I love you inside your mind
  I love you outside your head.
  I love you in solitude or screaming
  stroking you gently or kissing thighs
  in dreams or nightmares bravely or
  shrinking in fear from your anger.
  I love you inside out and upside down
  north south east west night or day.
  I always love you most at 3AM while
  you gently snore and talk in your sleep.

I lived as long as I could.
Life wore me down day by day.
Pills and shrinks and shocks tried
to solve me. My poems put my
puzzled life together but all they
saw was crazy girl lost in modern
times without a north star. I
died with my head in their oven.

When the monsters come looking for
my heart you keep it hidden in yours.
You always save me from my demons.
Keeping them away from my doors.

When you dig scarce ice cubes
   from the water logged cooler
   it's close to bedtime. Take one
   more shot of courage to face
   one more tomorrow and do it
   all again as if you mean it.

I scream mute and
I listen deaf to your
empty promises you
called vows at paper
altars to cardboard
priests we saw in rain.

1970 I hid in a shallow hole
as explosions tore the earth
around me with impunity.
Communists tried to **** me
and I didn't want to die.
I remembered the fireworks
on the Fourth of July when
we first kissed and held hands.
I have come to doubt what
I once held as true. Wars are
never moral and sinners are
never forgiven for their sins.

You haunt my dreams at night.
You hide in mirrors and corners
while I go from here to there.
We were lovers and never were.
You ride cold air up my back
whispering until I sleep with you.