You play your part when your on show
As if nothing is out of place
Keeping a smile on your face
Everything normal to all who don’t know
But deep in your heart there is always a tear
That no one can ever see
Wishing all the time
That the show was the real deal .

Am i a piece of jewellery
He can put on or take off
Likes it when it suits him
Hides it when it's not
I should be wearing it
For all the world to see
But i feel i’m in the shadows
Where no one else can see.

When you walk on the beach
Take care where you tread
Hidden amongst the pebbles
Are hearts of crimson red

Hearts left by lovers
That eventually turned to stone
They couldn’t come together
So now lie here all alone

But when you do find one
Treat it will loving care
Because someone once left it
Thats why it was there

Beware the one’s who lie
The one’s who seldom smile
Beware the one’s  with no eye contact
The one’s that cannot look into yours
Beware the one’s who are never at fault
When you know its always theirs
Beware the one’s who don’t say the truth
Because they will always lie .

Everyones life is a book
It has a Beginning and an end
All the chapters are laid out in order
This is what we follow.
We don’t get to choose the beginning
We don’t get to choose the end
But we can change the order of living
Depending on who we befriend
I’ve changed some friends in the past
Sometimes you have to do
But you are my special one
And i will never let you go .

On a cold winters evening
Watching the fire burn
Listening to the fire crackle
Staring at the fire glow
You played a music soundtrack
Your hand caressed my face
Eyes made contact with mine
Your smile lit up the room
The music so soft and tender
The words still stay in my mind
My defences were dismantled
Our emotions controlled the night
My heart still burns crimson red .

A cry of help, one night i heard
A cry of fright , a friend in need
She cannot ask , afraid in shame
I do not judge , love her the same
My offer is hers , she has to claim
I do not judge and apportion blame
I hope we meet , my heart his hers
She needs my help , i’ll gladly give .

We all hold deep secrets
That never will be told
Too sensitive or intimate
Shrouded in a cloud
But as we get to know someone
You get that feeling
That somehow they understand
Does not matter how much we trust them
Those secrets will never be told .

How does he know my feelings
When i’ve told him nothing at all
Never told my secrets
Protected them , knows nothing at all
He cannot read minds
Doesn’t have a crystal ball
Yet it does  make me wonder
When he smiles snd looks into my eyes
Do hearts talk after all ?

Thought about it before
Talked about it to
Now maybe i need to
Don’t know what to do
Afraid to take the option
Damed if i do , damed if i don’t
I need to make my mind up
Give it a try , to give me a break
Maybe then i’ll understand
Exactly where i am
And exactly what i have to do .

When my life on earth is over
Don’t know where i will go
But i know my memories
Will be with you forever more
Memories of verses ,smiles and stary eyes
Chatting at the table, drinking glasses of wine
Lovely conversation like long lost friends
Hope you stay in contact ,
Don’t want this ever to  end.

Table for two with an empty chair
Wish you were here, not over there
One day luck will shine upon me
When you will sit across from me
In what is usually an empty chair .

Find me a Friday to sit by your side
Find me a Friday to look into your eyes
Find me a Friday to make you feel at ease
Find me a Friday to make you smile
Find me a Friday to listen to your voice
Find me a Friday to keep our friendship alive .

Can she forgive and forget
Living a lie , to turn back time
Living again in her bubble
Afraid it might happen again
But he might think , I got away with it
Take advantage again and again
Leaving her in the same place
With no love ,no caring just strain
She has to decide carefully
Weigh up all the pro’s and con’s
It’s not my place to tell her
That choice will always be hers .

I need to keep you positive
In these troubling times
Life has to take its course.
All i can do at the moment
Is to be your loyal friend.
Someone who understands what you are going through.
Keep faith in the ones you trust
Don't keep them in the void of silence
Don’t keep them out of the loop.
Because when this chapter of your life is over ,
And a new one about to start
You will lean on their friendship and love
To help you find your path.

I once planed my future
It didn’t go the way i those
Lost the love i lived for
Had to reset the rest of my life.
My heart took me on adventures
Some of which, i’m not proud
But in the end i mellowed
And finally settled down.
Now in my twilight , i recall it all
I finally got to realise
That my heart was always in control
So all i can say is this
Time will sort all out
Your heart will show you the way
And you will find what you search for .

Her heart so kind
Her mind so bright
Eyes like shinning stars
Personality so bubbly
Like champagne in a glass
A smile to brighten any day
And  a voice that charms my heart

Why are people so greedy
Why cant they be kind
Why do they worship money
When money cannot buy you friends
This is why i’m so wealthy
Loving friends i have
I may not have loads of money
But money will never buy the friends i have .

I should feel guilt but i don’t
Is it my heart keeping it out
Taking revenge because it was hurt
Or maybe it’s because my heart is so full of love
And wont let guilt play a part ?

My heart was hurt , lost all at sea
In a storm of emotion that no one could see
I had no choice but to find a sheltered cove
In s harbour of calm that protected me with her love .
Somewhere i could rest , and take time to recover
Before eventually i returned into the arms of another .

Her true emotions are hidden
Not revealing her true self
She chooses her words carefully
As not to cause offence
But one day she will find someone
Who opens up her heart
Then  she will understand
This is only the first part
Her heart will then tell her
Which way she has to go
Then she’ll take the  cautious step
On the path she has to follow .

Don’t keep your feelings hidden
Tell one’s you love the truth
Convey all your words of emotion
To strengthen the bond of trust
Your emotions are hidden
Due to memories of the past
But don’t let this ever stop you
Expressing words felt by your heart

I never told him words of emotion
But he says them all the time
I’ve never given him words of compliments
But he gives them all the time
I never asked for a smile
He always does  anyway
I never told my feelings
But he knew them all the time
I said i would never fully open up
But i have started to do
Do i take a leap of faith
And tell him the whole truth

Overthinking everything
Trying to work out all scenarios
Reaching different conclusions
My emotions on overload
How do i say what’s on my mind and in my heart
My little one’s heart is just the start
How will i explain i’ve got to leave
Will she understand or hate me
The truth i must say , for i love her so much
I hope when she grows up , she will forgive me .

I can not resist the temptation
Every time she contacts me on the phone
The tone of her voice seduces me
Knowing she is on her own
Saying no is not an option
An invitation i cannot refuse
We both understand the consequences
When i put my key in the door
The scene is set , the fire glows
Conversation finally comes to an end
Feelings and emotions
Take control of the situation
We both know where it ends

Don’t hide in the shadows
Don’t stay in silence
Reach out to friends
Ones who love you so dear
Talk to them, tell the truth
You will probably find
That they all want to help you
Help you find peace
Help you find closure
Wherever this ends
Don’t forget your friends.

I have to go
For how long i don't know
Will it be a weekend
Or a week that never ends
I have to clear my mind
And maybe  my heart
But i have to work it all out
I might have to go back to the start
Find a new love again
This time one with kindness
Afraid to decide ,scared of that future
Never felt this alone

I cannot let her go
I cannot let her down
When i needed someone
She stepped up to the line
Cared for me when i needed company
Loved me when I felt alone
Meets me when convenient
Hold’s me close when i need a hug
Now it’s one day at a time
Careful steps along the way
Now i stand with her ,as she did me
I cannot let her go

You opened your heart
Let me into your life
A leap of faith that took courage
Not easy , when you told your past
But now you are in the present
Looking to a new start
I am humbled that you chose me
To trust what you keep in your heart .

I need to talk to you
Please pick up your phone
I need you to forgive me
For all that i said
I need you to look to the future
And not to live in the past
I need you to feel wanted
And not to feel alone
I need you to feel appreciated
It’s what you thoroughly deserve
I need to make you smile
To brighten up our life
I need to say i love you
Each and every day
I need you to help me change
To be that better person
I need you now
More than i ever did .

We all wear a mask
That no one can see
Sometimes to hide emotions
That can change our personality
But if you look closely , at eyes in the mask
These tell a story , but also the truth
Making the mask irrelevant .

Sometimes we have to listen to our heart
And do what is right for ourselves
We cannot live other peoples lives
No matter who they are,
Or how much we love them
We owe it to ourselves to do what is best
Sometimes in our own interest
It’s not selfish, sometimes we have to learn
To love who we are
If you don’t love yourself
How can we learn to love others

We all have our lies
We all have our sins
But the past does not matter
So long as you’re in the life i’m in
I don’t care what you’ve done
I don’t  care what you have said
The only thing that matters
Is that your inside my head
My heart yearns for you
To tell me you love me
But the silence is deafening
Leading me to think
Am i only dreaming

Her youth lost in maturity
A choosing not of her own
Living life in a bubble
Now about to blow
Scared like a child of the past
Looking for someone to trust
Afraid to make a decision
Afraid it will happen again
This time it will be different
Her wisdom will play it’s part
Her choice is the correct one
Time will play it’s part .

Love can make you happy
Love can make you smile
Love can make you vulnerable
Love can make you cry
But when you meet your love
You won’t be vulnerable , and won’t  cry
But it will make you happy , and also make you smile 🙂

If you love someone more today
Than you did yesterday
Make sure you love them more
Tomorrow than you did today

Tell them you love them
Tell them you care
Tell them if they need you
You will always be there

Tell them ,otherwise if you don’t
they might never know

Sometimes we make decisions
That are totally out of character
Decisions made by our hearts
That don’t let our heads take part
Situations in normal times
That we would not entertain
But love has no compass
No direction or flow
Love will guide our hearts
Towards someone that will make all our emotions flow .

The sand is always shifting
The sea washes away my sins
A new year now revealing
Who knows what tomorrow brings
Love shows itself in so many ways
Never ceases to surprise me
I always keep an open mind
To the various ways love finds me

I know an angel sent you
To show kindness , like she once did.
To care and reassure me
With a smile to put me at ease.
Each time we meet your eyes project your affection,
That only angels can achieve
I hope you will stay around me,
Don’t unfold your wings,
Please don’t fly away.

When she came into my life
She also entered my heart
A beacon of love to help me
Whenever i need reassurance
A person of tranquility and calm
To guide me in troubled times
Her love she keeps in her heart
That radiates from beautiful eyes
I can never feel lonely
She’s always in my thoughts
Look forward to every time i see her
To a loving hug , and a beaming smile

We laid in each others arms
Talked about plans for tomorrow
Dreamt at night of the future
Nothing happened, but sorrow
Now I'm left with my memories
Of a love i miss every day
But life is forever changing
I had to move on with time
Some special days are hard
Especially for my broken heart .

I’m blessed to have friends around me
A circle of friendship and love
It gives me reassurance and peace
A circle of security and calm
It gives me the confidence to contact them
Whatever comes my way
Knowing if i cannot sort it
Collectively we will .

Today i returned with my flowers
To a place i go every year
Stand by a cold slab of stone
Read inscriptions and stand all alone .
But this year it was different
Remembered all that was good
Times of love and laughter
Of a young woman that kept me warm
My heart will never forget
Of a love i once held in my arms
Time does play it’s part in healing
But today only memories are left in my heart.

Eyes of brown , lips of pink
Hair of golden strands
Eyebrows dark in a curving arc
And a smile to light up the day
A loving heart and caring soul
Kindness in abundance
Special

My mind is divided by poetry
Between reality and what i create
Like living two separate lives
Always thinking two separate ways
It’s hard to sometimes explain it
People cannot understand
I am one single person  
With two sides to my thoughts
One is in the present
The other in a creative place
Where imagination and emotions
Present themselves as poetry on a page .

You came into my world
And opened up my heart
Many tears and time for reflection
Stopped me from falling apart
My heart was cleansed of shadows
You lit up emotions that for years were hid
Made me meet hearts,that now are new friends
Yours is top of my list

The spark creates the fire
Fire fuels the desire
Desire leads to passion
Passion creates the spark's
   It never ends

Head on my pillow
Cant get to sleep
Staring at the ceiling
Feeling my eyes weep
Tears of loneliness, tears of fear
Wandering what the future holds
Love left me , feeling alone
Yearning for company to keep me warm
I cant wait forever , but i have no choice
Love has to find me , fed up of listening to my own voice .

I don't have any photo’s
Only memories and dreams
Reminding me of a love
I once held close to me
My heart was on fire whenever she was near
My heart was her’s, her body enchanted me
Our bodies and souls we shared together
Cannot explain the bond we had
We just blended together
Never thought she would ever leave me
Wishing now , that time would have stood still.

Was she ever unfaithful
Cheated behind his back
Was this her way
To somehow pay him back
Partners can sense the change
No matter how they try to hide
Revenge relationships
Usually don’t end well.