I wanted to take all her damaging thoughts away
so she didn't have to see, hear or take them anymore
no one saw the ugly lies in her head
not Evan the closest people to her
she wanted to see life again
she wanted to feel again
she wanted to see again
to see all the beautiful colors of life
but she never got to see them
she only got to see grey
she wanted someone to hug her so badly
or even notice her existence
she was longing for a human interaction.

water trickles down my body
I keep making it flow
what can I do tell me?
I can't do anything else
I can wait for it to pass
I tried to stop it
but it rumens me when I try
i have to stand there
and let it take over
in my mind im paralyzed
but I can't move away.

I hear the water flowing
I hear the birds sing
I hear the wind whistle
I hear my deep breath
i feel cold and warm
But I cant see for hear you
I cant see your gorgeous smile
I cant hear you voice
I cant touch your delicate skin
But I can see and hear the memories in my head
They don’t seem to stop
They carry on
Im always reminded of you.

i screamed "I love you"
i screamed so hard
that I fought I would fall
fall so hard
hit my head and never come back
but you still wouldn't care
you would throw a red rose
and run away
I would still be in love
but you run out of love
you come and go
you go quicker than you come
the red rose will dry out
my tears will keep flowing
and never dry out

why do you keep treating me like this
im here for you
I just can't see you on my side
I call you and you don't pick up
you ignore me but then you say you were busy
but you also said that I could call you no matter the hour
i don't see you anymore
I can't seem to let you in
I look at you and I want to run away
im not the same
because I know who you really are
I know you don't care
when I see your fake smile I want to be sick
i have given up on you
but not because im weak
but because I know my boundries
i wont let you in.

i rush out to see you
but you never come
I always wait
but I never get a chance to see you
I think I will see you
I get so excited
I get everything ready
I put my beautiful dress on
i stand by the door
i have such a big smile on my face
but your absence takes that smile away
I go back inside
and cry on the floor
that's what I do every time
I never learn.

I want to scream
i want to cry
I just want to break down and disappear
never come up again
I keep breaking down
when I do come up
I hit back down
they never let me breathe
or live
I say a word
and im back there again
i want to live but I never can
because your words keep putting me down
i want to jump and escape this town
but my feet never touch the ground                                                         but when they do
i see light again
it pulls me back to my little den.