music alike,
To soothe a heart, and cure a mind,
Only for playing at the right volume

But the rock stopped giving up its chips,
The essay stopped making sense,
The song lost its melody,
All to 3 words - leave me alone

There is only so much I can do from the outside,
Your life is yours alone, as much as I'd like to think we share it,
We don't

You smile and laugh, put on a show,
Sometimes I laugh along,
That's the only chance you won't let me go

These barricades and fences,
Put up around your heart,
I can see through them!
But can't tear them apart

In a bulletproof vest,
I'll fight with you
And one day, a long time away,
We will see this through

Come on out,
We are friends
You've fought demons for so long,
Am I beginning to look like one?
You are a closed door,
With a terrified child inside,
I am a gentle knock,
A friend on the other side,
I'm begging you to let me in,
But you just continue to hide,
It's going to get darker, love,
The demons will eat you raw,
What will I do then?
Knowing I should have tried once more,
So you can scream and pant,
Throw all the hissy fits you can,
I'll be here

Do you know how much you mean to me?
You'd probably say you do,
Missing out on the variable of relativity,
Which makes you mean a little more to me everyday,
Baffling my own capability, my own sanity

*//Thought Whispers

I kept holding on; I was afraid of losing you
I'm letting go now; I'm afraid of losing me.

There's just one you for me,
There's just one me for you,
Hold on tight,
We'll see this through and through

On the menu tonight,
You have some,
You serve some

Tired of this person I've become,
Not what I intended to be
23 years of being her,
And look what it's done to me
A reflection of everyone that touches my heart,
With no true identity of my own,
A fruitless, strong barked, withered leaved tree,
Of seeds the grim reaper must have sown
I feel shallow, and vacant,
I feel old, but still nascent
With the Midas touch of crap,
I destroy everything I touch,
I appease the people I hate,
And hurt the ones I love much!
Careful where you stand,
Quicksand is potent here,
Make a decent life of yourself,
Don't let me come near

Exquisitely scented, beautifully petalled, long stemmed,
You shared them with me in all their glory,
I was in awe of their splendour
But then I noticed, they had thorns too,
Thorns which didn't reduce their beauty, rather made them real,
When I asked you about the thorns,
You hid your callused hands away,
And denied their existence,
You didn't want to lose the admiration of their beauty,
And I didn't want to overlook the reality of their thorns,
Meanwhile, the roses withered

The vagabond needed a place to rest,
Let it find some comfort,
*Don't become home

You have the most beautiful smile,
Breathtaking,
Especially that careless one,
When you think no one is watching,
But I've stolen a look,
There's no hunger or poverty in the world, for that moment, I swear
Time stands still,
The curve of your lip, and the glint in your eye,
Set everything in order

There's a deaf silence,
And traffic's passing sound
There's a loud noise inside,
And no one hears it around

There's a void,
And a gripping clench,
There's a weight on the chest,
And an unbearable stench

Is this that calm,
Before the proverbial storm?
Or is this the alpha and omega?
Where oblivion begins from

The creeping feeling,
Doesn't get shaken away,
The lighter moments are guests,
In moments they slip away

Take it away,
Take it away,
Take it all away now,
Take away the misery,
Or just tell me how

I love you in ways I did not know possible,
Not knowing from whence, why, or even whereto,
All I know is this; I love you
I will love you till there's a beat in this mortal heart,
And even after that,
I will love you regardless of reciprocation,
or lack thereof,
I will love you till time stops,
and until it begins again,
And I will love you

It's funny just today,
You asked me, "you're an expert in picking dark chocolate, right?"
I guess I am the master of everything bitter,
And to you, it is starting to show

Love you*  isn't something you say,
It's something you *do

A kiss for a every tear,
A hug for every fear,
A hand to hold always,
An iced tea for hot days,

I can't offer you the stars,
They wouldn't do much for your scars,
I can't promise everything will be okay,
But I assure you one thing - I will always stay

You moved something inside me,
Set it to the right place

I've come to think,
When you place someone on a pedestal,
And make them aware of it,
Even if they deserve it,
There's a burden you've placed on their shoulders,
A certain responsibility,
To live up to your idea of their being,
You stop them from being human,
Yes,
Placing people on pedestals
is an inhuman act

Maybe these desperate attempts to prove my love,
To prove I'm a friend,
To prove all that is true,
Have led you to believe the opposite;

Maybe it needed to be effortless,
To let the effortless conversation flow,
To let the effortless comfort of silence be,
To let the effortless love bloom

Pour all your hate over me,
Drench me in your angry showers,
Watch me dance in the rain,
Exhaust those dark clouds you've carried,
When you're done,
When the real storm comes,
From those heavy, vacant, beautiful eyes,
I'll be right here

A constant headache,
A perpetual frown,
I can't even hide it anymore,
Everything is going down
I keep quiet,
For fear the words will be acid,
Garbage thoughts in a swollen head,
Silent storms in waters placid,
A dry throat, an empty heart,
Deep in the abyss,
Far from the start
Take me in, devour me once and for all,
Shoot me, take away the pain,
Go ahead, please don't stall

Why do sad things attract you?
Why do you look for a problem to fix?
Is there a healer inside of you?
Or is it your asphyxia you want to fix?
The hungry child, the hurt horse,
All you're looking for, is a cause
Something to channel this hurt,
Something you are allowed to cure,
Something that makes you smile,
Something that gives you a day to live for
You're not doing anything wrong,
In fact you're righting a whole lot,
But what keeps your heart fighting,
Maybe you've ignored a blood clot
Give some love to yourself,
It's hard most days I know,
Your heart so full of affection,
Sometimes with nowhere to go,
But pull out that guitar,
Practice your chords and scales,
Figure out the colours another time,
Watch the mixed shades, inhale

It did not matter,
It does not matter,
It will not matter...

*Unless you make it matter to you

Gold has a high melting point,
It can take on a lot,
That's one of the reasons for its value,
You my love, with a heart of gold,
*Are put through all these trials,
Because of your stupendous resilience,
No, I am not happy about it either,
I'd rather have my strength tested,
And just because you can endure something,
You should not have to,
No, you should not,
But I cannot change this reality,
And I cannot ignore the fact,
That you have a survivorship record of 100%,
After everything that has been mercilessly thrown your way,
You stand tall, my gorgeous love
So I am placing my trust in you,
To win this battle,
And I will believe with every ounce of faith in me,
This is the last of the war,
Lasting happiness is on its way

You are,
Someone's uncle, someone's son, someone's brother, someone's friend,
I admire the dynamics of all that you are,
But all I want,
Is a glimpse,
Of that what you are,
**For you

You look at me with hope,
I look at you with disbelief,
That look in your eyes is the purest thing I've ever seen,
I want to cover you up in a blanket of love,
Guard you from everything bad,
Kiss your eyes and fix your scars,
But I find myself holding back,
For you're an angel,
And I'm not sure I deserve the honour of loving you...

I'm only human,
But that's only what you are too,
You hurt me as you're hurting yourself,
Two hurting humans, whose cure's each other too

My mind is in too many places right now,
Don't worry, you're with me in all of them.

May I tell you?
In all the inappropriate words,
How much you move me;
How your very existence,
Leaves me speechless;
How your smile,
Hides your dark, but lights up my world;
How I've made a home of you,
And I'm feeling homesick under this roof;
How you may have the most twisted life,
But I still feel the most uncluttered with you;
How you've become everything,
My sun, the force my world revolves around;
How every thought has an underlying thought of you;
How it has become impossible to deny the inevitable bond that you may sever, but I will always, always, always hold close,
As close as a heart and its heartbeat,
As close,
As we

Watching you sleep,
Makes me feel rested
If I had my way,
Instead of you, I'd be tested
The tribulations you face,
That shouldn't be part of your fate at all,
They're mine as much as yours,
- As much as you are my all
Your eyes need sleep,
Your mind needs some calm,
Your body needs touch,
And I need to be your balm
When you laugh,
It's those moments that make my day,
When you are momentarily all right,
When moments are not grey
They say you can live your entire life in one moment,
And in moments you can know it all,
You are my moment of clarity,
You, standing there, standing right there tall

I dreamt you last night,
And since I woke up,  
I've been trapped in that dream,
We were in a field,
Your head resting on lush green grass,
My head resting on you,
You were reading a book,
I was running my fingers through your hair,
For once, both at peace,
And I said, "come, let's go home",
And even in the dream,
You remained silent

Too pure to be touched,
Too fragile to be loved,
Too perfect to be desired,
Too good to be true
...**you

It seems I have forgotten what life was like without you,
I guess it wasn't very memorable
...until you came along

Am I that see through?
Do you always know what's running in my mind?
Do I smile too much?
Do you think that's all there is;
Whatever meets the eye is all there could be?
Is that what I think?
Am I questioning you to question me?
Is the world spinning around or am I?

A hole in the gut,
And a gut feeling,
Do you trust the apparently holy?

There will come a time,
Things won't seem so bad,
We'll share a laugh and a beer,
For every ounce of strength you've had

Let the light inside you shine bright,
Illuminating the darkness outside -
Which would otherwise consume you raw

All I'm feeling is sad,
All I want is you

It's funny,
This momentary sense of loneliness,
I push people away,
And miss them when they're gone,
Or is it just being with them that I miss?
But it's all the same,
A passing thought,
That's all, most everyone is,
Except you, constant

Don't tell me it's gonna be a good day,
Don't say that now,
Don't tell me to be happy,
And don't give me ideas how

Don't give me hope,
Don't sell my dreams to me,
Don't tell me it'll be alright,
And don't tell me you see

Don't tell me it could be worse,
Don't remind me of how it was,
Don't admire my strength,
And don't give my courage applause

Don't let me love you,
Don't make me hold on,
Don't make an oasis out of you,
And don't, please don't, be gone

My words spoke,
My actions spoke,
Deafness was your choice

You woke me up,
I was not asleep,
****! It was but a dream

12am
All these crazy thoughts,
Present through the day, just undistracted right now










And I hear you breathe, sleeping next to me,
And everything is okay

I'm tired,
Writing these lines,
Which rarely make sense,
Somehow helps, momentarily at the least,
But these thoughts, and this life,
Throw me a curve ball,
Every time they feel better,
Kodaline's lyrics,
Am I wasting my time, am I losing my mind?
Seem to have become the question of my life,
And this silence, makes it worse,
As I wonder,
*Does it make you feel better?

When they come for me,
They'll find me alone,
No lover, no friend, no mother,
Alone,
And I will rejoice,
To be in that state,
Unchained from clutches,
Memories erased,
I care not if you later remember,
And regret you didn't let me be,
You forced me to surrender,
Made a puppet of me,
No I won't care,
That you thought me a fool,
Label all you want,
Make yourself feel cool,
I've believed your lies,
And I've fought for you,
And the real **** up is,
I'd do it again too

I thought I could paint you a new picture,
Smiles, giggles, hugs and kisses,
I wanted a picture perfect life for you, with me,
For me, with you,
We've had those moments,
I am sure those were what they call ~heaven on earth~
And I love you, I do,
But day by day and everyday, my love,
I think, I feel, you'd be happier without me,
And I still want that picture perfect life,
For you, for you

And the sadness was so profound,
Such a part of my insides,
Such a weight over my chest,
That cutting off from the world wasn't an option,
But a necessity,
To keep this disease,
From spreading;
This unhealthy parasite of a feeling,
From eating up the people I loved
I'm sorry

Mind generated,
Mind boggling,
Mind numbing,

... Thoughts