Here I am
Shattered and broken
But ready to be repaired...

The only way out is through christ

Instead of leaning on my own understanding
I will turn to Christ

when I lay there in the ground
don't cry
don't wonder what you could've done
just don't

I don't want a celebration of life
or a funeral

I want someone to lay me 6 feel below
and pretend I never existed

the world was better before I came into it

I've lost so much
I've lost my Biological family to drugs
I've lost my best friend to suicide
I've lost myself
I've lost hope
I've lost everything that matters

Where's God now?
Now that my world is crumbling
And my hands are shaking

I keep thinking that I can make it
That I can be the first on in my Biological family to go to college
That I can do this...but what if I'm wrong?

What if I haven't proved them wrong
But I've showed them how much they were right?

I am nothing... I never will be

Honestly I don't know If I will make it...
I'm going to try, but what if trying isn't enough?
What if I do all I can, but I still sink into that hole in my chest
And people only start to care when I'm gone

If I take that knife or that gun
And I leave...

I'm done
Done with it all
The void in my heart
The hollowness in my chest
The fear in my mind
Can you just see
I'm done