First there is silence and nothing is moving

Then slowly the water starts to heat

What is happening I ask as I watch with wonder

Mum says wait and see it won't  be long

Then there before my eyes little bubbles start to appear

I say wow and watch with delight


Mum gets me to move away, which I'm  not happy about

The bubbles are growing bigger now and more faster

Wow! The water is going crazy

So many bubbles jumping up and down in the pan.

I can see the bubbles all moving up

The water is rising as it jumps up and down

Then it's all over as mum turns the heat down

What a sight to see the water transform

Yesterday, I was happy and now I'm  not

Where did it go and why has it gone!

I was having so much fun dancing at the disco

The music was playing and I was moving rhythmically to the beat

My serotonin levels were way up high

Now they are low again!

I want to feel happy again instead of nothing 

All I can see infront of me is the drudge of the day


Can I feel happy again and if so how?

Perhaps a chat to a friend on the phone

No! There's no reply, maybe a yummy cake instead

Now I feel even worse how about some music!

I cant think, where has my happiness gone

I'm  getting tired maybe a quick nap will sort me out

That feels better how doing a puzzle

I'm  feeling better now and my happiness is back

I've  mastered the puzzle and found my happiness again.

The art of learning is sometimes never ending

Like we are trapped in a purposeful activity!

There was definately a beginning and yet, the ending seems to escape us

All we can see is the daunting road ahead

Our sense of urgency to finish Is heightened

Then failure happens as we fall and wonder why

We resume the journey patiently moving forwards


We are not alone in this though as nature follows the same pattern

The urgency to grapple with the normal

Then through trial and error to find a way forward 

Always hoping that this time will be the last

The joy that we will feel instead of disappointment

Not wanting to let us escape until we have learned the skill required

Then we are able to move forward onto the next part

Delighting in the patience we have learned along the way

I remember who you were long ago

The cheeky boy who used to play pranks and have fun

Your world was carefree and full of opportunities

You didnt have any pain or suffering

This was your beginning in the throes of your youth.

When life was simple and harm seemed to be a location unknown!


Then came the war and the excitement of being a man

You were determined to do your bit for queen and country

Now a disciplined soldier who had no times for cheeky pranks!

No warning of what lie ahead and the pain and suffering to follow

Now, here you are years later, an old man who a splint instead of a leg

You lost this in the war and time proves to be no healer.

Instead it revels in showing you memories of who you once were

In the shadows of the past from long ago.

I hate spellings!

 These words I'm told to learn which have no meaning

What is the point, they really are too hard!

They are not just simple words like run and can

But complex difficult words

Why me, what ever did I do to deserve this

These spellings really are the worst thing ever

 Where is the help I need!


Wait! I'm starting to see things differently

The words can be made  easier if you break them down

So let's have a go

First there is the punch sound and then the tual 

Wow  I'm starting to see  how this spelling lark works

How breaking the word into two and sounding them separately

Suddenly makes remembering them easier to know

Ivr got it punctual now I can spell this word I'm on a roll

With a little patience I can learn my spellings yeah!

There it is, I can see it, my birthday present

I'm so excited it's a bicycle

It's what I've always wanted

I cant wait to ride it and be on my bicycle

It's not fair! I have to have extra wheels on it.

What are you doing to my bicycle

I dont like it anymore with those horrible wheels

My mum says have patience and you will learn to ride


I'm riding my bike with the extra wheels!

This is so much fun and not hard at all

Why is my bike not so big anymore

It's  the same bicycle but somehow it seems smaller

Oh no! The extra wheels are being taken away

I don't  like this bicycle anymore as it wobbles about!

It feels unsafe and as though I might fall off it

Again I'm told to have patience and practice

I get on the bicycle every day and soon I'm balancing

With patience I am now able to ride my

I'm  so happy I'm going to see the band

I have thought about this moment so many times

What it will be like to hear them sing and see them in person

Now the day is here and I'm seeing them tonight live on stage

I am so excited I don't know what to do

I cant decide on the blue shirt or the black one

All my dreams are coming true at last.


I'm at the concert venue with my friends

They are big fans too and we all have posters on our walls

I got a teeshirt of the band and immediately put it on

Wow I'm wearing the band I'm seeing

The band are on and they sound amazing

I'm up dancing and singing to their songs

I don't  care what I look like, I'm  having fun

I'm  so happy and in awe of the band in front of me

You are part of me and always will be 

Sometimes I see you, sometimes I don't 

Still I know you are there ready to appear

You move with me and never out of sync

This big, dark, translucent shape that is stuck to me by an invisible force.

It's so crazy that I can see you and touch you but never feel you


I grow older and still you are there

With me through times of both happiness and sadness

You remain there as a constant never ageing or changing just fixed to me

I got a new job and had children and still you did not go

Steadfastly remaining with me as time moved on

Never changing or judging anything I did

Just silently staying connected to me as I changed

The fairground has come to town and I'm so excited

My friends are coming round later and we are all going together

I can see us now munching on the candy floss and doughnuts

Hearing the screams from the ghost train and the big loop the loop

Then having a go at hook a duck or knock down the bottles


At last my friends have arrived and I'm  going to the fair

Wow I can see all the lights and hear the sounds of the fairground

Which ride shall i go on first

My friends opt for the dodgems

This is great driving around and bumping into each other

What's next i wonder I'm having so much fun

Everything is for the taking  at the happiness of the fairground

Here I am again in this queue

It doesn't  matter what time I leave or which way I go

It's always the same, there is a queue waiting for me to join

Almost as if my participation is predetermined

I have no choice and am destined to join a queue where ever I am

Slowly the queue begins to move and hope comes as I get nearer


Then everything changes as the person infront has lots of change

Oh, how I hate people with lots of change and them counting it all

Now I am going to have to wait longer, I'm trapped in this queue

I look around for an escape or distraction and there is salvation

There on the wall is a picture like no other with amazing colours

I am transfixed and mesmirised by this picture

Now patiently enjoying the queue and no longer waiting

It's great when I can share with others.

Just knowing that I am giving back, that makes me feel happy.

I can hear the laughter and good feeling that is going round the room.

Everyone is smiling when we all share a meal together.


No one is left hungry and they are all appreciative of what's been done.

Now begins the singing and dancing.

This is great, spending time with others.

Who would have though this could bring such a warm feeling.

Yes! I feel truly blessed to be part of this gathering.

Such a great idea to be sharing quality time with others.

Where did the time go today?

I had so many things planned to do and have only achieved maybe two!

No wait! I forgot to do one of them so now it is just one that I managed.

I must remember the old lady who lives down the road.

I keep forgetting to see how she is.

Never mind all the things I have do, she is all alone!


Today's  the day I am going to visit the lady down the road and make sure she's ok.

I need to think of others and not just me.

Perhaps she has a dog or was that my neighbour I'm  really not sure.

Maybe I could get her some dog biscuits just in case, and a bit of shopping.

I wonder what it is she really needs

I do hope she is in when I finally get to. see her and that she is ok.

Oh dear! The poor old lady down the road.