When she came into my life
She also entered my heart
A beacon of love to help me
Whenever i need reassurance
A person of tranquility and calm
To guide me in troubled times
Her love she keeps in her heart
That radiates from beautiful eyes
I can never feel lonely
She’s always in my thoughts
Look forward to every time i see her
To a loving hug , and a beaming smile

We laid in each others arms
Talked about plans for tomorrow
Dreamt at night of the future
Nothing happened, but sorrow
Now I'm left with my memories
Of a love i miss every day
But life is forever changing
I had to move on with time
Some special days are hard
Especially for my broken heart .

I’m blessed to have friends around me
A circle of friendship and love
It gives me reassurance and peace
A circle of security and calm
It gives me the confidence to contact them
Whatever comes my way
Knowing if i cannot sort it
Collectively we will .

Today i returned with my flowers
To a place i go every year
Stand by a cold slab of stone
Read inscriptions and stand all alone .
But this year it was different
Remembered all that was good
Times of love and laughter
Of a young woman that kept me warm
My heart will never forget
Of a love i once held in my arms
Time does play it’s part in healing
But today only memories are left in my heart.

Eyes of brown , lips of pink
Hair of golden strands
Eyebrows dark in a curving arc
And a smile to light up the day
A loving heart and caring soul
Kindness in abundance
Special

I have pictures in my memory
Just like the pictures on the wall
That remind me of a time
When i was happy
Could not fault it at all
But now i ask the questions
What happened to the days of laughter?
What happened to the nights of love ?
Will they ever return to revisit me
And once again put love
In the forefront of my mind .

My mind is divided by poetry
Between reality and what i create
Like living two separate lives
Always thinking two separate ways
It’s hard to sometimes explain it
People cannot understand
I am one single person  
With two sides to my thoughts
One is in the present
The other in a creative place
Where imagination and emotions
Present themselves as poetry on a page .

My reservoir of tears
Ran dry many years ago
A time i cannot forget
But since i got to know you
My eyes again started to tear
They do not shed tears for me
They shed tears for you
Now i tear in laughter
When you say funny things
These are tears of happiness  
That warm my heart within.

You came into my world
And opened up my heart
Many tears and time for reflection
Stopped me from falling apart
My heart was cleansed of shadows
You lit up emotions that for years were hid
Made me meet hearts,that now are new friends
Yours is top of my list

The spark creates the fire
Fire fuels the desire
Desire leads to passion
Passion creates the spark's
   It never ends

Head on my pillow
Cant get to sleep
Staring at the ceiling
Feeling my eyes weep
Tears of loneliness, tears of fear
Wandering what the future holds
Love left me , feeling alone
Yearning for company to keep me warm
I cant wait forever , but i have no choice
Love has to find me , fed up of listening to my own voice .

I don't have any photo’s
Only memories and dreams
Reminding me of a love
I once held close to me
My heart was on fire whenever she was near
My heart was her’s, her body enchanted me
Our bodies and souls we shared together
Cannot explain the bond we had
We just blended together
Never thought she would ever leave me
Wishing now , that time would have stood still.

Was she ever unfaithful
Cheated behind his back
Was this her way
To somehow pay him back
Partners can sense the change
No matter how they try to hide
Revenge relationships
Usually don’t end well.

Even though i read your words
It’s not the same as reading your eyes
When i can sit and listen to you speak
Knowing full well you tell no lies
Feelings you hide well behind a wall of words
But your wall is made of glass
Words mean nothing when i see it all
Told in your beautiful eyes .

Your smile never changes
Your eyes always shine
I hope you see the same reflected in mine
Time changes all of us
Not something we can stop
But our friendship stays the same
No matter who , no matter what.

Lying in bed
Fearful and lonely
Staring into the dark
Tears in her eyes
And a rift in her heart
A future uncertain
Unsure what to do
Seeking help from anyone
Even friends on her phone
But she has to consider
The best action to take
Only she knows if it’s all too late.

Why do i feel penned in
When there is no cage
No bars to stop me
No one to watch over me
I need to be free , breath the air
Not sure what to do
But my heart will show me
Maybe to somewhere where skies are blue
No dark clouds to follow me
With no emotional doors to hinder me
To a place where i can feel loved
Somewhere i can  feel free .

Do not retreat into the shadows
Stay out in the bright sunlight
Bask in the light of new friendships
Eventually all will turn out alright.
Time will be a factor , time always is.
I know your heart at the moment is saddened
Believe me warmth will re-enter your heart.
One day someone will enter your life
Who you cannot get out of your mind
One who will care and love you ,
And will be thoughtful and absolutely kind .

Some say that they love you
But really don’t mean it at all
Others that show their love for you
Do mot have to say anything at all .

I hear it in her voice every time we get to talk
I see it in her eyes every time she looks  into mine
I see it in her smile that gets even broader
I sense it in her heart that beats even faster
I feel in her body every time  she gives me a hug
Love is an emotion that cannot lie
Her love so strong , brings tears to my eyes .

Some live a life of silent tears
But they seldom get shown
Hidden in a heart of sorrow
Wishing for a better tomorrow
Their eyes tell a story
That their lips  cannot say in words
Feelings and emotions hidden
Until someone enters their heart
Words then flow from eager lips
Feelings have to be told
To a friend that sits beside them
A friend , they welcomed into their heart .

Eyes convey more than words can say
Eyes are gateways to everyones soul
Eyes show emotion , good or bad
Eyes display passion more than words can say
Glare or sparkle ,it does not matter
For the love shown in our eyes
Displays all that counts in our lives .

How does he know my feelings
When i’ve told him nothing at all
Never said my secrets
Protected them , knows nothing about them at all.
He cannot read minds , doesn’t have a crystal ball
Yet it does make me wonder
When he smiles and looks into my eyes
Do hearts talk after all ?

Last night i shed tears
Not for me , but for you
I felt your struggle
I felt the pain
But crying is not a weakness
It’s just an emotional release
A way my heart chooses
To display how it feels

We sat in the glow of the fire
Talked about now and our past
Drank red wine by the glassful
Occasionally made ourselves laugh.
But dawn came too quickly
Sun shone in a curtain of light
I understood the consequences
Of making love in the warm fire glow .
But i cannot change what happened
Not something i want to do
For i cannot let go of my feelings
That the night  made me go through .

When i became a father
I was gifted a set of skills
A gift of love and kindness
That only fathers bring
But something draws me towards you
This never happened to me before
It’s like a magnet drawing me closer
To help you like one of my own
I don't know your past
Always said i would never ask
Maybe one day you will tell me
Why this magnetism works?

The greatest gift you can ever give or receive is love
When you  give it make sure it is always true
And  when you receive it treat it with tender care
Because the one that gave it holds your heart so dear

We all have a front , some even a mask
To shield ourselves from the past
To put across false impressions
While hiding the truth .
Some day someone will enter your life and your heart
Then that will be the beginning
Of understanding , and hopefully unveiling
A lovely person that hides behind your mask.

When i met a young woman
Little did i know
All the love and affection
To me , one day she would show
But now she is in a hard place
My help i will gladly give
I surrender all my kindness and love to her
To help her find her way
I want her to find love in the future
To get her life back on track
I will always stand by her
Until she gets warmth back in her heart.

Every time i saw  you
You always gave  me your smile
Now your in a tough place
The smiles are hard to find
So now i give you mine
Because no one is more deserving
Than a friend who doesn’t feel like smiling

We live in a sea of emotion
That ebbs and flows with the tide
The people we meet are the currents
That carry us on waves for the ride .

Trauma leaves a mark
That cannot be erased
Stays with you forever
Something not to be praised
But time is a healer
The memory with time fades
You cannot forget
What caused that trauma
That made that imprint
Which stays in your mind

I know sometimes you lie
Or are economical with the truth
You use it to disguise your feelings
Years spent behind your mask
A mask thats done you well
Did it all that no one could see
Until i stepped into your world
Kindness got the better of you
Then your true self finally emerged
Your mask then rendered irrelevant

Two x’s  on their own
To some don’t mean a lot
But i have always used them
Since a time i cannot forget .
I’m careful who receives  them
They have to be special to me
You will always receive them
Because your friendship means so much to me .

You play your part when your on show
As if nothing is out of place
Always with a lovely smile on your face
Behaving normal to all who don’t know
But deep in your heart there is always a tear
That no one can ever see,
Wishing all the time
That the show was the real deal.