It's not like I don't have friends
But for the first time in my life
I know for certain
I'm nobody's first pick
Or second
Or even third

I try my hardest to get involved
To join their conversations
And it does nothing

On this train
I hear their chatter
And I'm silent

I sit alone
Not because I chose to
The girl I sat next to moved away
She's giggling with someone else now
And I can hear their conversation

This is the longest train ride of my life

In my dreams
He picks me up
And spins me around
Before placing me down
And planting kisses
All over my face
With a grin

And in my dreams
My heart is satisfied
I am loved

In my life
Things aren’t the same
He doesn’t talk to me
And he’d never hold a girl that way

She hurts
And I can do nothing

My attempts only make it worse

I make it worse

We're so different

I can't understand her

And she isn't strong enough to tell me no

To tell me if she's upset

So she shuts herself away

Because it's easier to hide

Than confront

It's my fault anyway

I push too hard

I hope I don't lose her

I hope she hasn't lost herself

I stare at the spot you sat
Won’t you kiss me on the mouth
When you visited my house last year.
And love me like a sailor
My heart screamed with joy
And when you get a taste
Seeing you sit on my couch
Can you tell me what’s my flavor
Seeing you pet my dog
I don’t believe in God
I loved you so much more.
But I believe that you’re my savior
I’m no writer
My mom says that she’s worried
So in that moment
But I’m covered in His favor
I dedicated this song to you.
And when we’re getting *****
I hoped one day we could sing it together
I forget all that is wrong
And I could hold your face close to mine
I sleep so I can see you
Stare into your eyes knowing we were one.
’Cause I hate to wait so long
Sailor song; your song
I sleep so I can see you
Sailor song;
And I hate to wait so long
My favorite song

i’ll be so in love with someone
who hates my existence
and what keeps me going
is trying harder to fall out of love
because it’s their biggest wish