I'm not cold
I was warm and bright
Putting up a fight
Against the gusts of unkind words
Until they came too thick and fast
Hide away in a box made of glass

To see and be seen
To give light but never heat
Safe now but never free
In a beautiful cage
One I chose and still choose
I watch the world and wait for the gloom

Part of me understood
When you stood back from the flames

The heat was intense
In the deafening blast
And the pain unreal
How long could you last?

So no I didn't fight for you to stay
I didn't want you to hurt too

So tell me why
I watched you set
A bomb of your own
And drop a match lit

Close enough that I could see the blaze
And the girl you took down with you

You condemned my agonist
Made him a pariah
And left me in the ashes
To set your own fire

So you'll have to forgive my indifference
I don't care much for a Pyromaniac's burns

I fell into hell
And you left me there

So you'll have to forgive me
I've no more interest in your fairweather fun

I don't care to make memories
With someone who disappears in the dark

I don't need a shadow now
I needed a flashlight then

I'm not a cynic
I was a dreamer
Afraid having her wings clipped
So I grabbed the shears
Before someone else could

That doesn't change the fact
That I was made to fly

Why can't I believe

That it's not manipulation

To tell you what I need?