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Simply put, as honest as this story is, I'd be a lie if I told you that this was easy to illustrate, partly due to memory, partly due to insecurity, I pick my poison to be mixed, play with fire cause I heal quickly but love to only **** with slow burn gars keeping years on my life though it poses a risk of suffering more. So recently I put down the grass and spend my time in the desert, plus this food desert helps with my other habit of bloating off dessert. So this detox has re-upped my openness to be a minimalist only for a while, abstinence is exercise also. I'm quicker to identify the things that **** you slowly, living and preparing for the future where our inventions might live faster than we do. I hope I'm wrong, at least I'm honest. I'd be a lie if I already said I was right, a little humility gave me the insight to see that lies come back to you in the future, and right now can dictate tomorrow. Can you see where I'm coming from? Can you see it?

To give you the power I don't even have by admitting that I was wrong and you were right, at least it's off my chest so I can loosen up a bit and adopt a better workout plan. Constantly overwhelming my muscles with work I could've put off tomorrow, I choose to come prepared now and well rested for any test that presents itself to me. I love to see you getting fit and not needing me to spot you on everything anymore cause slowly our favorite spot was turning into a detention center. I have no choice now but to pay attention. It can serve as a reminder that I haven't walked the stage and graduated just yet, I'm an undergrad. Teach me more.

On the surface it seems that I don't take too much personal but my energy beneath is personified as a mad man. Does the mind play tricks or do I get in that man's way because I always have a logical explanation referring to human nature as to why it's not that man's day, I can't cry a river for him cause then my fluidity goes dry. Reserve brain fluid and chemicals for better chemistry, reacting only to a man that could never be taken out of his element, cause then the math is simple and I find no problem to second guess anything, although the feeling is growing inside that I've become caricatured on the surface. Who have I become?

Got flak for being a clout chaser, I used reverse psychology and praised them for being haters to approve my agenda. It's what the world revolves around these days besides glitters I used to criticize current day rappers for glorifying; I recently bedazzled my footsteps to follow, made em all blind, materializing this path as if it's the way to heaven. It's hell to get here but as long as you believe in yourself, and don't let nothing cross right under your nose, sniff out the bloodthirsty fish within this ocean, the current does make a way for others soon to follow, never have no worries. Quite a smart *** I may be, or maybe I lost my mind, no regrets at this point, it evens out; you should get your sensitivity back once the high comes down, but do it over, and over, and over again.

Rich as the soil, my people rich as the soil, I want no dirt on my name, compared it to ***** in a bucket; so I don't want to stay in my community, I thrive with the people with hearts cold as concrete, no cookouts, at least there's no shootouts. My people lost in the sauce, I'm seasoned to drain these ***** ****** that taint my kids growth, no room for weeds to induce it. I'm rich as the soil, my people rich as the soil, until they know it, they're nutrient poor as the sand, you won't catch my kids at sand boxes; we'll be in gardens growing sweet potatoes and cabbages and poison it to savages.

Moving up while down. The fact I left looks right. I stopped to go slow, fast to locate trafficking at all costs. Back and forth it comes and goes, highs became lows as my self image of life in heaven was ego death within hell, I switch sides to play it safe, I'm on nobody's side, we go our seperate ways, and our differences unites us.