Spinning around  button to stop
Winning and losing at no cost
Jackpot to show lift so high
Around again cost of sigh

Stop to press hands of sore
Going back for more and more
Flashes appear no silver or light
Give up to see eyes to the right

No more to spin reflection to see
Jumping of puddles ***** and deep
Last one there missed to fall
No drowning I tread tired to brawl

Mirror of pain look back at me
Gripping on to swing in the trees
Hands to ears no three monkeys to see
Reading back the words of free

Ask me how I want my time
Shout to speak back of mind
Play no act of visions to show
Stop the lies hidden I know

Ask me how I want my time
Fear no fear of what’s behind
Trust my mind body to care
Stutter to stop release to share

Ask me how I want my time
Pray the night to sleep of rhyme
Black of board add to take
One wish in well to make me safe

Ask me how I want my time
No answer of revenge oh my
Protect out there until love died
Hold to sigh breath of lies

Ask me a question
Echo of words
Ask me a question
The world will observe
Ask me a question
No time for mistakes
Ask me a question
Darkest of caves
Ask me a question
No white of waves

Sorry words that not spoken
In times of hidden broken
To hear the world split apart
Spoken not that words sorry

Sorry sound that not hear
Inside to hide pain of fear
To see the flowers empty vase
Hear  not that sound sorry

Sorry sees what eyes of touch
Outside the frost of rush
Closed doors of every night
Touch of eyes what sees
Sorry

It’s me it’s me the one that begun
No brakes that work to find the fun
Fast as they turn  wind in my hair
Up and down the bumps to Care

It’s me it’s me we’re did I go
It all started off like not to know
Blank piece of wood to make it fun
Ride up and down life in the sun

It’s me it’s me the boots that I wore
Wheels that went round 
Little girl that soared 
Fun times we had so much more

It’s me it’s me on top of the hill 
Out of my way fast as I can 
Down and down wet in the rain
Hitting the bottom to climb once again 

It’s me it’s me here I am
Poems I rhyme loved the time 
Paintings I feel will start and dry
Heart to sing songs to mime

It’s me it’s me the stones I see
Throw them to hit one two or three
Jump in the square reveal what’s there 
Ten to reach win to glee 

It’s me it’s me I cannot stop
I want to feel good to enjoy the lot
Keep looking for words that will finally stay
It’s me it’s me my time to play

Grief, we know it comes in time
Let’s not think when the bells chime
Bang, the grey dooms
No sound I hear too soon

Grief, let’s write the stars away
When all the world, gone today
Moving round when day begins
No sound I hear as birds to sing

Grief, go back and stand the seat within
To watch the door to open thin
No light will heat your body safe
No sound I hear, your be ok

Are we to blame
Thoughts that came
Made of mind
Born of kind

Are we to blame
Walk the strain
Hidden path
Release of aftermath

Are we to blame
Touch to sane
Real or fake
There to take

Are we to blame
Play no fame
Stage no seat
No blame we keep

Colours of life no end of gold
Mask to hands warming of brave
Far we stay help to hold
Pity no self the fight they save

Brave in blue badge to show
Protect inside world to open
Breathe to breath life they grow
Bless of NHS no hearts of broken

Grey of days
Nights of told
Spin of wheels
Clouds of cold

Black of days
Rise to know
Awake of cover
Hands bellow

Red of days
Warmth of freeze
Doves to call
Begin the breeze

Green of days
Depth of roots
Flow what tears
Arrow that shoots

Ripples in the stream
No Feelings to understand
Hiding when you can
No smile to beam

Your body to be taken
From the little mind you had
Sweet silent child
Never making sound
Doors locked tight
No key to be found

Life standing still
No one to be
Only way is to hide
Lips closed tight
No journey to ride

Tears of eternity
One by one
Splashing to the ground
Puddles so deep
How life felt done

Years go by and by
Blackness was my light
To me to see to be
It’s my life to leave

Welcome the world the green of calm
Walk away when rush of harm
For you will know as silent sound
Stamping leaves hidden of ground

Welcome the world the blue of bright
Wooden broken cuts of light
For you will show the path to sway
Reach the branches new of day

Welcome the world the yellow of warm
Droplets of ice to melt the storm
For you will step as Lilly’s bloom
Blow away the dirt of gloom

No words of days
Thunder greys
Every inch to take
Split in two, hate

No words of night
Believe the stars
Hands of hold
Split in two, folds

days and night of words
Together that seams
Bruised of rays
Split in two, regains

If I wrote my words of nowhere land
Inside they come to deep to understand
In every write and every sound
Beneath the ocean of digging down

If I wrote the signs of now
They talk away uncontrollably down
If and when to tap the letters
Spell of wizards will make you better

If I wrote the wounds above
To heal and touch the fidgeting frown
Mad or bad is one way back
What’s your mind, a wall of cracks

Dad no hurt that you did
Why oh why they gave me pain
No one like you lived so much
Trusted believes in life to touch

Hurt and pain they gave it to me
You didn’t in any life to gain
I know that if you were here
No pain would bring me to tears

My dad so gentle giving and true
They should of followed your boots
Hands so big but gentle in touch
My world loved so much

When you were there life was so true
In times I struggled when I was blue
No words you needed to hear you breath
Blanket was there for me to reach

Photos I look not remembering them all
Eyes to feel the safe and tall
Dad oh dad miss you so much
The good the bad now time to grieve

Forgotton what we know
Behind of looking back
Bow the hands to sow
Open to pump of hello

Forgotton where we came
Dry the cloth of clothes
Strip to bear, no playing games
One of two the sun of same

Forgotton of forward play
Empty hands push through
No doors of hidden say
Forgotton for one more day

We try to find a way, to ease the pain
When you left, my childhood began
Repeating what was before
Not knowing the meet was raw

We began to begin the circle of past
The reflection of broken glass
Looking back the future held
The stars to share, my pillow to tell

We turn the corner of the dead end road
The thoughts before, stopped to told
Who you were was not before
Journey of same, became once more

Dig deep
No *****
Dig deep
Facade

Dig deep
Hidden
Dig deep
Forbidden

Dig deep
Treasure
Dig deep
Forgotten forever

You wished the world did not repeat
I’m the one here now to sit in your seat
My little friend inside so cold
Taken away your  body forever told

You hurt you hid covers to wear
You thought that life was unfair
Surrendered to the devils cut
Numb to feel pit of dust

No fairy tales you had to reap
The fruit of apple give me to eat
Skip of time no rope you had
It’s me to help your music to beat

I’m here for you now split in two
To stutter your voice believe in you
Only one who understands
The misery the wounds sun of blue

Lost in world of dissociation
Dreaming of things that forgotten
Visions I see no eye that meets
Wonders of world of defeat

Knocking back and forth
Count to 10 real world again
Voice to speak grown up times
Dream again of forgotten crime

Hands to head to hit so hard
Knock out the ring to hear the bells
Uncover the puzzle missing piece
Detach in time the life repeats

What where, why, when who
Questions, are they true
To ask I would
Arms across I stood

What where, why, when who
Does it matter too
To ask if true
Straight up I grew

What, where, why when who
No time to think
Mirror to blink
Reflect at you

My hands will speak my day of truth
Body in shock cold so blue
Push away my left for right
To know inside the words shut tight

My stutter to hold the tears to fall
Shout out loud winters call
No drops will rest to leave
Flow away the ice that grieves

Swallows flight ahead to gulp
Heart to beat the warmth to pulp
Wake up of flutter eyes of wide
Move on to swing and be alive