The first time i saw you, your stare lingered beneath
My mind went blank, it's as if i was recovered from the river Lethe
Eros and Ananke took the longest time on fashioning you
Apollo would befriend you because in my mind, you are the greatest view

To gain your love, i am willing to carry the world like Atlas
If you ask me, i will suffer the pits of Tatarus and come back to be your lass
I wouldn't mind staying with you in the island of Calypso
To be with you, i would face Charybdis and jump inside her tornado

Everytime you smile, it's as if the gates of Olympus open just for me
Your face will launch a thousand ships and i won't mind bringing my army
If i have no chance, my grief would reach the river Cocytus
And my heart would wander in the labyrinth of Daedalus

In the most confusing maze, you are my Ariadne string
You are the melody of the three muses when they sing
To get to your love how i wish i could be the goddess, Aphrodite
And maybe you can be Odysseus and i will be Penelope

With my kind of desire for you, Artemis and her hunters would never approve
If i am not for you, i would persuade Aphrodite and deny Cupid's reprove
Like Zeus and his lightning bolt, i can never leave your side
Poseidon's angry seas would compare to my feelings which will take long to subside

For your honor, i will fight like Hector of Troy
But like the giant, Typhon, someone will always destroy
Like Paris and Helen, we were doomed from the start
You are Cassandra and I, Apollo so you will never give me your heart

I am not Aphrodite, not Hestia, Helen and Hera
You can compare me to Circe, The Fates or even Medusa
Not as important as Hercules, Odysseus and Achilles
I might as well have a tea party with Achlys

No ship will be launched for my sake
In the garden of Hesperides, i am ignored even by a snake
In Olympus, you feast with the twelve goddesses and gods
Together with Hephaestus who was shunned, i share his odds.

I tell myself that i am lame -
for making you my aim,
'cause it would take a waiting game -
for you to say my name.

For weeks, i wonder, i search, i run away, i run
From what? Nobody knows, from who? Nobody but one
For weeks, i have lived with puns for fun
From searching for you, i said "I'm done"

For months, your smile, yours eyes are stapled in me,
The bothersome pain was replaced with your lovely sea.
For months, i swim in thoughts of you, you who had the key,
But what i did not notice is i'm drowning from foot to knee.

I never knew why you had and have me so strong
You occupy my words in every poetry and song
I am your bait, you have hooked every part of me for so long
And i no longer know whether you're fiction, you're real or just wrong.

Please do me a favor, run far away from my mind
My need for you is malignant, you are a strong kind.
My vision is always blurry, without you my vision is blind
Before, i need not search for you, now you are impossible to find.

Your mystery left me shattered from every bone to every cell
Why do i scream your name, why do i constantly yell?
What is it about you, what was your chosen spell?
You make me all ill and well, you make my chest go swell.

For so long a time, my mind should have left you encased underground
I would have forgotten you, you never made a sound
For so long a time, i should've ran forward 'cause you were no longer around
Whether you're a reality or a fiction, you do not want to be found.

If i could
i would sketch my intentions on a piece of string,
I would gently pull and pull until i run out of  fabric.
And that's how i could,
If i could,
I would write my thoughts on a dark wooden floor,
I would continue on to every corner until i run out of colour.
This, i never would,
But if i could,
I would ask you to take my brains out and write yours,
I'd rather you use a needle until I am nothing but a corpse.

Untie me now until you still can,
Release me from your arms like every other men.
You see, not I, not me, i can never be,
Ask my every mate, they would eventually agree.
Detach, let go, no one would know,
Let yourself be and I will just again, flow.
Your needs, i could ever not meet,
It's others at once you should greet.

Following a certain norm?
Might as well live eternally in a dorm.
If someone dictates your form,
Then there will be a never-ending storm

As irrational as it may seem,
Reality should be in line with my dream
Why should everybody swim following the stream?
And in one's lifetime, sewing the same seam?

Conform, conform, conform, that's what they suggest
Just merely hearing it brings horrible scars forming deep in my chest
Conform conform conform, wear it like your everyday vest
And you can be positive that you will be abundantly blessed

See, if everyone perfectly follows through,
Then they say you will be your most you
We can all be a part of the bigger contraption as a *****
And live the rest of our days like the animals in the zoo

Frustration is my biggest emotion
Because opposition is my only option
If I am alone in this perilous motion
Then in this mission i must offer my biggest devotion

Almost everybody desires change
But mostly their comfortable lives, they would not exchange
Nobody can really do anything in the same driving range
And almost a few are bold enough to act strange

Who am I to start, I don't know any better
But all i see in this world is an enormous continent of fetter
Each and everyone stand together
In different walks of life, writing the same letter

At times, my hopelessness gets the best of me
Most times I crave to be swayed by the sea
In the world that requires everything to come with a fee
All the time, I long so badly to break free

Being capable of nothing drives me completely ill
I do everything in my power for my mind to be chill
Personally I don't always go for something so swill
But whatever I can bring requires a universal skill

Reality is in fact, a tragic scene
Since everybody bows down to the queen
Stuck inside a perfectly molded screen
But who am I to talk, I am just a choice-less teen

A dive out of my senses,
I use the existence of defenses.
If the story is told differently,
I dive deeper away from sanity.
I read out loud and silently.
I dare not express intently.
Your spoken word and poetry,
Requires not my utmost honesty.
Alice fell down deep in the rabbit hole,
She speaks of wonders right through my soul.
If I wander away without attachment,
It is my complete form of detachment.
While I read and read, I escape.
All I hear are kittens about to scrape.
It is I and I alone,
In my throne of the unknown.
Stories travel, stories are heard,
But when I do, they're always blurred.
No spoken word, no story, no prose,
You don't stir me away, not even my toes.
Your stories and your unwritten book,
It wouldn't amount to the rabbit's outlook.
So as i delve deep and stay astray,
The trees, the sea, they never not pray.

Maybe it was the way the wind whispered its promise of cold,
Or the gaze of the moonlight that was to unfold,
I wasn't at all certain of what this night would bring,
Whether i would lose track of what has long been missing.
Definitely not in the way that the stars were indefinite,
Although the crickets were engrossed with the battle of wit.
As I wonder what is to come of the night so young,
I heard the ascending roar of what would find me wrong.

Aloft, I wonder,
Mindless, I saunter.
Restless are my feet,
But you walked on concrete.
Beneath our fair share,
There is nothing I shan't bear.
All may burn far-off,
You know only what to doff.
Awakened are the depth,
The downed, the deepened breath.
Though I refuse to walk bare,
You present your magnifying flare.



1.1.

You're my only mate indeed,
When nowhere's where I lead.
You are where I seem to run,
When I'm very far from the sun.
Your light is what I seem to grasp,
Excruciating death, I dearly clasp.
When you're the only thing that's left,
Inside, you always leave a cleft.
But what can I do tonight,
You're all I think is right.
My only mate would ****** me,
I doubt you'd take me slowly.
I'd run to you when I feel lost,
I doubt you come with no cost.
Whatever it is, I'd hold you close still,
Soon enough, you'd go for the ****.

One day,
Where could you be?
Anyone else, i still could not see.
One day,
You did not show up,
All i can think of is the emptiness of each cup.

Three days,
Any traces and bits of you, there is still no sign
My longing for you is potent, my longing is no longer benign.
Three days,
I see each friend of yours coming in and out,
I yearn for you to follow their consistent route

Seven days,
I try and try to really comprehend
Why i feel something you do not even send
Seven days,
I begin to notice them, the people we both know
I am starting something, i am starting to sow.

Ten days,
In my mind, things become clear
That it has come to life, my revenant fear.
Ten days,
I am in pursuit of my belongings you took with you
But do i really want them back? Or for you to get a clue.

Eleven days,
Where have you gone?
Was i just imagining you? Are you just a faun?
Eleven days,
Will you ever come back?
'Cause though they do not see, i see the walls start to crack

Weeks and weeks,
I tell myself hope is just a fancy lie
The last rhyme is frustrating, the last rhyme makes me cry.
Weeks and weeks,
Hope is a twisted but beautiful trick,
It shows you the light, it makes you feel sick.

I evade, I run, I scamper away
I never stay a day, avoiding dismay
Alone, at bay, I sway with gray
Alone, a castaway never becoming prey

Unbreakable walls, I built so high
To never cry nor sigh, or else I'll die
Alone, you pry, alone, you spy
In my walls, you fry and still, you try

With your strange ways, an odd lad you are
You are an uncanny star in this worldly war
I push you afar, you spring back, you're a radar
My scar, you spar with your bizarre guitar

Before, I swore to never restore
My door, I fastened, no one can explore
With the strength of a minotaur, you overbore
You know what's in store, you bore for more

Alone, i do not choose, alone, jointly with you
In perpetuity, it's you i choose, alone, us two
You and I, we construe, our thoughts so true
Alone with you is what i view, always, i will do

A

I step on stage
Take out my book,
Would one ever listen?
To my newer outlook.
I grab the microphone,
Scan the crowd,
Would the group in front even listen?
Imagine myself in a shroud.
I start my first phrase,
My temples start to sweat,
Would you ever listen?
I'd never reach the next set.
I step back.
You know what i'd do too well
Would i even listen?
To myself, i wont even sell.

Nothing, in my pages, is everything
Everything sums up to not a thing
Something bothersome is not nothing
Anything nothing is clearly something

Anyone fails to see all of these
Everybody's busy not noticing every wheeze
Nobody's putting not one at ease
Everybody's seemingly stuck in a freeze

Somebody please stop and focus on this nothing
Anybody please ask about everything
Cos everybody is nobody when it's something
But until then I feed everything with not a thing

Letters are my companion, words are my escape
Sentences never abandon, opinions are my shape
I am not enough for your compassion, my words are stuck in my nape
Words are my passion, without them, i will stand agape

I am lame is the name of this game,
Feelings are set aflame but i remain blind to this claim
Your words, i would acclaim, even if mine, i refuse to exclaim
Cause with every thing, i'd put a name when they are meant in a frame

You come along with your perfect explanations
You play my song with all your aspirations
I am always wrong, i am in need of medications
Maybe it's me, i prolong all of my revelations

My words, they fail me, my words are ******* in a knot
But my words are not a guarantee of what i think you thought
I'm sorry if you disagree that in a trap, my words have been caught
But you should know i'm stuck at sea without plans of being sought

Your words are my undoing, your words make me frail
Your passion, you keep tattooing, in my mind, my words are in jail
Continue with what you're doing and you will eventually prevail
Words take time, they need brewing, soon my passion, i will exhale.

Your words have reached every atom, in me, there is something you've convened
You have demanded a ransom, when my words has further careened
My words, i can't completely fathom when it combines with my fiend
Together with my residing phantom, with my words, they always intervene.

Days are countless, grains are boundless, With all the things i dare caress, they continually transgress.
Either love and above, with my glove I shove.
It is Aphrodite's dove I present thereof.

Everyday we pay rent to everyone, to every parent,
Needless to say what's apparent is for you I'm transparent.
In all the days, I raise my case,
My space is imperishably your place, I'll always lace.

In no day would I say that my time I would delay,
In no day would i weigh what others could portray.
Your way is what i'd pursue, I'd always construe.
No action would be untrue and in your *****, I'll angle anew.

Rest assured, every disease is automatically cured,
Days endured with you are days I am allured.
I rest in your eyes comprised of skies,
You authorize my demise with a million butterflies.

Your heat is my seat and I sit with retreat.
As you greet, you deplete what I could never defeat.
My days, I live, for the chance to percieve.
The world in your sleeve is what I'll achieve and believe.

It is without a doubt that my days are in drought,
When my day lacks what you're about, my existence is without.
Indeed, I plead that everyday I am in need,
In your speed is where I feed and I will forever succeed.

At the peak of midnyt,
I have caught sight
Of a surrounding fellow
With words he would bellow,
What a perfect nyt to make shallow,
To dive deep, not wallow.
Is there any other way, I ask,
Without these, no more mask.
I beg to differ is what i would utter,
Not you ever, nothing, i will mutter.
What a night of the forge,
Not I, you can scourge.
My peak of madness is what you seek
Before midnyt, I am meek.

1.8.

Fishes in the sea,
They said i'd find one for me.
But fishes in the sea,
No, they're not for me.
I could smell their stench,
Sitting on the tallest bench,
Fishes reek,
Therefore, not what i seek.
I am no fish, i swim differently,
They would always appear seemingly.
I am no fool for no fish,
Better things are what I wish.
I am not just a fish in an ocean,
No one but I could feel my motion.