Latitisha Hendricks

Latitisha Hendricks Jul 2020

I lay my open hands before thee
My dear, and sovereign God
I place my feet before thee
With nowhere else to run
Not hiding from my pain anymore
I cry out my sorrows and anger
For now my broken, calloused heart
Is unnoticeable, even to me
I know the scriptures and all of your names, it's not hard to believe
For all the times you've been there
I was constantly being deceived
My mind, my body, and my soul
They ache painfully to be renewed
But I must make a real-life changing choice to give my life to you
I have wronged so many times and done the unknown
But you know all of my ***** secrets, Lord and yet you keep me here
Safe, and blessed beyond measures
And yet I am met with this great fear
A fear of not knowing where I am going when I depart from this earth
Fear of losing my life, to some ingrateful ****
A fear I can only hold, as a reminder of what's next
To leave this world as I found it, only at it's best
To give, to share, and testify, my love for Christ does not rest
And even when I'm gone and no longer here, I hope that some remember
How faithfully I surrendered

Latitisha Hendricks Jul 2020

Catch Me If You Can

Catch me if you can
Quick to release true demands
Often trying too hard to be fast
Leaving an awful residue of my past

Catch me if you can
Washing down acid filled-ignorance
Tainted by the worlds' influence, a trendsetting thrill

Catch me if you can
Riding the backs of others
Being entangled in knots of mass lovers

Catch me if you can
The bliss of my first kiss
Fear of truly being missed
No ordinary feeling, walking on distant promises

Catch me if you can
Leave my shades, pulled down
To cast away the ugly clowns(dark clouds)
To dream of days when I am not down

Latitisha Hendricks Jul 2020

First Night Home

Love at first sight, their eyes so bright
Lit up a room, like candles in the night
In awe of their sweet smiles and tiny feet
They sleep close to our chest remembering every heart-beat
Long days and shorter nights, we get no sleep
Up and around the clock they continue to eat
Trials and error of lost appetites
Singing soothing lullabies to calm them thru the night
Finally, hope for those with no sleep
Lying in the hallway for a quiet retreat
The baby wore them down and tired them out
The grand introduction of what parenting is all about

Latitisha Hendricks Jul 2020

My Bears

Not all bears are brown
Some are white with black button noses
And some are grey with brown button noses
Others are an assortment of greys, blues, and yellows, like the rainbow
My bear is brown, with a brown button nose
He has brown eyes and fuzzy hair
I love my bear so much, that now I have two more
My bears are soft and cute
They have smiles in their eyes
My first bear wears a grey suit, with tied, black shoes
He is so classy and cool
My second bear wears a sailor suit, with a matching hat
And my third bear, I dress him in beachwear, because he loves the sun
All of my bears are special to me and give me hugs and kisses whenever I need them
But most of all, what I love about my bears, is that they are brown just like their momma bear

Latitisha Hendricks Jul 2020

Love Come Down

I loved him so much, I gave him my heart
Torn and abused, we fell apart
Lost in sorrows, pain, and fear
Growing, fighting, loving year after year,
I became depressed and lost control
My life was in shambles, and so was my soul
I took a leave to clear my head, get out the house,
get out the car, get out of my bed
Lost for words, I don't know what to say or do, all I know is that I really miss you
I want to text you or call you right now, but I know that I have got something better to do
It's me, myself and I, that I want back, nothing you can give me can ever touch that
We've seen the ups and downs of a relationship, now it's time for us to really live
Give up those secrets, lies, and bad decisions, all that stuff in the past, we should have forgiven
I lost myself in trying to be your girl when all along I just wanted to be in your world
The love isn't lost, it's just on a break
Taking time away from the drama that sometimes we create
I want to be with someone that knows how to treat me
Loves me just as I am with all my beauty and flaws
No time for Mr. Right, I will take the one in the back leaning against the wall
I like a real brother, who will catch me if I fall and leave me a message just because he missed me
I know it sounds unreal, but it's the simple things that we're missing and need

Latitisha Hendricks Jul 2020

Start Anew

Wash yourself of all the dirt and pain he caused you
That runs through your veins and out your toes
Long glances into a mirror and remembering who you are
The trials and errors of love lasted too long
Your head is grey, with strands of golden promises in between
Hands folded and weathered and your legs no longer strong
For when he became a part of you, he took all the beauty
Now my beauty lies only in my memories, my past is but a dream
Covered in soft, chenille blankets that keep me warm at night
No longer can I wait for love, my time has come and gone
Where do I go? What do I do? It can not be the end
I want real love to find me so that I can begin to live again

Latitisha Hendricks Jul 2020

This is me

See me, for me, and not for what you think I should be
I have long, curly hair, brown and golden highlights
Long lean legs and my mama's thighs
Bountiful, of beauty rolled into a Twix bar, caramel mix
All of me and what you see is what you get
Not a tad more, till I check out your receipts
I am not the girl next door, looking, begging for sugar
Bringing my own table, so please don't get it twisted
I check my attitude before my feet hit the floor and wait
for a gentleman to open my door
Not your usual Betty-Jane, or Around-the-way chick
I pack and leave and take my own trips
No time for drama and dead-end conversations rally up some
smooth intellectual vibrations
I get it, you like me and that's okay
I like you too, but let's get one thing straight
My life is precious, just as yours might be and I have no time
for insecurities
We can talk, and go out, let's see how this goes and take things
slow, wait it out
After all, we're just finding out what life's all about
My love goes deep, not sure if yours do, and I have to be sure
that games stay in the child's room
I'm not trying to be harsh, brutal and unfair, I care about people
and their welfare
See me for who I am and not for who you think I should be