The emptiness
is killing me
day by day
Until now
I don't know
how to fill up
that void

All these thoughts
are killing me
What should I do?
I have been living
for a long time
but it seems
that my life
is going nowhere
Sometimes, I think
that bullet
wasn't such a bad idea
after all

Where you are
right now
is a culmination
of all the decisions
you've made
in the past

I am in my 30s
and life passed me by
I watch all these feel good movies
but they don't make me
feel good at all
They make me feel like
I missed a lot
and there is no turning back
There's nothing I can do
but to look
straight ahead

They say
I'm a hypocrite
for wanting
more money
I ask them,
"What can I do?"
I live
in a world
where money
can bend
all the rules

Tired in endlessness
Infinite cycle of work
just to pay the rent