Wonders of what unknown to me
Light one candle reflect to see
Warm of hard to melt alive
Smell of scent breath of high

Steam to show flicker to glow
Grief to hide push out to know
Bench of thought wash to clean
Showers to fall grow of green

Hands held back heart to rise
Journey to carry walk to stride
Circles to move perch to stop
Arms to wrap free the knots

How can I show what memories are real
The ones that hurt to hide and feel
To seek what’s there or nothing true
The times I hid from what I knew

I know I’m not well no cold or flu
My mind I know is sometimes blue
To know what’s there I see inside
The time I visited the house of fright

The games I played were they lies
I count the stairs to reach no light
My hands held out so small to big
Step by step not knowing to give

There  in the kitchen no food to cook
Your there again to take what took
To talk not knowing the unkind I blocked
Body in past to present of shock

Photo of you reflect back at me
Stare in your eyes blind to see
The friend you had memories you keep
Mine are so different the secret I weep

I’m sorry now for what I’m about to say
Not knowing back then my eyes took away
Love for you and him we’re no same
Split in two the divide that came

I say it from my heart and not my mind
The time back then when broken my kind
Look up to believe it’s me and not him
Always end down we’re the fear begins

Time has now passed to feel once again
The feelings no thoughts never become one
Battle no left the right to find a way
Be honest and true come what may

I knew I was different in so many ways
The grief cannot take that away 
The love we had will never be forgotten
My mind to live the special times
Fingers and thumbs they will still show
Memories  that we have cannot be taken
Good  the bad however we see them
Always there whenever it is cold

Roll of the dice that no one knows
Spin  of the wheel the answer will show
Winning  or losing will scatter our brains
Truth that lies may sorrow your woes.  
Look  inside and the answers will be there
Never knowing it was  under your nose.  

Who am I don’t really know
Believe  what you want be true to yourself
Time  and time will surely show.  
Outsiders will see what they want
Be kind be gentle friend or foe 
Free from the wolves and swing from the trees Stand in the rain to watch and grow

Find the rainbow the red pink and green
Follow  it until  the yellow begins.  
The answers maybe there to search again
Relive in your dreams your voice to sing
Gallop  in the wind no matter to  fall
Climb back on and be free with your wings.

If I voice you will you tell
If I know you will you show
If I see will you hear
The truth in me of fear

If I know will you believe
If I go will you be there
If I said what I see
The truth I want in me

If I thought will you think
If I bring will you take
If I trust will you hurt
The truth to heal the dirt

You wished the world did not repeat
I’m the one here now to sit in your seat
My little friend inside so cold
Taken away your  body forever told

You hurt you hid covers to wear
You thought that life was unfair
Surrendered to the devils cut
Numb to feel pit of dust

No fairy tales you had to reap
The fruit of apple give me to eat
Skip of time no rope you had
It’s me to help your music to beat

I’m here for you now split in two
To stutter your voice believe in you
Only one who understands
The misery the wounds sun of blue