She said he was always staying
When everybody walked away
Now she is gone
And gone to soon
This bitter world had her convinced
that she was not good enough for us
Now instead of living
She lays in the ground
This wound is unable to be healed
I have to words left to say
Cause now she is with Jesus
And not with me

I am not the sun in your sky
or the stars in your night
I am not your umbrella when it rains
or your light when it's dark
I am not the one to pick you up when you fall
or the one to help you be stable
I am the one you forgot
I am the one you lost

The knife in my heart
Sings melodies of death
The world and I are so far apart
And with each jagged breath
The light from this world grows dimmer
I feel like I'm flying
I see a bright shimmer
I think that I'm dying
The blood form my bleeding heart
Is creating a majestic piece of art
Now is my time to leave
I'll see you later
I'm sorry if you grieve
But you deserve far greater

This week I cried a lot
I cried because I realized that I will never be able to hear you laugh again
So all I am left with is memories of the times we shared together
I still see you, but only in my mind
I can't ever see you in person again.
still I wish you a Happy Birthday
I love you and I miss you

When I take a good look at that house
I see pictures of people I've never seen before
I see medals I've never won
I see the peoples faces who call me daughter
But I have no idea who they are
I see my reflection but I don't know my name
I have no idea who I am
This house is full of memories
But these are not my memories
This is my past

"I promise that I love you"

You don't love me
You love the thought of love.
You fell in love with my face, my hair, my body.
All of which will fade.
I'll grow wrinkly and old
My hair will fall out
My body will age.

I fell in love with your soul...
You still managed to prove me wrong.
To show me that you weren't as loving as I though you were
You showed me that your entire personality was a lie
Terrible lies in a beautiful design

I'm standing neck deep in my sea of emotions
One more wave and I'll drown
One more hurricane and I'm gone

I often feel empty inside
And It feels like nothing has the ability to fill me
Almost like the sea without water
or the sky without clouds
I wait and I wait
for something that can help
But I still feel unimportant

Somehow life went on without you...

Imma live to fulfill our dreams
You just rest in piece
I'll see you in another life
♥️

I can hear it
In the back of my mind
The screaming for help
And no not just a scream of fear
It's a scream of ultimate terror
The worry if you'll wake up or not
It's a worry if you'll even have enough food do eat for the week
It's a survival game
And the ones who make it out alive
Have to deal with the aftermath
The constant breakdowns
The flashbacks
The panic
And the paranoid feelings
Always wondering why this had to happen
Feeling like nobody cares
And depression
So the ones who make it out of abuse alive
Now have to make it out of depression alive
The ones who made it out
Deal with even more than they should've

And then you get to thinking
What about the children with normal lives
Whose parents are still together
Who always have a meal in front of them
And have a roof over their heads

Why does abuse have to happen?
And then people say abuse made you stronger
When actually you made yourself strong.