Kanna, I forgot my tiredness and disdain for life when I saw your rediant face.

Your desire to live a long life stems from a desire to leave an indelible mark on history, for otherwise, like an ant crushed to death by an unrepentant human, your insignificant life will be forgotten by all.

I let myself be recognized more for my failures to seize opportunities for personal gain by doing things that my betinoirs wanted me to do, which benefited them and a large number of others, than for not doing things that benefited no one.

So many poems
and stories
have gone unwritten
due to fear of not being good enough

With your dream of a family, children, and a happy home, you defused my exploding dreams.

I fell for it because it seemed within my grasp.

Your eyes focussed only on sweet things that life had on offer. It was no surprise when Ants emerged from your eyes as they were on a sweet trail.

For decades, I lived as a human being with a large group of humans without social symbols, utterly unaware of the presence of several social guiding forces.

These guiding forces have now imprinted social symbols on us.

It has driven all the group members apart.

I don't know whether this  is reality or illusion?

You came into my life as a cool breeze, but quickly turned into a headwind, halting my progress. I've now turned into a tailwind for you.

I'm not as smart as you are, but I'm not a knucklehead to believe it all of the time.