2019

As the year comes to an end, I look back to all the painful things; yet i find joy in the middle and the end. I find the closing of a chapter and the beginning of a new adventurous chapter that lands me in my new Wisconsin home. The finding of love, the end of cancer, hope for new beginnings that thrills me. For I knew not what love was to the middle of the year but I feel like I'm still learning the definition. Some days are lonely filled with some fear but the hope for greater things outsgadows the fear and loneliness. I know where my foreverly home is always; it's with the most beautiful angel, I adore. Tonight I enjoy the fruits of her father's wine; she gave as a gift. I find comfort in knowing one day she will be with me and free.
I know there are still a few weeks left to this year, I look back and know certainly I wouldnt change a thing about this year. I look forward to the upcoming years and anticipate the wonderous love I met this year. I know that love will carry me till the day we can share our love once again. Our future looks so bright from where I stand holding the very hand that brings me comfort, joy, peace, and happiness.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

Im only a few days from returning, the healing from the journey has bern good. However, ive missed you terribly; i cant wait till im back in your arms. I long to be csptivated in those beautiful brown eyes as i stare into them. Your beautiful smile i long to see. I cant wait to drink a kiss from your lips. As we talked yesterday i could feel your lips on mine or tongues intertwined as some beautiful dance. I hunger for you there is no substitute for you. I feel your hands in mine during this alone time where healing is beginning. I will return soon healed and full of love for you. I know i tell you i love you a million times a day. I want to verbalize my love a million and one times a day. I shall leave early Thursday on my journey forever "home". Oh how i love my beautiful special k!

Dedicated to Special K

There are no doubts for me, no alternate plans. Im all in fully vested with my love. There are mistakes, risks but needless to say I'm all in. I see our future it is bright, it leads me down the path growing closer to you. I seen a few pics today of beautiful love transcending time in aged bodies. We constantly joke about walkers and wheelchairs. I think our love will carry us through all that. I see our hands holding each others as they wither with the times. Our hearts are still youthful, our love remains amazing. I can't wait till we are relaxing in whatever state we may be in in40 or 50 years, looking back at the amazing journey where you showed me where love starts, the hug. Ive been captivated ever since that moment. Everyday my arms want to hold you. My shoulder wants to hold all your cares. My heart will always be generous because I know I can't out give what you give me. For me all in is what I'll always be when it comes to you. Its not gambling but its the sureness that your love gives.

Forever holding your hand, my beautiful Special K

Everytime I see you, I can't help but smile. The way she makes me feel inside, fully alive. Even sadness flees when she smiles. Her laughter is contagious with her dimples. Even when it's my southern ways, it makes my eyes sparkle with the flame of love. She makes me so very happy. The smile is the eruption on my face. I can't wait for the days where we sit and laugh and smile all day. I smile now even when we are apart because of bliss, only she can give me.

Dedicated as always my beautiful Special K

Forever in my eyes she will be amazing. Not for only the beauty of her appearance but the kindness of her soul. She is so brilliant with every word I'm captivated, wanting more. Simple is her moto. Her love is all that I ever needed. I've gazed at some of the seven wonders of this world but I could stare at her forever. She brings me such peace, calming every storm. She calls me the "good" one; it's only because she brings the best out of me. I only hope i can be the man who shows her love every second of everyday. She is my center who I orbit causing me to gravitate closer to that "one day"; we become one. We become what God intended; amazing love.

Dedicated to special k

I'm always thankful to God who brought us into each others lives. I'm thankful for you, you do so much for me by just simply loving me. I appreciate every moment I have to spend with you no matter if its homework or just saying hello. I appreciate your beautiful smile when we pass. I appreciate your thoughts of others, it tells me who you are. It speaks volumes about you. I appreciate your attentive ear when I'm wound up. You always calm me. I appreciate your brilliant mind, the way you focus. I appreciate our future where I'll show daily how really thankful for you and everything you do. I'm forever appreciating you always, my love.

Dedicated to my beautiful, Special K, the one I'm most thankful for

This heart of mine awaits the moment to spend eternity with you. Days like today I long to sit by your side enjoying moments of laughter with your family. We sit back hand in hand, im mesmerized by your smile as always. I refill your drink just a taste from your lips is all I need. The beauty of you showing me all the little things from your past displayed in your families home. I cherish every moment as if it was the first. Im loving moment of the visit and getting to know your family is a blessing. I cant wait for the day we invite them to our cabin, where our hearts will be joined in a ceremony like they already are.

Dedicated to my beautiful love, Special K

It was just a year ago, my eyes were restless, tired, weary. I was traveling never ever thought I'd be in Wisconsin. Little did I know it was the beginning of the most beautiful journey, I've ever been on. Today, I'm no longer tired, restless, or weary. I'm stronger than I've ever been not physically but wholly. I'm surrounded by a love that give and is given to me. God definitely knew where to send me and when to send me. I'm forever thankful. I would have never been able to beat cancer, PTSD, depression, a loveless life, facing a pandemic ;and made an amazing, friend, lover, companion, my helpmate, my soulmate, my beautiful angel, my special k, my reason, my all in all. Spending the rest of our life being content, happy, in love, and in a state of bliss is all I want for us and so does God. If He made it any clearer, it would be written in bold print across my face, I'm part of you and you are the best part of me.

Dedicated to my amazing love, Special K. I'm amazed at what a year can do. Looking forward to many more!

Some say that sunrises and sunsets are beautiful, full of color and wonder what the day will bring. Others say the beautiful music, the melodies are harmonies. Another would say beautiful is the kissing of the sun on one skin. Then others would describe the fragrance as something beautiful.

For me beautiful, is the term I call you. Your beauty is very pleasing to my eyes and the sound of your voice telling me good morning or kisses as we end each call, or the aroma of your hair is so intoxicating, the holding of your hand and the warmest of all touches. But your beauty is more than just senses. Its the love we share. Its the simplest of all things yet worth more than one could ever pay.  It's the pulling of the heart strings when we are apart, the rhythm of the pulse in a beautiful timpani. It's the beautiful flower in full bloom.  It's our relationship that displays its simple beauty in an everyday life. Beautiful is the day, we are home, together.

Dedicated to my beautiful, my Special K

I think you get more beautiful everyday. I often wonder how this beautiful angel gave up her wings for this southern traveling man. I'm always captivated by your piercing eyes and gorgeous smile. The beauty of the whole thing is that we love each other. I'm in bliss just thinking of you. One day our beautiful love will be celebrated with our friends and family. Everytime I look at those amazing stars I think of the journey I've been on and how wonderous our walks are. You always outshine those heavenly bodies, you are all I ever see and want to see. Your soul is so comforting, so picturesque. That's what I fell in love with. I often look at our photos and just smile and let happiness chase away all the darkness. You are more than beautiful...you are valuable, worthy of more; I'm going to give you every bit of my time and devotion foreverly.

Dedicated to my beautiful love, Special K

I find it easy to love you because you've shown me what love is. You've given me a smile because of your kindness. You given me a purpose, a reason because I want to be the man who gives you a smile everyday for others to enjoy. To be honest I'd be lost without you because you've provide light in my darkness. Everyday gets easier because one day I'll open the door and you'll be here for the rest of my life. Your warmth of touch consumes me because it's genuine. I've always been a survivor, a loaner because that's my nature. But I no longer label myself that because of your hug, love; I just want to be home... it's not the house but it's any place with you, my love. Because four walls and a roof may be a shelter but you are my sanctuary, all that I adore. Because you bring peace in this war ravaged mind, beauty to the eyes where all I've known is death, comfort from one touch, a word from you brings forth a fountain of hope, you've given me laughter instead of sadness. Because of you...I'm loved.


Dedicated to my love, Special K, my forever

The only thing I want is simply to be there. In the times, you need a simple hug, I want to be there. When you need a laugh after a crazy day at work, I want to be there. When your up late at night worrying about your children, I want to be there. When you've had that rough night and just need an ear, I want to be there. When you need your back rubbed or pain rubbed away, I want to be there. When you've achieved everything and get rewarded, I want to be there. The nights it's dark and lonely, I want to be there. The days you want to journey to pick berries, I want to be there. When you need help gardening, I want to be there. When in your car, when the music overwhelms you and you begin to sing, I want to be there. When you want to take a walk, I want to be there. Everyday and every moment, I want simply just to be there. That's the kind of love I have to give...to be there when you need me and when you don't. I want to be there to grow old with you, when we are fibble and when we don't remember so well...I want to be there. I want to be there to encourage you, support you, love you. I will always be there....


Dedicated to my love, my Special K

You are the greatest blessing God could ever led me to. You have changed me, giving me hope where there was none, love where none was ever felt. The blessing is He has empowered us to grow in love, tending to each others needs, you lifting me up when everything goes dark. You are my beloved beautiful angel, the gift of God. I treasure you so very much. I pray I encourage you daily. I see you already that caring, resilient, intelligent nurse already. I look forward to our adventures as we grow in our profession. We will continue to be a blessing to others as our love grows. I feel as if I am already standing before our friends and family confessing my love for you. Everyday you cause me to smile and laugh and be myself and say my corny southern slang knowing it puts a smile on your face. I cherish every thought we share. Its amazing to me how well we talk to each other and know whats on each others mind. WE ARE SO BLESSED TO BE IN LOVE!

Forever loving my beautiful blessing, Special K

I enjoyed meeting you this morning for breakfast. It wasn't the food I wanted it was the time I could spend with you. I know breakfast is one of the most important meals of the day, but every second or moment with you is essential. It's crazy the restaurant we eat at often is called Cravings, because I'm always craving the time we share. I cant wait for the day we ride home together and take care of all cravings before or after breakfast.

Dedicated to Special K, my love

Somedays I'm lost in our future home, our cabin. Not the details of the walls or fixtures, but in the soon life of me and you. I get lost in the sounds of our laughter with our friends visiting. The sight of your beauty as we enjoy our days together, your beauty never changes from the moment of that first hug. Our card games as we sit in front of the fireplace sipping on a glass of wine that your dad had made, the smile on your face is warmer than any fire to my heart; I'm content. We sit and talk about how our life is amazing, the only cares we have is each other and our family. A candle flickers in the background, some light music plays softly, as i take your hand in mine and sway to our heartbeats, our love song. The snow falls outside, reminding us of the season. We decorate our home with a small tree and ornaments from our travels. Everyone from our visits as we travel for work, reminding us of all the friends we made along the way. At this moment my heart is so full because of spending my life with best friend, my beautiful Special K, the love of my life. Its amazing how much I think obout our future cabin in the woods. One day, we will have memories of the days, our journey, to the cabin, where we will be forever home.

Dedicated to my forever love, Special K

Today, I'm closing the door on all my past and living for today, longing for my very near future. It's been a sad day closing doors never to open them again. It's a new season, a season of hope, trust, faith, and love. I'm plugging head first into the hope. Living one day at a time, grasping for my love, holding onto faith. All I know is that I'm all in and maintaining the course until "one day" occurs. That day I long for so much but I patiently wait. My love for you grows even stronger when we are apart, my beautiful angel. Our chapter has only begun while this chapter ends. Thank you my love for always being with me and loving me.

Dedicated to my love Special K

As I was studying today, I realized how much chemistry we have. If our love could be only be a potion to give to those who do not even know what it is. Your pheromones drive me wild. Your beautiful smile creates in me a wonderful bond only you and I can share. Our combination of appreciation for one another created a love bond unbreakable. We are definitely fused together foreverly. It's funny i am studying and all i want to do is study you; know you more. Love is our chemistry, it makes us, us.

Dedicated to my love, Special K, the only subject I want to study the rest of my life

Everyday of our life, we have a choice multiple times in one day. Sometimes moments choose us to define our purpose. Three years ago, I chose you. I chose to love you without limits or time. I didn't choose how we met or why. I let the hug you chose to give, blossom into the most wondrous love. More than I could ever imagine. That moment chose us. The adventure of a lifetime only comes to those who choose to endure. Love chose us. I'll always choose you...for you are my beloved. I'll choose to hold you the rest of my life. I'll choose to rub away all the aches and pains. I'd choose you on your worst days only to give you my best. I'll choose to wake up with you every morning and reminding you how beautiful you are as I look into those amazing hazel eyes. I think God chose us to experience this wonderful love for one another.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

It's the most wonderful time of year. For me the most wonderful time is every moment I have with you. Each and everyone I cherish above every moment in my life. It's because I have so much love for you and feel so much love from you. God wrapped the most amazing gift with locks of raven hair and tan skin and eyes of hazel because He knew I always needed you. Your simple ways, your laughter, your smile, the peace you give me always.

To my beloved, Special K

You are everything that brings me comfort and joy. From the touch of your hand in mine to the kiss of your lips on mine, they are reminders of your love for me. I'm so in love with you, I hope I bring you as much comfort as you do me. I take comfort in knowing one day we will be together forever. Our hearts are already connected that way. Everyday the thoughts of us still gives me the butterfly feelings in my soul as if the first time I met you. That feeling is a welcomed comfort and I really appreciate the feeling I know ill have it the rest of my life. When we are apart I feel your ever presence holding me and hugging me. I'm longing for the days when its more than a feeling, its tangible, its irresistable, its comfortable, its appreciated, its US!

Dedicated to my love, my peace, my joy, my comfort, my Special K

It's one of our favorite places to hang out. I see you sitting with your computer in your lap as we study. Your feet in my hands as I rub them. I stare at you intently as I admire you from the other end of the couch.
It's the place we lounge, you in my arms as we watch the candles flicker, watching a movie together. Laughing and talking all the crazy things in our past.
It's the place where I pull you near and kiss your lips. I gaze into your beautiful brown, hazel eyes. I find my heart palpitating faster and my breathing change as we kiss passionately.
It's the most wonderful couch I've ever had. Its every memory in one comfortable place.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

It's one of my favorite places to spend time with you. We sit on either end, I stare at you like the first time I ever saw you. You are breath taking as always. This morning your snuggled under the blanket lap top in lap facing me. I look up occasionally to see my beautiful love. Your glasses on, you are fiercely completing your assignments. Just a few more classes and your done.
Other times you are laid back staring at me as I rub your tired feet. The couch cushions falling down as we kiss at times.
When I'm alone the couch becomes my sanctuary as I work on the song I'm writing and strumming my guitar. My thoughts of you and our amazing floral printed, hand-me-down couch causes my blissful smile.

Dedicated to my love, Special K.
It's always about our time we share.

It was hard to cover the initials on the rocking horse, it doesn't mean that they are not there. It's hard not to look your way when we are at work, it doesn't mean I don't love you. It means I respect you! When I send emails instead of texts, it means I love you and the message will arrive in due time. Some day I'll be able to say what I want to in public and not keep our secrets. One day we our lifetime together will start and nothing else will matter. I will no longer be the moon and hiding in the dark but I'll become your sun, shining bring you abundant love. I'm so in love with you and I do my best to make it known to you for you are my reason, purpose, and love foreverly.

Dedicated to Special K, my beautiful love

Being away causes a stirring in my soul for you are my soul mate. The one I long for with all my being. From the taste of your lips, I starve because once you've tasted the best nothing else can compare. The softness of your touch, your hand in mine, electricity flowing with no lack of energy. The blissfulness stays from that moment to the next. Your beauty captivates my being, I long to be next to you always. Your voice is what I love to hear. I crave every part of you and ask you to consume me, so that I can be always a part of you. You are all I desire, hope for, and dream of...you are my future in which I crave.

#lovemyspecialk

The wonderous time has arrived to take my beautiful woman out. Just simply spending time with my beloved. No matter the show or the play, my eyes are always set on hers. The beautiful curves of her lips as she smiles in enjoyment. My face with that remarkable grin or bliss because of our night out. As we walk down the street we hear music, her hand in mine I pull her close and let the music take control. A few moments pass as I hold her as our bodies sway to the music. We journey on down the street to small quaint restaurant. We enter and the smells of the kitchen are enticing. We are led to a booth where we sit across from her. I hold her hands tight in mine and gaze at her beauty, its timeless. We order a glass of wine. I'm already intoxicated with love for her. I want her to be mine for eternity not to constrain or confine but to enjoy, laugh, talk, and admire. I wish only it was now instead of later. We enjoy our dinner and head our way home. One day our forever cabin in the northern woods.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

Everyday we get closer to the day when we are home. To awaken everyday to the beauty that is you is what I dream of. Your beautiful hazel eyes glimmer as they open. Your lips I want to kiss for all eternity. Your hands in mine as walk daily into every adventure. The warmth, electricity, security of that bond is so overwhelming delight for me. I feel nothing can overcome us, we smile we trudge ahead headed to our cabin home. Our paradise we thrive in, everyday, the peaceful embrace of the warmth that love continues to flourish. Day by day we get closer to our forever, where its our love that has propelled us on this journey for an eternity. To see the view of what our love continues to build through every trial. We're headed there. There's no one id want by my side other than you. I know that everyday I want to have your hand in mine with every step I take. Day by day your smile is what I want to see.

Forever loving you, my Special K

There are many days I feel your presence, my love. But somedays I'd give anything to hear your voice in my ear, I patiently wait. Some days I imagine the years ahead of us sitting on our porch awaiting our friends and your family. The look you have in your eyes as we await for our guest, little do they know its our day we become one in front of all them. The day I patiently wait for eagerly. The day we confess our love for one another. You look amazingly beautiful as the first day in June when you gave me that hug. Our adventure has already taken us to many places but it finally has paid off we are celebrating home. I'll never leave, you are all I need to be home.

Dedicated to my beautiful angel, my love, Special K

As I sit here, pondering how you are, I feel everything is as it should be. I feel your presence leaning on me as we lounge on the couch. Its so peculiar these feeling of electricity as if you are here. This love we share causes the loneliness to leave. I feel your ever presence always. The joyful expression only you can give is on my face. I sit here trying to contemplate the depths of our love for one another, it far passes any understanding I've ever had of love. It grows daily especially when we are apart. I feel your smile brightening my horizon like sun warming the new day. The peace of our love is amazing, it calms during any storms this life brings, it brings certainty, a guarantee that love exist in us. I hope you feel this feeling also, bringing you comfort like you bring me. A few days, we will see each other again as this flow of the dance of love brings us in and apart until the day, we are pulled into this blissful kiss that will last foreverly. Some say they can't imagine a love with such depth but for me, I'm living it daily with you.

Dedicated to my foreverly, endless love, Special K

It's not that I can't make it without you, it's i don't want to. I learned that from just a few days not being able to speak or text my beautiful love. I never want to know what thats like again. I have no doubt in our future but its the daily goodmorning and goodnight texts or calls that make this life amazing. My mind is always consumed about our life together. But I don't want to spend a day without telling how much you mean to me and how much I appreciate you. Loving you is the easiest thing I ever do and I know beyond any shadow of a doubt I've got a lifetime ahead to show you how much I love you. I don't want to ever miss a moment of telling you and showing you.

Dedicated to my love, my beautiful, Special K

Today, I found myself not wanting to wake up. I was having a dream of my beautiful Special K. The moment we were together on a sunny day on a picnic in a field with wildflowers dancing in the gentle breeze. We were using that backpack you bought us for Christmas. We sipped on some wine as I gaze at you like I always do. We held hands and kissed and laughed until evening. Then we decided just to lay there and talk and watch the beauty as the night arrives. The wonderous view of the heavens looking down on us as we stare at its beauty. I could spend my whole life enjoying every experience with you. As I awoke each time as the light of day shined through the window, I chose to sleep more to stay in the moment with you. I just wanted more time with you. I slept till 3pm taking you all in. Like I always do I want more time to stay in the moment with you. Thats what I want always to have you by my side, you are always in my heart and thoughts.

To my beautiful dream Special K, my always and foreverly

We often go by what we see or how we feel.  Today, the sky appears so gray with the snow lying on the sides of the road. But somewhere above those clouds the sun shines the sky is that beautiful blue we miss in the winter times. Often we feel inadequate taking care of others forsaken ourselves to the point of exhaustion. We often feel alone and want the misery to end. The truth is we are never alone, we are loved. The feel of inadequacy will leave us soon enough. The feeling of being near the end, its a lie we tell ourselves. Reach out take the love by the hand. We are needed. We will prevail. The tears we shed everyday in that fleeting moment are what we water our hopes with. Believe me I've hit the end a few times. My beautiful angel is always there. Love does win out in the end. For it was the tears, the heart ache, the point of giving up, that watered our hopes and caused our love to grow stronger. Faith, now that's the part I'm talking about today. It's not what we see or feel that matters. It's applying that knowledge and trusting it. It will come to pass. Faith, hope, love, it's the reason I'm here.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

I wanted to surprise you by finding you a dress. I never knew how complicated it is to find what I hope to be a perfect fit. The sales lady looked perplexed with my desire to find the dress. She asks what does she look like. I replied simply perfect. Then I explain the size you told me. With colors that I imagine would compliment your tan skin. I imagined the fit. To be honest, I can't wait to see you try them on. I wondered about the length, the cut, and how it would look on such a beautiful woman as you. It's my delight to do shopping for you. One day, I'm sure I'll be searching for the shoes to match your dresses.


Dedicated to my beautiful love, my Special K

Wishing I was on my way home, crawling into bed with you. Feeling the warmness of your body as I lean into you to kiss your cheek. As I'm driving I get lost in my way though the journey is short, I enjoy the journey because in the end I'm forever together with you. My forever home is the journey I'm on at this moment. Though I know the destination. I know not the time of my arrival. You always are telling keep my eye on the road, however, I want to keep my eye homeward, towards you. The love of the journey draws me near you each day. My face is already beeming with excitement of seeing my beautiful, smiling, brown/hazel eyed girlfriend, who loves me as much as I love her. One day the drive will come to an end where ill reach my forever home with her. Bliss will occur and forever be with my beautiful love.

Dedicated to my home forever with you, Special K

Everyday I find myself yearning, desiring, caring, wanting, and loving you more with everyday. We talk about our future our hopes and dreams. Our home, our presence together forever. As much as I want the future now, I'm enjoying the journey of knowing, liking, talking, texting, and seeing you daily. If I love you this much now, I don't think I could particularly phantom what the future holds for us. The fullness I feel from your love daily is so incredible. If the future was now we'd miss out on this blissful journey of not dating and learning the simple essence of love. I contemplate the depths of our love and cannot even imagine how deeply our love transcends. Every day when I look into those eyes of yours, I get glimpses of our future the blissful sparkles in your eyes are yet a prism of multiple colors and depths of love. The waiting patiently part is so unbelievably hard but I'm enjoying every step and anticipate the fullness of our days ahead.

Dedicated to my beautiful future, my love, Special K

I don't want ordinary love. I want it to be epic, forever. That's what I have with my Special K. It's the everlasting hunger, I have just to be near her to hold her the way she needs to be held. I feel this journey of love has no ending or is not defined by time. From the touch of her hand in mine knows that this kind of love comes the Divine. I can't wait for this love to be translucent.The freedom of exposure so it can truly develop into this epic love, that I want to give to devote my being to her in every way. I know this love will be more brilliant than any diamond or gem. This kind of love could never be written about or painted with words, it can only be lived with my love, my Special K. In this love there's no fears of failures, no lack of appreciation, or lack of display of affection. I long to wake up beside her to pull her close and stare into those portals of heaven and tell her how fortunate of a man I am to find this epic love. If I ever faulter let it be in words or grammar for I am no master of these but let every intention be felt as genuine as it is in my soul for she is my reason, my purpose, and my destiny. For no longer is it I but it is us.

Dedicated to us, myself and my Special K

I once was a traveler searching for home. The moment I met you, I knew I wanted to stay longer. Because something about you fulfills the hunger. Because of you I have grown stronger, happier, and healthier. I no longer want to be a loner. I want to be more than a lover. I want to be your forever...

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

Everyday, I feel even closer not in mileage but in love. Everyday, my love grows stronger enduring patiently, waiting on my beloved beautiful angel. Everyday, life gets easier because I have a future, which is you. Everyday, my thirst and hunger for you grows even more than the day before. Everyday, our journey to home comes closer. Everyday, I patiently wait with a smile on my face, joy in my heart for a text, a call, or glimpse of you.
EVERYDAY, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE DAY BEFORE.

Dedicated to my besutiful love, Special K

You kept saying keep eyes on the road while I was driving you to your car. The snow had fallen covering the road, you wanted to feel safe. My eyes continued to want to gaze upon your beauty to soak you in like a sponge. My heart wants us both safe, free from any harm. I want to grow old with and have our nursing home days, that we joke about. My eyes gaze at you my road to our future. So when you wonder why I stare, know it the most amazing beauty these eyes have ever seen. I'm full of love for you. I gaze and see my future, a future of hope, joy, and love. You are the key to that future. You are my journey. You are my destination in which the road leads me to. So baby my eyes are both on the road and you. Know that I will always protect us.

Dedicated to my beautiful love, Special K

After fifty years on this earth. I know I have just met my first love, my only love. There is no mistaking it because its not a feeling it just is. The love comforts the broken and bruised heart. First love that has ever awaken me every morning with the renewed hope of our future. The first love that settles me in for the night. The only love I've ever known that give back the love I give. The first love that makes me long for the future no matter how hard the path may be to get there. The first love, that I long to see everyday and in everyday. The first love I hold onto every moment, thought, word, wishing it would linger a little longer. The first love besides the Father's love I have ever known. The first love that will truly be that everlasting love. Love is an amazing word I speak often to My Special K, my first love. So many times I've mistaken feeling for love, this is not the case. This time its what I know, love has been defined by the evidence of what I have never had until a year ago. When my first love hugged me and made me, long for her everyday. Yearning to spend all my life with her giving her my all. One day our love will be forever together always.

Dedicated to my first love, my beautiful, Special K

As I sit around the fire tonight, I watch the flame dance around the edges of the wood until it's fully inflamed. It feels like my heart is on fire with just the thoughts of you. I wonder how the flame would look, what would the color be. Would it a bright fire filled with desire and want of you, my love? Would it be dancing as a thankful dance or appreciation for you? Would it someday consume me when we're fully together? Do you feel the warmth of my love? Does the flame draw you near? Or is it something you fear? My flame can't be extinguished, smothered, or fade away into the night.  

Dedicated to my eternal love, my Special K

Flaws or imperfections, I'm riddled with them. From my body all the scars from wounds and surgeries. My impatience is yet another flaw, only wanting what I know one day I will have. A dreamer one simply hoping for the delight one can only imagine. The emotional scars of the mind, remnants of a battlefield that lay wasted. Obsession, probably my biggest flaw. It's because of who you are and how you helped me change. Seeing the vibrant colors instead of the gray in which my past caused. All these flaws or imperfections have made me wholly perfected. It's perfected the way I love you. If it weren't for the scars and brokenness I'd never be the man who could love you the way you need to be loved. Everyday my flaws is what I see when I look at the reflection in the mirror. But when I look in the depths of your hazel eyes, I see what love has perfected.

Dedicated to my Special K, the perfector of my flaws