Always looking for that something
Not sure what or know not
So far back with blank of light
Through the glass doors shut tight

Always searching for hidden finds
Hands dig deep or deep to dig
Be still to listen ears of sound
Lines of wooden bound

Always searching for standing still
Roots of past or past of roots
Running thunder tapping round
Stop to step the underground

An end of steps that begin
One by one from young to old
No foot to pass the same again
Tread the waters no side to hold

Present unwraps the gift inside
To borrow not mine colour of blue
Tap to hold the steam that cried
Words began inside of truth

Stand still and listen the tracks of fast
Pull up the arms held down to sore
No flicking back forever I ask
The day is now,  not before

Deep so deep of what to say
I know what’s right wrong the days
In my mind forgiven back
It’s there I know my life to crack

Deep oh deep of hidden scars
It’s there I know no shooting stars
Why oh why is left with right
It’s there I know without the light

Deep so deep of there to show
Holding on no letting go
Memories are here back and forth
It’s there I know written in chalk

Deep so deep forgotten rhyme
It’s now come out in therapy time
Healing won’t heal holding on
It’s there I know the times of wrong

Deep oh deep I wish to play
To see again the stars away
Help me to relive again
No sound I make repeat the same

I’m lost
I’m hidden
I’m now
Forbidden

I’m finding
I’m knowing
I’m past
Showing

I’m searching
I’m blank
I’m who
Sank

Black the day that sun was broken
Locks of curls flow in the wind
Dress of white not worn to be spoken
Cut off when life was sinned

Sharp the silver soul to mortal
Tears no joy exist life’s years
Held the force pain of brutal
Piercing eyes sound that hears

Curled in ball no book of words
Fire no light no arms to wrap
Shiver of wood rot of  sword
Shadow of me was fear to sap

Who or what I wonder now
Sow what’s hidden I forget to howl
In times to struggle I thought was there
Without to think without a care

Be kind be gentle of what you think
Life of struggle the smell of ink
Every word and every sign
Not being the truth to find

I’m deep of sorrow in every way
There to believe hidden in hay
Key to find unlock to open
Nothing to have hands of spoken

Words will fall
Feathers of all
Aloud of say
Forever a day

Words will grow
Heaven of know
Swirls of cloud
One day aloud

Words will come
Goodbye to one
Forgotten letters
Forever tethers

I lost my way when words were cruel
No spelling mistakes for one and all
The poems I write were life as was
Journey I found hidden because

I lost my way when spoken to try
Stutter and silence not knowing the cry
Tremble inside to push my way out
Journey I found hidden shout

I lost my way when you were taken
Turning and curling believing was broken
Hitting so hard foot steps I trod
Journey I found hidden forgot

I lost my way to find once more
Still I lay as thoughts would stay
Left and right to take what’s there
Journey I found was hidden
Time to share

To live is to laugh
To laugh is to love
To love is to live
To see is to hear
To hear is to see
To touch is to smell
To smell is to touch
To be me is to be me
To fear is to not
To stand up tall is the lot

Hold what ?
Time to take
Hold what ?
Winters fake
Hold what ?
Breeze of green
Hold what ?
Hands between

Life of searching right from wrong
Chorus repeats, mind song
Open your heart as the beat begins
Right or wrong, no sin

Holding space to lie out flat
Hands together, warmth to wrap
Feel the heat no fire to burn
Right or wrong, we learn

Time has gone when days were night
Closed and pray, out of sight
Reaching out invisible finds
Right or wrong, beating kind

Time to stop the watch of hidden fears
Love holds a breath forever run tears
Face those eyes to heal the sores
Black out of memories mourning appears

Reach out once more the search began
To hide inside no ray of sun
One by one to push each door
Keys to hold unlock of eyes that saw

Face the cold no hat to keep warm
Stuck in time alone of sworn
No judge to stand to sentence the time
Prison inside was the child of mine

No fight I have left to steal
Rhymes that showed my words of real
No bags to carry empty to fill
Wonders of world believe to heal

Will you still love me when truth comes out
Will you still love me for what it’s about
Will you still love me forever I fight
Will you still love me this day and night

Will you still love me when I sat beside
Will you still love me when I tried to hide
Will you still love me for hurt on my eyes
Will you still love me when I tried to die

Will you still love me no hurt that I gave
Will you still love me when I mis behaved
Will you still love me now that your gone
Will you still love me forever that was wrong

You will still love me when  I scream of sad
You will  still love me the pain that was mad
You will still love me to live life so far
You will still love me the soul you are

Time to speak thoughts of mind
Hidden anger for depths of kind
Death of love scars inside
Stutter the words of tongue tied

Fighting is one story of life
One word to hear was eyes to hide
Memories that flash camera of light
Seeing believing was black and white

Awaken your soul to begin before
Struggle of journey repressed no more
Night of day will finally appear
There to show truth was always near

If I was a kid I never know what
If I was a kid I never say not
If I was a kid I fight the lot
If I was a kid I cry to forgot

If I was a kid I wonder why
If I was a kid I look in the sky
If I was a kid I see no light
If I was a kid the mighty fright

If I was a kid I never not know
If I was a kid how would I show
If I was a kid the day of grow
If I was a kid my bike would blow

If I was a kid I see no why
If I was a kid the stars in the sky
If I was a kid to paint my life
If I was a kid I’d push in the knife


I’m now grown up little and low
I’m now grown up still not to know
I’m now grown up questions I ask
I’m now grown up about my past

I’m now grown up to see what’s there
I’m now grown up to speak where
I’m now grown up inside I care
I’m now grown up begins the stare

I’m now grown up to fight the days
I’m now grown up to find my way
I’m now grown up come what may
I’m now grown up when you took it away

I’m now grown up to speak or stutter
I’m now grown up to feel what flutters
I’m now grown up there to bare
I’m now grown up to tread those stairs

Times of trouble forget what’s past
Here and now will leave as fast
Hold of breath the mighty gasp
Forever green ends winding path

Cup of hands to plead we ask
Hear to walk and wear of mask
Hold back no touch is our task
Safe to lock the light from dark

Over to save our world to peace
To find to be no life to cease
Push through the world to release
Be one to fight C O V I D

Windmills of yellow
Spring of joy where to begin
Warmth to cover wings

We think to the unconscious mind
Without the stars that shine
Searching inside my eyes wide
We think of the conscious time

We listen to the body that speaks
Without the world grow seeds
Listening outside deep breath
We think to the stillness of death

We stop to the foot that sores
Shooting alive forever more
Holding the vibration of rays
We think to the journey at bay

Laugh the love silent sound
Love to laugh of hidden ground
Sight to smile the face of frown
Time again of upside down

Laugh the love of here and now
Love to laugh to seek to howl
Sight to smile of not to know
Time again of light to grow

Laugh the love of love to laugh
Love to laugh and laugh to love
Sight to smile and smile of sight
Time again the voice of bright

I hear inside, I push,  I try
to say what stops the nigh
of knowing hidden so high
hands will show of one goodbye

Around to swirl, repeat the storm
Inner voice, feel what’s worn
Repeat repeat,  silence torn
One word out loud for ever morn

Push the button, reveal the power
Out loud, one day,  clouds will shower
Every step, mast of tower
My voice of sound outside will flower

Clouds above empty ship
Feathers fall to heavenly green
Lay, watch pleasant dream

Remember, words as you watched to laugh
Islands that flowered, glass of an eye
In between stood of time
Aloud, no words of mine

Remember, footprints  tide washed in
Bench to drown, paint what’s blue
Water to sip the stones away
Drops, forever to stain

Remember, birds open to prey
Turn of the card, magic of play
Early you rise air that you bring
Words, song I will sing

Is it poetry
Or is it words
Is it rhyming
Voice of hurt


Is it poetry
Or is it life
Is it written
Hands of tight

Is it poetry
Or not spoken
Is it silence
Lips of broken

If is used in so many ways
If what if good and the bad
If the sun shined so bright
If it will make you right

If life was not so messy
If wired like mind
If stood back stride by stride
If beginning back in time

If you were me and I was you
If is what eyes would see
If angels gave you wings
If what if the song to sing

If to control what visions there
If the hurt was white  and not black
If heart was stronger than mind
If is what if the mighty blind

Poetry what’s in a word
Words what’s in poetry
Living or being
Written of seeing ?

Poetry what’s in a rhyme
Rhyme what’s in poetry
Now or then
Written of when ?

Poetry what’s in a meaning
Meaning what’s in Poetry
You or  thoughts
Written of taught ?

Who am I mind wanders to know
Not me not you who wears those clothes
Size up knowing what to do
Choice of what those colours show

Looking back white was black
Detached the house to show my woes
Written back for rhymes to show
Life just happened not really to know

Blank pages of crosswords to find
The time that healed forgotten mind
Word of games reveal to answer
Days too old to become wiser

In a way your mind is now
To hear to speak
Pass along heavens door
Hands together let’s howl

Science shows what hears aground
No matter what or where
We all began forever born
Step by step homeward bound

Surrender to the mighty high
Be what comes
Life began rising dawn
Mind and body the brightest smile