i have enough of certain people ******* me off
like im me and im not going to change for you just to make you happy
im not going to do that again because I only hurt myself
I can't stand to do this to myself again because it kills me deep
inside.
So don't make me do this because I won't

Remember me forever
Remember my shirt that I left you with my smell
let that always be a reminder of me
to the next one who comes

You seem to know me but you don't
You seem to understand me but you don't
You keep shutting me down
i want to be me
but I never can

i want to belong in your arms again
and feel safe again
because right now its quite cold
without you here holding me tight

have you ever felt so numb that you had to taste something to realize that you are still alive?
one sip of sweet and tangy orange juice
just one sip gives me my tastes back
and lets me know that Im still not fully numb
it saves me it gives me a sense of reality
because my head is full of toxic thoughts
and I loose my sense of being
I just don't feel much
my head gets so loud that my body refuses to listen to it
and it shuts down
so whenever I can't feel a thing
I take a sip
and it saves me

take me back there please
im scared of that place but I also love it
its where I felt love for the first time
its where I hit my first mile stone
its where I dreamed
but its also where I felt pain
its also where I was betrayed
its where they left me
and it's where I lost myself.

im tired of hearing your voice in my head
im tired of seeing your face in my brain
i hate the feeling of you
but im also addicted to it
I run away from it but I also chase after it
i want to hate you but I can't
i don't mean much to you
but you mean the world to me