Layed down, brick, by brick, by brick.
Walls put up stone, after stone.
The unwelcome thoughts stay away.
But they come rushing back in like a wave on a beach
The weak barricade that had built falls.
The tears stream down my flushed cheeks.
Life goes on, but it’s not the same.
My friends all taken away.
For the first time the door is locked
My vision is blurred,
Black splotches dot the pillow.
The walls go back up stone, by stone.
Brick, by brick.
Stuck in a repetitive sequence.

breathe in and out I say to myself
What used to scare me does not anymore
The things that made me shyly smile now send tears of immense joy
Joy…. joy
A word I must learn to love
Its the feeling of knowing that life begins again
It is loving that the normalcy of life is just around the corner
The time of anxiety and depression all to slowly fade away
As i draw nearer and nearer to ozark, to Goodman, to room 319, to life
Breathe in and out brave girl
You have been brave on your own and in community
On your own it was hard; however, that time is ending
Breathe in and out your almost to the beginning
Joy and life, the two things you have yearned for,
It is now time to break the toxic cycle you started
Let the fresh air back in, remind yourself that you are in charge
Breathe in and out i tell you