the fact that I can is the reason I won't

Beyond the coffee
night
Polluted by too much
but it's alright
My mind calls to the sky

I see

I try

The passage is
uneasy
Plagued by those
trying to change me
Lost in my demise

I see

I try

My task is
futile
To build my hopes
am I in denial
Burning lifestyle
Why do I continue
Because

I see

I try

The streets are uneasy at this time
When the twilight separates the day
Party goers , lonely wanderers, the disturbed
And yet
As the darkness fades
All takes on a new perspective

The real disappears and the routine begins once more
Uniformed of mind take their places in the daily experience  
Isolated beings for the sake of repetition and familiarity
Weak every day through the months and years
Until
All stops

Those in the shadows prefer the unknown and unexpected
The challenge of survival without a  fragile safety net
For it all ends for all
How we reach that point depends on our perception of a life lived

Given freely
Used honestly
Returned joyfully

Sometimes it's the only way to make sense of the world

Sometimes it's the only way to make sense of the world

gloomy  
early rise
day unseen until 8.00

break fast
cafe on corner
feel flat

open door to leave
damp air
no view

walk in rain
grey clouds hide
high above

the sun light is clear