She wasn't afraid of death
I learned that the hard way
She took that gun and she went
How could she leave me like this?
My best friend is gone

I thought we'd have forever
Forever wasn't an option
Not anymore

She tried before but was never successful
This time she was
and it literally broke me

Because now I stare at that empty seat next to me
Now I stare at a grave
the same grace my best friend is buried  
Because this world became too much

She took that gun and she went
How could she leave me like this?

Holding on is the same as letting go sometimes

You are holding on to somebody you had to let go of

Through the sidewalk cracks it grew
Like a beauty brand new
Through the days of despair
It could never compare
But the flowers were you
And the beauty was too

The day I found out you were gone
I instantly lost all motivation
I stopped caring about things
I stopped enjoying what I used to
I stopped because I was more worried about you
Then I was about myself

The wind's blowing fast
the seas are raging
The night is full of a watery blast
And the time is ageing
It's hard to leave you in the past
And still hold on
I wish I could go back
to when you weren't gone

Why do you pretend to like me
Then go behind my back?

Why do you act like you know everything?

Why do you choose other people over me all the time?

Why do you make me feel so small?

Why do you do half the things you do?

This week I cried a lot
I cried because I realized that I will never be able to hear you laugh again
So all I am left with is memories of the times we shared together
I still see you, but only in my mind
I can't ever see you in person again.
still I wish you a Happy Birthday
I love you and I miss you