At one moment in time,
You loved me,
I could feel it,
For this lifetime,
That will be enough,
For me

*For you,
I wish the whole world in all its glory,
Basking under your sunshine

There should be a day, dedicated to celebrate you,
A shrine, to give a place of solace to your devoted lovers,
A song, to glorify you with all the right notes, and lyrics befitting your magnificence
And most of all,
There should be a heart,
To hold yours,
In its splendour, and its devastation,
And that heart,
Should belong,
To me

Your absence from my life *****,
I've stopped making efforts that go in vain,
I've accepted that for you, there's nothing to gain,
But you were my calm in every storm,
You were the big bang, where my real journey began from,
You were all I aspired to be,
You were the only face I ever wanted to see,
You were the alpha and omega of all that I am,
You were the only one, with whom I'd share my bread and jam,
But you've severed all those ties,
And I've stopped believing my lies,
So we go on with our lives,
But,
Your absence from my life *****

I lost a friend and I lost a tooth,
The tooth had to go; the friend I couldn't lose
It was a wisdom tooth, with some decay,
It was a wise friendship, its strings began to fray,
The tooth couldn't be salvaged; the friendship stood a chance,
I chose to cut loose the tooth; cutting the friendship wasn't my stance
Like my tongue wiggles, at the place the tooth would be,
So mind tumbles, at all things my friend used to be

I don't know how to live without you,
I'm not saying it isn't possible,
I just don't know how

You came in quietly, no trumpets and drums,
But you made a stir, inside, where only silence lived,
I don't know how

You made me smile, you made me cry, happy tears too,
You made me believe, in goodness, in a mentality I thought had long gone,
I don't know how

You made my favourite song sound more melodious,
You wasted time, chasing cars, around our heads,
I don't know how

You told me some secrets, you began to let me in,
I messed it up, with glimpses of my filthy heart,
I don't know how

You showed me things, I'd already seen,
In a world, I thought only I was privy to,
I don't know how

You became an extension of me,
I became an extension of you, feeling your pain and happiness,
I don't know how

You made me believe we can be invincible,
From my strength, you became a strong weakness, but still a strength,
I don't know how

I should let you go,
I know we can't be,
I know it's ugly,
I know you care,
I know this life - is not one we can share,
But you gave me so much,
And I, just hurt you in return,
Sorry seems to be the hardest word,
And not nearly enough,
To sum up my love and repent

So all I say to myself,
I must live without you,
I must let you live too,
I just don't know how to live without you,
I'm not saying it isn't possible,
I just don't know how

I am not a winner,
Nor a failure,
I am neither a hypocrite,
Or a believer,
I am not a follower,
Nor a leader,
I am not a visionary,
Nor a prodigy,
I am neither normal,
Nor weird,
I am not a victim,
Nor a survivor,
I am not you,
And you certainly aren't i.
I am always,
In between,
Simply looking in,
From an exterior view,
With an analog mind,
In an automated world.