dear universe,
please bring me a man who is smart, funny, kind, passionate, ****, romantic, wise, independent, and devoted
also thoughtful, creative, talented, open minded, grounded, active , forgiving, empathetic, and fun
must like dogs
thank you.

4/29/24

desire is an intoxicating pain
howling at the winter moon
he paces and stares at me hungrily
leashed and growling low
I approach timidly
as he presses towards me against restraint
and unclip
his collar

how many times do I have to apologize? he asked
well, she said
you could try once

I recently dreamt of my soul mate
     not one of those lovers, brothers, friends
     who follow one through the ages wrapped in karmic bonds
no, I dreamt my soul's true mate
it was a memory
he was a merman, strong and beautiful
I caught only a glimpse of him
before I was swept away into this life
he tried to follow me
we reached for each other
as the dimensions tangled into strange new realities,
our bond became distant and invisible
my awareness slipped gently away...

but I wonder
did he follow?
has he found me?
is this why I'm thinking of him now
as I gaze into your familiar eyes

the stars whispered to me about you
they sent me magnificent geometries to share
with my lips against your skin
our light ripples out across galaxies and timelines
where we loved well
many times before
they tell me this, but I don't remember
I just reach blindly into the shrouded mystery
of my future, expecting to find your hand
and it is there

you inspire me to be drunk
you inspire me to be sober
you inspire me

thank you

I wonder how he is now
that handsome troubled genius kid
who knew about bicameral dolphin brains

the world is full
of fantastically amazing people
just love