I sit and wonder when I came
To live the life I thought was insane
I hid inside when silence became
For one day, asked my name

I sit and wonder who am I
To be and not the tears i cried
When eyes I showed that open wide
For one day, asked I sighed

I sit and wonder back what I once was
Find the key that once was locked
No more memories that was there
For one day, asked I cared

I sit and wonder of what now comes
Numb of nothing history was done
Find one day to reach my toys
For one day, asked I joy

How can I show what memories are real
The ones that hurt to hide and feel
To seek what’s there or nothing true
The times I hid from what I knew

I know I’m not well no cold or flu
My mind I know is sometimes blue
To know what’s there I see inside
The time I visited the house of fright

The games I played were they lies
I count the stairs to reach no light
My hands held out so small to big
Step by step not knowing to give

There  in the kitchen no food to cook
Your there again to take what took
To talk not knowing the unkind I blocked
Body in past to present of shock

Time to speak thoughts of mind
Hidden anger for depths of kind
Death of love scars inside
Stutter the words of tongue tied

Fighting is one story of life
One word to hear was eyes to hide
Memories that flash camera of light
Seeing believing was black and white

Awaken your soul to begin before
Struggle of journey repressed no more
Night of day will finally appear
There to show truth was always near

No more words that I can share
To say what went and went out there
Feel inside I have to show
I have no one or else to go

No more words they sit in silence
No shooting stars I look above
Down in depth of heaven sits
I have no one or else that fits

No more words i hear today
Shut out your voice I say
Green and red black will make
I have no one for gods sake

No more words to watch and play
There to know you I wish to say
No more words
No more words of yesterday

Wonders of what unknown to me
Light one candle reflect to see
Warm of hard to melt alive
Smell of scent breath of high

Steam to show flicker to glow
Grief to hide push out to know
Bench of thought wash to clean
Showers to fall grow of green

Hands held back heart to rise
Journey to carry walk to stride
Circles to move perch to stop
Arms to wrap free the knots

I fight the words of inner voice
The truth I feel that shivers to move
The rays of sun no warmth to feel
Scared to tell the past of real

Hands around collar so stiff
Shake away the left and right
Flicker of lamp no saying goodnight
Back in black no snow of white

Movement of still invisible times
To know it happened bitter of lime
Your face is there no eyes to see
Memories held blank forever keep

Screech the fox prowls at dark
Legs to tremble runs so fast
Home to safe comfort to feel
Leaves to fall of times to steal

Sickness I thought inside my blood
No scars to see just mind to taught
Hidden so far no feelings of free
Little not seen ghost to haunt

Time to stop the watch of hidden fears
Love holds a breath forever run tears
Face those eyes to heal the sores
Black out of memories mourning appears

Reach out once more the search began
To hide inside no ray of sun
One by one to push each door
Keys to hold unlock of eyes that saw

Face the cold no hat to keep warm
Stuck in time alone of sworn
No judge to stand to sentence the time
Prison inside was the child of mine

No fight I have left to steal
Rhymes that showed my words of real
No bags to carry empty to fill
Wonders of world believe to heal

Speak and you will find
Bitterness falling behind
Word by word
Silence observed

Words of meaning
Mist of being
Words unwritten
Voice forbidden

Hand of paper
Fist to open
Life of given
Heard of written