Used to be afraid.
Crowds were my nemesis.
In them now I hide.

You're cruel to me
Like chewing gum you spit out.
*** stuck to your sole.

A sob steals my breath
Like I'm in the last stages
In the throes of death

Since you left me
I have learned to cry again
I'd forgotten how.

A love for one's self.
I wish that for everyone.
Undoes damage done.

There's no hope for us.
We dance against the music.
Then the long drive home.

You ask for a dance
Music's gentle hands sway us
Move us in time.

No more can I dance
But I still feel the music
My soul can get down!

I am old fashioned
Like the feel of newspapers
Hand held moonlit walks

Online dating sites
Great for finding long term love
If not, sleep around

Trust is a hurdle
I've not been able to clear
Crippled by deceit.

All bad decisions.
Take a toll on mind and soul.
You dig your own hole.

I hate decisions
I don't think they're my strong suit
Can't make up my mind.

Hiding behind walls
If you look that's where I'll be
Honing my courage.

Deja Vu moments
Did I already write this
Deja Vu moment?

Politely I ask,
if I may please be excused,
from my own demise.

He's known to be charming
When he wants to be
But also a hand full
Because a drinker is he
His head full of demons.
They won't let him be
They haunt and torment him,
with a kind of sick glee
But I love him dearly
He's my only true love
No matter the consequences
And if push comes to shove
I'll hang on for dear life,
to this kind hearted man
I'll hold him when he screams
Hold him as tight as I can.

In desolation
I feel that's where my soul lies
It is my truth

I write to feel life
And all of its nuances
Then I embrace them.

I'm not depressed
I'm challenged by happiness
Can't feel my happy.

In a tug of war,
between confidence and doubt
Both disqualified.

From both sides I've seen
The divisive arguments
Nothing getting done.

So much division,
in this world that we call home
Neighbors all are we.

Dog and fire hydrant
Dog leaves his name and also,
forwarding address

I don't want to know
why love lets you paint the town
but won't take you home

I will give to you,
the benefit of the doubt
But I am jaded.

Doubting in myself
And cannot forgive myself,
for not forgiving.

When will be my day?
My future in disarray
Doubt steps in my way.

It's become quite clear,
that loves a gift rescinded
when doubts are a given

The dragon spits fire
Tired of its own breath it sighs ,
and burns down a town.

On dark days like these
When dreams seem out of your reach
Stretch a little more.

Where do your dreams stand
Possible or out of reach
That's where hope comes in

Dreams may extend
An olive branch to your soul
They may broker a deal

Dreams motivate us
They take life to the next step,
and add direction

What do dreams live in
Cinderella's Prince Charming
Snow White's wake up kiss.

Nearly drowning once
I'll never forget that day
Feeling so alone.

I really don't know
Whether I'm living this life,
or just existing.

I really don't know
Whether I live in this life
Or merely exist

Wasn't meant to be
That expression bothers me
Leaves nothing open
It relies too much on fate
And with that I don't agree.

If I closed my eyes
Or even died in my sleep
You I would still see.

A fair weather friend
Gives you no consistency
Trust comes to an end

I become stronger
when I am at my weakest point,
faith stretched and tested
It is like building new muscle.
Like they say no pain, no gain.

People can be fake
When you spend your smiles on me,
they're not counterfeit.

We are different
We are foreign languages
I'm fascinated.

Went for a fast food meal.
Told the kid behind the counter
I'd like the chicken and a large
green beans . He said the green beans
only come in small and medium.
I said okay I'd like the medium
He said we're out of green beans.

Life's journey mapped out
All movement choreographed
Fate claims a victim.

I struggle with fears
Fear of life, for whats to come.
Of a death unseen.

Please lend me an ear
Though you hold me close , please hear
When and why I fear.

I've watched you for years
Patiently waiting my turn,
to be your first love.