My love for him felt displaced by time.
Like a long summer nap and waking
to find the sun freshly out in the sky.
Only that it wasn't. It was the same sun
in the sky before I slept, and the same one when I awoke at 19.58 pm.
Nothing was new. Instead all was steadfast. Lacking in the fluidity and spontaneousity that gave one the ability
to see into a man's soul through the twitching of his right eye.
It felt like a black wren's feather
caught in between two branches.
The proof that although I wanted to fly, I was held back by the familiarity of a place.
So I sit on this short hill in the twilight of my life and wonder what it would feel like to fly uninhibited in the morning sun.
Like a little girl's laughter in summer. Full of crescent moon tanborines and a head covered in a wreath of dried lavendar.