When I was little
The world felt so big,
And I so small.
But now, I am older
The world feels small
And I even smaller

I have come to realize
That everyone
Good or bad
Rich or poor
Young or old
lives in a hell of their own

You are a lie
Though beautiful,
A beautiful lie is still a lie

"You thought I was dead,
But I still live upstairs.
Inside your heart I will be,
Still alive
Still alive!"

And so it starts again,
The deviation of my hopes.
From light to darkness.
They take, take and take.
With no remorse.
They cause me pain,
And act ignorant to their actions.
Like flies chasing dirt,
They follow without reason.
Never letting me have what I chose
Or even giving me the chance to.
To find happiness, peace
And love
Suffocating me in the cruel cycle that is pain.

Fragile like glass,
Tender as rain .
Beautiful like sunset,
Graceful as the Swan.
Her smile can heal the sick,
If the diseased is me.
But there's distance between us,
At least 10 feets.
A mountain to climb,
Up here in my mind.
My wings are damp,
And my leg are tired.
I cannot fly,
Neither can I run.
So would you help me up,
Close the distance as you walk.
Stretch your hand and take my heart.

Her eyes like stars staring through my soul,
Her lips painted purple, moves with angelic grace.
Her fingers gifts created by the gods,
A figure from my dreams.
Her voice though unheard by me,
I know it's the definition of beauty
What is her name?
Will I ever know
Will I be courageous enough,
To ask.
Or will I live with this regret for the rest of my life
Will her fragile and delicate frame
Hunt my dream
I do not know,
I really do want to talk
But I can't.
Cause she'll be the one that got away
Even before she came,
Close to me.

Every emotion I feel,
I feel it for you.
Every word I write,
I write it for you.
Though the 'you' changes,
Every once in a while,
The emotions are still the same.
A repeating cycle
That will never ever end.
That is you

I died.
I faded.
Like a dream, forgotten after wake.
I lost myself and you lost me too
Non-existent to you
To myself a ghost
I died.
But still I live,
Waiting to be revived.
Ignorant to the changes around me
A jaded memory, A forgotten name
I died.
Inside and out.

I need pain
I need joy
I need something
I don't care which
To make my empty life meaningful.
I need love, again
Even if it kills me.
I don't want to feel alone, empty.
I need something
Or someone
I just don't know, yet,
If it's you.

I remember it like yesterday
Her wonderful smile
That hid her lies
The way she hugged me
Her arms wrapped around me
The way her lips felt on mine
The way she made my heart dance
She was beautiful
She was my all
An angel with a soft spot
For pitiful men like me

Winters rain heavy and cold
Terra form my liver and soul
Winters rain so heavy above
I warm myself with love from you
Though wind blows wet and cold
Freezes a man and turns to stone
Though cold wind blows at night
Love from you is the greatest light

You tell my friends that I am cruel
You say that I betrayed you
You say that you loved me
You say that you cared
But we both know the truth
That you covered with lies
Still it doesn't change the fact
That I am the villain in everyone's eyes
That I am trash
And you are gold
That I am evil
And you, good.

She held my hand
Her touch was warm
She looked into my eyes
And hers were deep
I felt lost
My throat dry
Words ran away
I was paralyzed
When I finally gained courage
To say the words
She left me
Before I had reached her

You claim to be righteous
Yet you mock my pain
You claim to be good
Yet you let me starve
You call me evil
Yet you do what I do
You are disgusted by my joy
And wonder why I make you suffer
We are both humans
Who will do anything to survive