If I cried, would it hurt less?
If I screamed to the top of my lungs,
Would the pain disappear?
Back and forth it's become a norm
Don't I deserve a chance at happiness?
Go through it all over again
Just with different people
And in different forms
Philia, Storge and always returned Ludus and Eros.
The disappointment and disgrace
All could never measure to the suffering
Why is it so easy for you?
Why do I have this heart?
Why trust when you fall for the same trap?
Above all,
Why don't I have the voice,
The strength to screech
Why does even the thought fail me?
All I want is to cut my chest open
And release the tear logged heart caged within

You look straight in my eyes
I get an uncomfortable and sweet warmth
My cheeks toughen up and pull back
My lips betray me
As they stretch into a smile

Your love runs on a different path
Every word you say  excites my being
My soul slowly grows
You thread on spiritual sexiness
I was attracted to your cover,
But within, I found soulfood

Many have made me consious of my beauty,
But you spent so much time complimenting my soul,
Praising my aura and slowly adding on to a cup I thought was full
The love you give is better than a fairytale.

I'm not a pretty princess and you're not a prince charming.
I'm a flower, and you a garderner
You love my fragrance, you love my beauty,
But unlike many, you don't pick me
You don't want to make something out of me
You know I'm better off in nature than part of a bouquet or perfume
You water me daily
Throughout seasons
When I wither, blossom, you love me still
Your love scares me