She waited for ages,
for anything, some sort of sign
even just a flashing on the screen
a spasmodic vibration
but the message never came.

She thought she caught a glimpse
once or twice, in those eyes--such an aloof blue--
of something more substantial
crimson passion in his vain
anything to cling to
before her foothold gave way.

She was always dreaming
Reading signs
in the irises
figments of pigment
to color her translation
telling quite a different story
weaving a web of delusion
of homespun lies
and illusion
that someone so
selfish
could even graze the surface
of the outer shell of selfless
what an improbable
farce
what a
fool
she was.

A wish like a whiff
The assertion of bone
A face like a cliff
Hollowed out, cut from stone

Cheeks reddend by rust
Eyes dampened by rain
As the layers of dust
Settle, hide the world's' pain

A wish like a whiff
The assertion of bone
Sing Sorrow a riff
You might feel less alone

When I'm with you
It's like old honey
in a glass jar
so slow and sunny

Molten golden
nature flowing
But still, I see
where this is going

I'm not the apple
of your eye
Fruit rots and dies
Once it has fallen
A busy bee
Must spread his pollen.

Without you.
I’ve stopped laughing.
even at my own jokes.

Without you.
i’ve stopped drinking.
i’ve no impulse.
to smoke.

Without you.
i don’t ever.
lay in the sun.

Without you.
i just.
don’t know how.
to have fun.

Without you.
there is.
no one.
to impress.

Without you.
i have.
no reason.
to get dressed.

Without you
i should.
think about.
other men.

But.

for some reason…
i only wish.
to be.
with you.
again.

When will I be enough
Am I not what you dream of?
You beast, you haunt my nightmares
Not that you would care
You say “kid, you’ll go far”
Then you cut off my legs
How can I walk on water
When I’m down under, drowning?
And still you keep on frowning…

You only hold me back
You ball and chain.