I’m alone,
I’m forgotten,
I’m standing behind.
I’m never in the middle,
Always lost on the side.
It’s like my friends don’t need me;
I’m their to fill space.
They use me then discard me,
And all my words go to waste.
I stay quiet now,
Becoming one with shadows.
They never wanted me,
So quietness is my only battle.
I’m forgotten, so i have also forgotten me.
I’ve lost myself to lonelinesses dark sea.
Now I’m alone surrounded by people
But they care so little for me,
So my thoughts have become bitter.
And I’ll stay quiet alone deep in this cold sea.

I’m scared
Of what others think
Of what will happen
When I think to deep
If I go down that rode
I’m scared I won’t be able to find home
I don’t want to know why
These emotions live with me
Because if I find the answer
Im scared I’ll drown there
Lost to my fears

Am I to quiet,
or am I to loud.
I can’t figure out,
whats going on all around.
I feel like I’ve been taken.
Surrounded in darkness.
Stuck and drowned.
I’m left in my mind,
and I can’t get out.

I hate talking,
and the public.
I’d prefer to be alone,
left in my room
to rot on my own.
People ask to go out,
and I say yes.
But instead wish to drown.
It’s not that I hate you,
I just hate social stuff.
I get nervous from a call,
and when I text
I always have to double check.
I can’t speak without wanting to leave,
and I always pray for a way out.
Please don’t speak to me.
It’s not that I hate you,
I just don’t like interacting.
I’m antisocial and fowl.

Every night,
I think back to the time.
When we were still friends,
and I miss our late nights,
but it got toxic.
And I got scared.
So I left,
and you screamed.
That was unfair.
I blamed you for a while,
but I realize it was me to.
I was so scared,
that I bailed,
and I wish
I could go back.
Because I miss you so much.
And every night I cry,
thinking of why,
I left you.
It all just happened,
in the blink of an eye.
I want to apologize.
And say I’m sorry.
I would ask you to forgive me,
but you wouldn’t anymore.
And I understand.
So instead ill just say I’m sorry,
for everything I’ve done.

Light meets dark
Inside my heart
Battle between
Right and wrong
I’m broken Into parts
Angel vs devil
I try to decide
But both dominate
And I’m left
To keep switching sides
The dark slowly wins
And I begin to wither
My heart grows old
And I become bitter
The dark has won
I have lost
Take me oh darkness
To the place of the lost

I’ve changed.
I’ve grew,
and not for the better.
I used to laugh.
But now I wither.
I lie in my room and stare at my ceiling.
I wish I was different,
but times have changed me.
I’m not the same.
I don’t smile, I cry.
And I’ll watch myself die.
Because I’ve been changed,
that’s life.
Always a different person inside.
Change exists, and I hate it.
Take me to 2019,
when I wasn’t hated.
Change change, and more change.
Nothings ever the same.
Grow up, go back.
Life’s insane.
Oh, how I hate change.