I struggle with fears
Fear of life, for whats to come.
Of a death unseen.

Please lend me an ear
Though you hold me close , please hear
When and why I fear.

I've watched you for years
Patiently waiting my turn,
to be your first love.

Tasted the tears of regret
Touched the softness of a newborns skin
Saw vices steal a man's life
Heard the sparrows song at dusk.
Smelled the rotting flesh of death.

What would happen if
Our eternal flame went out
Would you know me then?

When my sight grows dim
When my grasp on life is weak
Will you then forgive?

I cried my heart out
Just when I thought all was lost
I then found myself.

Freedom came hard
A stroke of the pen seals it
We the people thrive.

I have broken free
Of the tight constraints of me
So much more to be

Thinking for yourself
Straying from the status quo
Free in thought and mind

I can't find friends
Where could they possibly be?
Oh the weather's not fair
I wasn't thinking you see
I know they existed
In fantasy and myth
That gave me hope
And the trust that comes with
But my life has grown hard
I need them here now
I was there for them
But out they bow
But there are good folks
Didn't mean to knock them all
With you at your lowest points
They visit an call
I am just a skeptic
Experience has changed me
It's just my broken heart talking
Feel free to disagree.

You asked me my name
I answered hesitantly
I was just shy
On that we agree
You put in some work
To make me your friend
I was nervous and quiet
A smile you did lend
We talked for a while.
It was a start
You listened to every word
As I poured out my heart
Who knew where this would go
As we sat holding hands
A nice conversation
About our favorite bands
Now we've been married
For forever and a year
I knew from day one
That we would get here.

Love you my dear friend
Best wishes to you I send
Till the very end.

Gripped by frustration
Screaming into my pillow
gives me no release.

Coffin draped with pall
Dropped by bearer, took a roll
Mourners yell A**HOLE!

Old guy from St. Paul
Did steal a funeral pall
Used it as a tablecloth,but that's not all
Used it after nature's call
Oh good God the gall.

Used to bet my life
On when the sun rose and set
Moon gambles on me.

C'mon roll the dice
Watch your money disappear
Love is a crapshoot.

People who take lives
Life's gift reduced to the price
of the box it came in.

You think I don't see
I do notice your glances
Ashame, not at me.

I couldn't find the words
Gave most of them away
I'll give you a glance though
That's all that I can say.

You never loved me
The words l so longed to hear
You said them in jest
Now you say you've someone new
Go your way with you know who.

Your word's good as gold
What you want me to believe.
Tarnished though it be.

He kissed a girl hi.
Now she is waving goodbye,
to her ******* guy.

It may not be true
but I'm just sayin
when I commit to you
you go to playin
You make a fool of me
but also yourself
every woman you see
another book on the shelf
I've stuck with you
through thick and thin
but I am through
I'm packin it in
I hope you find
what you're lookin for
I'll do the same in kind
I'll not settle the score.

A drink in one hand,
cigarette in the other
Laughter on the way.

What lies before us
Roads twisting at every turn
All GPS down

Could be months or years
We all grieve differently
No right or wrong way

A child lives within
It needs proper nourishment
to turn back the time

I hold grudges
Where they're due
Hate to admit that
but it's so true.
As long as there's
breath in me,
there's a chance
to get even you see.

I am lost at sea
Navigation system down
I must use the stars
I see your face on each one.
Guiding me back to sunlight

The guilty pleasures
Extra chocolate or two
When just one will do.

We will fight for love
But then we also love to fight
No meeting halfway

Pills were on my tongue
Life still had great harmony
I didn't have the ear.

People won't tell you.
No words to express their hate.
Quietly you're shown.

Your voice, haunting
A dark forest in the night,
rooted in legend.

Hearts, made for breaking
Toys are made of emotions
Oh, how we love to play

Years have seen their last
Heartbreak comes on strong and fast
But the die is cast

I feel so left out
Feeling jealous and quite pained
Heartbreak is sustained

Where does heaven lie
It's in a baby's first cry
The first breath of life

I have my heroes.
Mine are different than yours.
Our respect the same.

These visions of you,
have become my safe haven
A vacation home.

How do the homeless,
get themselves up and ready,
to find a new home?

I've matured and grown up
Just enough for me to see
The monster and the liar
You have come to be
Lies and late nights away
Women at every door
You said that you loved me
But didn't know what for
Now I've met someone who cares
Who hangs on my every word
Warms me when I feel the cold
I know you think that's absurd
Maybe one day when you're alone
You'll look back on these years and see
I just wanted to be loved
With inherent honesty.
.

Dreams unrealized
The years rudely brushed past me
I'm empty of hope

May conflicts know peace
Darkness never touch the light
Hatred know loves warmth.

You're holding hostage
All your nightmares and your pain.
The ransom I'll pay.
So that you can move forward.
Live to greet another day.

No relief today
Sun feels Inches away
Pavements heat rises

.

Time has opened my mind
Door ajar to fresh new thoughts
Old ones unrefined
Thought all of humanity
Was cruel and unkind
Thought my heart was their target
Not how they're designed

Hummingbird feeding
Nectar sweet, hovering flight
A deep sleep at night.