Our candle burnt out
the flame is gone
Never once did we shout
But I let this pain go on
Our love was full of doubt
It left us hurt and drawn
I never should've said yes
Then I wouldn't've become a pawn
I never should've entered this mess
Our love deserved to be gone

Lately everything has been so much...and I can't take it.
I'm struggling

The only way out is through christ

"That's the thing about pain, It demands to be felt."
- John Green
The Fault In Our Stars

You told me I was all you'd ever need.
Was I though? Was I really if the second you got you moved on. You never looked back. You didn't care if I was about to die of pain. You never freaking cared. I hate you with everything inside of me. I hate you for breaking me when you knew how bad I was already broken. You knew everything. Even things that I wouldn't tell a soul and you used it to your advantage. You used it act like I needed to figure myself out. Maybe your right about that maybe I need to check my standards because you set the bar so low it touched hell. I cared about you, but not anymore. You changed the way I look at love and because of you lts hard for me to even tell someone that I love them. You are pathetic and I pity you for everything that you've done to me. In the end that still won't bother you though. It won't be enough to make you change. I hope that all the pain you caused me comes back and knocks you down. I hope that it's so much heartache that you question your ability to stand again. And I desperately hope that your heart breaks. Because we both know how idiotic you've been. but you won't admit to your faults. It wasn't until the end of our relationship when I found out how you truly felt. Everything I told you about my trauma you discarded like it was trash. You used it to hurt me worse. And if anybody wants to tell me I'm wrong and they have a problem with what I'm saying that's Their issue not mine. I hope that your new girlfriend comes to realize she's dating a little boy who hasn't matured. Who hasn't grown up enough to respect people. You need to get yourself in Check before someone does it for you. I promise that when that time comes your mommy won't be there for you to go running back to. So next time you wanna break a girls heart just because you know you can, rethink your decisions. You only think you've seen crazy, but I promise that this crazy can easily turn into insanity real quick.

Your free little bird
Fly away
go far from here
why must you stay
for it's cold and drear
your cage has been opened
yet you wish to never leave

I feel the same way

Everything shatters
It'll disappear
And float off in the wind

Remember that time
When you said that you loved me unconditionally?
You said that you would never leave me?
You lied.

If you ever should have to choose
choose what makes you happy

If ever you should have to leave
Leave with a purpose

If ever you should have to try
Do your best

If ever you should cry
Don't let anybody hear

If ever you're sad
Pray

I like to look for luck
I know that I need it
but the luck of the clovers
Is Imaginary
It simply just doesn't work
I have found enough in the time that I have been alive
For the "luck" to last me until I die
Believe it or not four leaf clovers
Do not hold luck
But looking for them gives you something to do
If only you can be patient enough to look for them.

My birthday is coming up
Yet I don't look forward to it
I don't because on that day
I'll be older than you ever were...

I hope you know I have been looking for you my whole life
I have been waiting for you to arrive
To come into my life and be my hero
And to love me as I am
I've been in love before
but our love will be everlasting
It will be better than I could ever imagine

I must not be okay
Because I saw you today
You were smiling so much
From ear to ear
I must be dreaming
because you're not actually alive
Your still gone

The overwhelming clouds above
Send rain and thunder
In a way it's like love
It makes us wonder

Here I am
Shattered and broken
But ready to be repaired...

I'm done trying to be kind to you, when you make me so angry

Womb
A new heart beating
A strong push in the belly
New life is starting
Birth
A beautiful thing
Such a love has came today
Now watch them grow big
Childhood
Innocent child
New to this amazing world
Growing strong and tall
Alive
I see the morning
Another day is coming
I am alive still
Death
When my time has come
Lay me on down in the ground
Allow me to rest
Heaven
See the streets of gold
Sing in the angels choir
Hear the trumpet sound
Eternity
To live forever
To smile in his presents
Now live with the lord

When Things don't go the way you wanted
You blame me
When you cry all night
You blame me
When we fight and you start to yell and scream
You blame me
You say it's all my fault
Maybe it is
Maybe it's my fault because I didn't leave sooner
And for that I blame myself

If you are only going to hurt me or say goodbye
Leave

If you cannot respect me
Why should I respect you?

I've reached the end
I'm done

Eventually everybody will know the name of Jesus
Either it be now or the day that he returns to take his people home
All will bow before the king.

Is there somebody out there who cares?
I feel so alone and I'm scared.
Please somebody help me.
I don't know what to do
I feel trapped.

Sometimes I feel so much
That I feel nothing at all
It's like I'm standing under a dark sky
staring at the ground
while the rain water soaks my clothes

To love is to leave
To smile is to frown
To give is to get
to laugh is to cry

should anyone love me?
do I deserved it?
Probably not

I saw you cry
I heard you weep
I smelled the rain
I touched the mud
I tasted the salt

I don't know what I want
I don't know exactly how I feel
I don't know what to do

All I know is I want you to be happy
I don't want to hurt you

I'm scared

I'm sorry that I'm always saying sorry
I feel like I need to apologize every time I've done something wrong
Even in times where I know I haven't done anything wrong
I still feel obligated to say sorry
So forgive me please

I miss you more than you know
One day you were here
The next you were gone
My Mom called me downstairs to tell me the news
As soon as she said you were gone
I didn't believe her
I thought that there was a mistake
It turns out they were right
You were gone
I cried because my heart broke
Every memory of us flashed into my head
You were my best friend
You still are
NOBODY can replace you EVER
I love you
You were like a sister to me
I remember crying so hard that my whole body ached for days
I should've called you that day
I wasn't there
I miss you
Why did you leave me?
Your gone now
I will never ever get to see you again
Now I have to live my entire life without you
So I play our song ( Not About Angels ) on repeat
And the intro to the song
Reminded me of your funeral
They played our song
It literally broke me
Even now I don't know If I will be okay

I'm not saying sorry
For something you did
I wont ever take the blame of you again
You broke me one to many times
Left my heart in pieces
I hate you and I hate her
I hate your Mom and your whole family

I sound petty
But that is nothing compared to what you did

Though you are gone
You're still my best friend
Happy birthday
It would've been your 16th
But you'll always be 15
I miss you
I'm going to go to your grave today
I have to much to tell you.

Never again will I get to see her face or hear her laugh.
Never again will I be able to sit by her and tell jokes just to make us laugh
She's gone
I miss her with everything inside of me
I didn't have enough time with her
She was my whole world
What do you do when your whole world crashes
Who do you call now
How do you live
Everything just feels like It's crumbling
Without her here I'm falling a part
I need her back
But there is no way to make the possible

Sometimes it's easier to cry
Then to tell you how I feel

Sometimes it's easier to lie
than to tell the truth

sometimes it's hard to smile
When all I want to do is sob

I realize that "sometimes"
is all the time

I'm sorry for leaving
But you know I couldn't've stayed

To a point we are all half alive
We live in a world full of deception
We had to learn how to thrive
with our different perception
We try to survive
But into the darkness we dive
we listen to the voices in our mind
That is what is unique about
Human kind

There is nobody for me
At least not for now
I'm honestly not ready
to Love someone again
After so much has happened
I want to be alone

I come lurking in the shadows. You may see me through the eyes of an abuser, thief, liar, murderer, you may even see me in your reflection. Most people run and hide from me, as if they are afraid . Yet I am nothing to be scared of. I will be your friend when your time comes. I will play for you a video tape. On that tape images your life will flash before your eyes. and you will see who the real monster is.

I only wish that death left no scars
However selfish that may be...
I don't want to feel this way after losing someone
Yet being full of pain only meant that you cared
I want to care, but I don't want to be left with nothing in the end.  

I feel so self centered and selfish

At night the sun sets
and the moon comes
It's like a lullaby
at night the song is sung to the young
and they fall asleep under the light of the moon

You have a choice
to stay or leave
Don't feel obligated to love me
You have a choice
I don't want you to feel like you have to stay
You are allowed to leave
I promise

Respect isn't given it's earned
The next time you think that I owe you something
Think again

I kept being too generous
You took that for granted
I kept giving
You kept taking
I gave my heart away to you
Then I took it back

I saw the sun rising
I also saw the sun set

Like every good day
It has to end

I cry every night
I cry until my eyes burn
I cry until all that is left is hollowness

Dear people on hello poetry
Do you think I should tell him I like him, or no
I really don't know if I should

Please I need advice

Rest my dear
fall into a slumber
mama's near
don't worry 'bout the thunder
I'll dry those tears
so rest my dear
I'll be right here
scaring all those monsters